Eveleivibe
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monstanoodle
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No presents from posty today 
Sammy G
Ex-Bluelighter
Manchester Mental Health services. Don't. Just don't.
Had a psych appointment booked for Monday. I received a phone call a couple of weeks ago saying there was a cancellation and asking me if I'd like an earlier appointment, but I declined due to the fact I'd already arranged a blood test to coincide with this appointment, in order to have up-to-date lithium level results in time for the shrink.
The blood test went fine, but yesterday I came back to a letter informing me that my psych appointment has been cancelled and rescheduled for Friday. Which isn't that bad, all told, but I'd already booked the day off work and begun psyching (no pun intended) myself up for Monday. I'd also ensured I wouldn't have any drugs around this weekend, and all for nowt.![:\](https://bluelight.org/xf/BL_Images/Orig_Emoji/wrygrin.gif "wry grin :\")
To top it off, due to the fact that they switch psychiatrists every six months, this will possibly be the third shrink I'll see. Unless it turns out to be the guy who initially diagnosed me. Yeah, you really get a chance to build up a rapport...
Had a psych appointment booked for Monday. I received a phone call a couple of weeks ago saying there was a cancellation and asking me if I'd like an earlier appointment, but I declined due to the fact I'd already arranged a blood test to coincide with this appointment, in order to have up-to-date lithium level results in time for the shrink.
The blood test went fine, but yesterday I came back to a letter informing me that my psych appointment has been cancelled and rescheduled for Friday. Which isn't that bad, all told, but I'd already booked the day off work and begun psyching (no pun intended) myself up for Monday. I'd also ensured I wouldn't have any drugs around this weekend, and all for nowt.
To top it off, due to the fact that they switch psychiatrists every six months, this will possibly be the third shrink I'll see. Unless it turns out to be the guy who initially diagnosed me. Yeah, you really get a chance to build up a rapport...
Ahh fucking messing round with stuff like that is the worst 
Especially the switching psychs bit.
I'm mildly annoyed because I just had an injection and usually get the opportunity to have it in the upper arm or the arse but she basically said 'drop your trousers and bend over' and now even sitting down hurts.
Especially the switching psychs bit.I'm mildly annoyed because I just had an injection and usually get the opportunity to have it in the upper arm or the arse but she basically said 'drop your trousers and bend over' and now even sitting down hurts.
Sammy G
Ex-Bluelighter
Ouch!
Well I suppose I can count myself lucky, all told. :D
Well I suppose I can count myself lucky, all told. :D
mydrugbuddy
Bluelighter
Fucking student loans company are on my case, apparently just declaring that i have no income wasnt sufficient. They want to see copies of my bank statements and savings. I'm worried that if they see my savings they'll demand that i repay the loan from that. I dont think that would be fair as i need that money to live on, the threshold is something like you have to earn £2,500 after tax a month before you start repaying it. I've never got anywhere close to that kind of salary. I could have deffered paying the loan back for ever, i cant see myself suddenly landing a job that pays £50,000 or something. Not a fucking hope in hell.
If they do demand that i repay the loan from my savings, then at least i would be able to claim benfits again as I'd have hardly any money left. I've got 28 days to sort this out, if i can land a job in that time, it might get them off my back.
If they do demand that i repay the loan from my savings, then at least i would be able to claim benfits again as I'd have hardly any money left. I've got 28 days to sort this out, if i can land a job in that time, it might get them off my back.
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Eveleivibe
Ex-Bluelighter
They wont ffs. Its standard. I had to do this awhile back. I pay so much voluntarily.
Anyway if you
Have a lot of savings why not pay it back????
Im pissed off cause school wouldn't let my child have her snack today. Gave her some choc buttons cause was late. Wouldn't mind but the teachers are bloody fat themselves n they have the audacity to talk about healthy eating. Bunch of bloody hypocrites!
Anyway if you
Have a lot of savings why not pay it back????
Im pissed off cause school wouldn't let my child have her snack today. Gave her some choc buttons cause was late. Wouldn't mind but the teachers are bloody fat themselves n they have the audacity to talk about healthy eating. Bunch of bloody hypocrites!
mydrugbuddy
Bluelighter
Because if i dont earn £2,500 a month i wont have to pay it back, ever. I'll never have to pay it back unless this mess im in right now royally fucks everything up. They've changed the criteria since i took out my loans, so that you dont have to earn such a high salary before you have to pay it back anymore. But that was the contract on my loans when i took them out so they cannot change it.
Eveleivibe
Ex-Bluelighter
I took mine out in 2002
mydrugbuddy
Bluelighter
90-94, the terms and conditions changed after that, they must have eventually realised that not all graduates go on to become high flyers, and they were being overly generous and optimistic.
Eveleivibe
Ex-Bluelighter
Really annoyed. We were going to go to the Brinx today which was a recovery cafe in Liverpool. As I never get to do anything with my life anymore but sit here day in day out, I was really looking forward to it. It gets cancelled for the numerous time because they have to go to Cardiff. Of course I couldn't go to Cardiff because I have a daughter n no one to look after her so I couldn't go from 5 am until 11 pm.
I thought there was only 5 places but they've put a pic of the whole group going all smiling on Facebook, everyone but me.
No matter what I do I'm always on the outside looking in, I just don't belong. They all meet each other in the week. There's a new girl who's started n it "come to the drop in for a bacon butty." I'm one of the original members n I don't get offered.
Also I'm sick of watching people all happy on Facebook going out n stuff. Five bastard years of this stuff. No matter what happens nothing is ever going to change.
There comes a time when there's only so many being happy for people I can do before I ask when the f*** am I going to stop being punished n be allowed to be happy????? Because 5 years is long enough, is it not.
I thought there was only 5 places but they've put a pic of the whole group going all smiling on Facebook, everyone but me.
No matter what I do I'm always on the outside looking in, I just don't belong. They all meet each other in the week. There's a new girl who's started n it "come to the drop in for a bacon butty." I'm one of the original members n I don't get offered.
Also I'm sick of watching people all happy on Facebook going out n stuff. Five bastard years of this stuff. No matter what happens nothing is ever going to change.
There comes a time when there's only so many being happy for people I can do before I ask when the f*** am I going to stop being punished n be allowed to be happy????? Because 5 years is long enough, is it not.
^ Five years enough? Depends how you look at it. There's plenty who've been doing the addiction thing round and round for decades at a stretch. When it comes down to it... well... only one person can actually end the cycle. That's not criticism, incidentally. Not at all. I speak more to myself than anybody else
No Iceland between here and actual Iceland. Well, there's one if I go in t'other direction but involved lengthy train journey and I hear Iceland itself is pretty so would rather go there. We only have a Spar and a Co-Op here.
The butcher gave you an injection in the backside, Snolls?!?
*must resist meat injection reference*
(oops)
Not to be a dick, but that's exactly what savings are for. They are a luxury not a necessity. I'd count yerself lucky if they don't jump all over your savings. Most don't get the choice.
You're doing well too. Some kid got expelled for having a pack of cheese biccies in their lunch box just recently. Draconian? Hypocritical? Yes.
No Iceland between here and actual Iceland. Well, there's one if I go in t'other direction but involved lengthy train journey and I hear Iceland itself is pretty so would rather go there. We only have a Spar and a Co-Op here.
The butcher gave you an injection in the backside, Snolls?!?
*must resist meat injection reference*
(oops)
Not to be a dick, but that's exactly what savings are for. They are a luxury not a necessity. I'd count yerself lucky if they don't jump all over your savings. Most don't get the choice.
You're doing well too. Some kid got expelled for having a pack of cheese biccies in their lunch box just recently. Draconian? Hypocritical? Yes.
Eveleivibe
Ex-Bluelighter
Not 5 years of addiction, 5 years of being on my own feeling lonely n watching everyone having fun, pictures on Facebook. I've had enough. Things are just never going to change.
I'm sure they will. Five years still ain't so much in the grand scheme. I dread to think how long it's been for me in similar situation. A damn sight longer than five years anyway
Nowt wrong with Five Years
Nowt wrong with Five Years
ColtDan
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They will change if you change
swampdragon
Bluelighter
see, I told him he was being all zen tonight! 
Eveleivibe
Ex-Bluelighter
it isn't that simple when you're a single mother, no one to have your child and your friends don't have time for you anymore, they "too busy," then I see pictures of them clubbing on Facebook. I could curse Facebook it's the cause of so much anger. When I had my codeine addiction all was great because I had my codeine I no longer cared that I never had friends n was stuck on my own all day, every fkn day. But I don't belong anywhere. I join this recovery group, they don't offer me for coffee etc yet somehow they all know each other??? meet up in the week and so forth????
I'm obviously a horrible person or why else am I always stuck on my own????? A new girl starts the recovery group and it's come to the drop in for a coffee. Why am I never offered???? Last time I walked out for three weeks and some of the members wanted me back saying I was an original member - but nothing has fkn changed at all. I'm there to make up the numbers they don't give a **** how I'm feeling. I was looking forward to the Brinx in Liverpool. It's ok for them they can go out whenever they want. I have not been for a night out in five fucking years (this is a recovery coffee in the day but for addicts like a kind of night out thing). They'll book another date but that'll be cancelled I bet.
Sometimes wonder what the bloody point is if I disappeared of the planet no one would miss me or give a damn so long as they're all in the little groups having fun.
Oh and it's not as simple if "IF YOU CHANGE" I choose the wrong bloody partner and now my life's ruined forever instead of having the family I wanted for my child.
I'm obviously a horrible person or why else am I always stuck on my own????? A new girl starts the recovery group and it's come to the drop in for a coffee. Why am I never offered???? Last time I walked out for three weeks and some of the members wanted me back saying I was an original member - but nothing has fkn changed at all. I'm there to make up the numbers they don't give a **** how I'm feeling. I was looking forward to the Brinx in Liverpool. It's ok for them they can go out whenever they want. I have not been for a night out in five fucking years (this is a recovery coffee in the day but for addicts like a kind of night out thing). They'll book another date but that'll be cancelled I bet.
Sometimes wonder what the bloody point is if I disappeared of the planet no one would miss me or give a damn so long as they're all in the little groups having fun.
Oh and it's not as simple if "IF YOU CHANGE" I choose the wrong bloody partner and now my life's ruined forever instead of having the family I wanted for my child.