9 days clean from severe DXM abuse, feeling abnormal

[willjerauld]

Hey there, long story short I have abused drugs for 4 years now. 2 of those years, I completely wasted on DXM. I don't feel myself anymore, I'm out of energy most of the time, unmotivated, cannot focus on anything longer than a couple minutes, and depression is deep and clearly there. Anybody else that has abused DXM experience side effects like mine? I'm not even near 100% back to normal, in fact I'm just starting to clear up from that DXM-induced haze that stays with you all the time.. let me know if anyone out there used DXM almost every day, 3-5 times a week, multiple times a day.. and how you felt when you quit. Hope I start improving soon, but it's going to be a long road...

 

[sarcophagus.heels]

I'm not gonna lie, it was rough, and it sounds like you were using more frequently than I. On two occasions in the past 5 years or so, I used DXM at least twice a week for several months. When you're using it that often, you're not in reality, and it feels like the frequent trips just build on themselves and become harder to shake. After I quit, I found it hard to "reconnect" - felt very unreal, and like I was just disconnected from anything. I alternated between sadness and numbness for several weeks.

How long ago did you quit? It seems like your abuse was heavier and more prolonged than mine, so that will be a factor in how quickly you recover. Good luck, dude

 

[willjerauld]

I quit 10 days ago.. the side effects include but are not limited to:

-Weird IBS syndrome (Irritable Bowel Syndrome) that causes my bowel to hurt real bad sometimes
-Increased Anxiety, to an intensive level
-Feelings of being withdrawn from people
-The feeling of not enjoying anything I used to have fun doing.. this is a big problem for me. I don't enjoy anything I used to do really, besides playing guitar, but that's something I've done years before I got high.

Thanks for the reply, and yeah my abuse was definitely 'severe'.. I mixed it with anything, mainy Amphetamines and weed (amphetamines were incredibly dangerous to mix it with) but sometimes alcohol too. I got to get my head clear! It has been fogged for so long, I haven't accomplished much, besides the fact that I just barely made it by school, and I graduate in 3 months. hopefully I can say GOOD RIDDANCE to DXM when I graduate, acknowledging my one and only true accomplishment to come, I'm very happy I have stopped using DXM at this point though. Hit my rock bottom real fast. And it wasn't the first time, but the last rock bottom I hit was the absolute worst, ever, in my life, I couldn't handle using this drug much longer, or physically I could've really suffered.. Thank you for replying, and I will continue to do the best I can, so I can leave these days of getting fucked up behind.. I want to move on in my life, but I just cannot if I'm on DXM. That's a given. Take it easy

 

[Dunno]

Take it easy on that stuff. I didn't take it everyday, but maybe on a weekend if I was bored,didn't feel like going out.
My speech started to stuff up alot, My words jumbled up. I couldn't think of a word to say when talking to people i'd be halfway through a sentence then stop and could not think of the word.

& once the "magic" hallucinations big small, whatever end...it's crappy.

Honestly, in my opinion this is the worst brain killer out of everything I have tried

 

[willjerauld]

Take it easy on that stuff. I didn't take it everyday, but maybe on a weekend if I was bored,didn't feel like going out.
My speech started to stuff up alot, My words jumbled up. I couldn't think of a word to say when talking to people i'd be halfway through a sentence then stop and could not think of the word.

& once the "magic" hallucinations big small, whatever end...it's crappy.

Honestly, in my opinion this is the worst brain killer out of everything I have tried

Agreed. I took it way too far.. and now I must pay the price only to hope that soon enough I will return back to my old self again.

 

[Dunno]

Yep, but doesn't everyone on this board gotta pay the price. you will return to your normal self. the brain is remarkable. the things it can be put through and still recover. just keep at it you'll be fine.

 

[caseface99]

Yeah, dissasociatives don't really do anything but fuck up your brain/mind in my opinion. The damage they cause can be pretty terrible if over used, especially DXM.

 

[treezy z]

9 days off dxm is nothing. after my longest/worst binge it wasn't until i had been in the state hospital (took an insanity plea) for 6 months or so that i really felt somewhat normal.

 

[sarcophagus.heels]

Yeah, that stuff fucks you up. It's not even that fun, tbh, it's something I started doing when I couldn't get opiates anymore, and then it became something of a habit itself. Ugh. The things we do to ourselves.

 

[willjerauld]

Yeah, that stuff fucks you up. It's not even that fun, tbh, it's something I started doing when I couldn't get opiates anymore, and then it became something of a habit itself. Ugh. The things we do to ourselves.

Yeah believe me I know.. But I never enjoyed opiates for whatever reason.. believe it or not, I'd always go back to the syrup as my drug of choice. I don't suspect many other people are like this.. but it holds true for me for whatever reason

 

[sarcophagus.heels]

^ Yeah, everybody's body and mind work differently. For example, I've never fully understood cocaine addiction. I've done coke many times, but I never found the high very satisfying. Human psychology is a cruel mistress...

How're you holding up, by the way?

 

[willjerauld]

^ Yeah, everybody's body and mind work differently. For example, I've never fully understood cocaine addiction. I've done coke many times, but I never found the high very satisfying. Human psychology is a cruel mistress...

How're you holding up, by the way?

thanks for asking, surprisingly okay, i think it has to do with the fact that spring's almost here and I have the worst seasonal depression but during the spring/summer I feel new. I'm not thinking about it too much either, don't get me wrong a thought will pop up in my head every couple days or so but it's been actually very easy to block them out.

Maybe I will win this battle after all.

 

[sarcophagus.heels]

I sounds like you're doing really well. Obviously, some thought is gonna pop into your head from time to time, but that's normal, if annoying lol. But as long as you're able to push past those, then you'll be fine.

Hah, this winter is awful. My family is all in Rhode Island, and they keep complaining about the endless cold and snow. But I'm living in Chicago right now, and it's, like, the arctic tundra out here. I can't wait for the winter to end. It'd be nice to finally sit out in a park and enjoy the day. That always help lift the spirits...but I might have to wait a bit for that to happen >.>

 

[treezy z]

Yeah believe me I know.. But I never enjoyed opiates for whatever reason.. believe it or not, I'd always go back to the syrup as my drug of choice. I don't suspect many other people are like this.. but it holds true for me for whatever reason

ya i liked syrup or other dissociatives better than opiates. i did mostly syrup cuz i was gankin it back in the day.

 

[phatass]

Do you work or study? you have to find something productive to invest all this newfound time in, set yourself a project or a goal, getting started on something will set the wheels in motion, and hopefully help you regain motivation. Also being on dxm five times a week i imagine you weren't getting laid much, you should give that a shot

As for the anxiety, and given that it is likely due to your drug use and will subside, i would recommend getting Atarax (hydroxyzine) a non addictive anxiolytic anti histamine from a doctor... After My Ket, xtc, coke etc period i had anxiety and moved on to benzos and opiates, and i can assure you with all my might that you do NOT want to get on benzos, so avoid them at all costs...

You will get back to normal, but after the severe abuse it will take time

all the best to ya, and well done on getting clean!

 

[Speed King]

I used DXM almost every day for at least a year. It's going to take a long time, much longer then a few weeks to really get back to normal. Some of the effects, like feeling disconnected don't really come back. It all depends on your trip and mindset during your trips. I suggest refraining from psychoactive drugs and concentrate on health. Exercise, healthy diet, and forcing yourself to do what you did before drugs. Be positive.