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The EADD a trifle annoyed thread.

Annoyed that my best friend couldn't bother to ring me or text me to arrange Friday since we first decided two weeks ago that there would be a Friday, and despite me going 'fucking tell me what you wanna do, look up some clubs' and sending her links and everything. However one of her best mates who happens to be a good friend of mine also (she introduced us), rang me just now and we sorted everything in half an hour. Though the former friend has something of a...not an entitlement complex. Well she does. But she just won't compromise. Like I'll go to her's and she'll be like 'snolly make a cuppa' and when I protest she goes 'but you're the guest!' and when she's round mine she goes 'snolly make us a cuppa' and when I protest she goes 'but I'm the guest'.

I still love her though, I'm just bitching about a flaw of her's that gets me seeing as she does the same to me. She can twist reality, she can lie to me about outlandish things (not awful stuff, just stuff like say I only literally two years back found out she was not an avid campanologist in her youth nor does she go to salsa dancing with her husband). I can never tell. She owns a book that I am fairly sure I lent her but 'no it's always been mine'.

Most people would think she's horrible and, on reflection, they do. But we have a weird bond and are willing to tell each other we're being fuckwits and then continue a conversation normally (unless she's drunk but she's off the booze now) so that's what I will be doing as soon as she shows up tomorrow =D
 
Some people like to 'order people around' for some reason. I have no idea what was up with my dual diagnosis worker yesterday, but when i went to sit down, she said 'can i have that chair and can you sit over there' wtf. Its like she had to prove she was in charge or something, weird.

Anyway, apart from that the session went very well. I'm a bit annoyed that she seemed to be pushing me away for several months when i could have done with her help, she didnt seem to want to work with me when i was still using opis and benzos. I dont think she knew what to make of me tbh and that she was at a loss. The previous worker was 'taking me on' as i was, so i dunno why the new one couldnt do the same. Anyway, all's well that ends well, she now seems to now have a clear and spot on idea of where im at and what needs to be worked on.
 
Had enough of the mental health services. The 'treatment' is a joke to be honest, here take this tablet every day and if you don't 'get better' we will try sticking you in a hospital. At the end of the day its my fault for going down the drug route but what fucked me up was the seizure in rehab as a result of a piss poor benzo taper and giving me medication that lowers your seizure threshold even though I was coming off tamazepam, diazepam and opiates. I suffered a bit of psychosis but after that 2 hour seizure my psychosis has been ramped up to unbearable levels which leads me to wanting to use something to escape the mental and physical tormenting and that brings the circle back to full completion. I really don't see what the point of being clean is if it entails constant psychosis and having to deal with several severe physical ailments.
 
The lack of knowledge of things like the neccesity to taper off gradually over several months if you've been on benzos long term is more than a trifle annoying. I guess you cant expect everyone to know everything about everything, overall the place i go to is very good and the workers really seem to care and put some effort in. I just think some of them are a bit inexperienced, and need to spend more time on places like this, brushing up their knowledge. I'm sure I'm a 'learning curve' for some of the workers, thats fair enough about obscure Research Chemicals and other relatively obscure legal high type stuff i spose, but i would have expected them to know about benzo tapers, and why you cannot stop them abruptly after long term use. This is basic knowledge that they should all know, but they didnt have a clue.

It sounds like your 'treatment' has been negligent. You definately have to look out for yourself and get second opinions from places like this. I have far more trust in the knowledge of people on here than i do for proffessionals working in the field.
 
My keyworker from my local DSP has told me in the past how some of her fellow workers have no idea about even the most commonly used drugs,yet alone know anything about such things as a benzo taper & yet they are responsible for helping folk dealing with such issues.
She is an ex drug user herself and she thinks the place would be a lot better and be able to offer a much more informed service if more of the keyworkers were ex users like herself.
Gotta say that I agree with her.
 
yes drug users generally make it their business to learn about what they are taking. Some of the people that are meant to be advising the users dont have the foggiest. I certainly agree that this is where it would be beneficial to have more ex-users working in these places. Book learning can only teach so much, there's nothing like having the experience of using and getting off certain substances.

To be fair, some of them are specialists in certain fields. I think my DDW seems to be very strong on the CBT side of things, which could be helpfull, but on the drugs side she is out of her depth.
 
I think a lot of the staff at our DSP could learn a lot from reading through the various forums here on Bluelight. I know I have learnt a lot about drugs I've never heard of or tried from this site, it is a mine of useful information.
 
Ive learnt everything i know on here, and wiki and Erowid etc. No drugs worker has been able to tell me anything i didnt allready know (apart from the ones that were ex-users), or has given me misinformation or bad advice concerning drugs. I spose it is tricky for them, there's often some mental health/self confidence/life-management/personal responsibilty type issues with drug users, and the workers are good on that side of things.
 
mydrugbuddy said:
Some people like to 'order people around' for some reason. I have no idea what was up with my dual diagnosis worker yesterday, but when i went to sit down, she said 'can i have that chair and can you sit over there' wtf. Its like she had to prove she was in charge or something, weird.
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Yeah, it's weird that. I had a GP who would do similar to me. I'd fiddle with my hands when I was anxious and he'd tell me to stop it or I'd go in with my book I'd been reading in the waiting room and he'd demand I put it under my chair.
 
My GP always looked so tired and defeated. I'm usually there on my day and just laugh and tell him he chose the wrong profession.

My second last patient of the day is running 15 min late so I won't be able to piss off home for the weekend early :(
 
HouseFever said:
Wow what a cunt. Why would you playing with your hands bother him? Does he tell people waiting for serious test results to man the fuck up if they look nervous?
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He was indeed a cunt, especially as he was dealing with my treatment for anxiety and OCD. Seen him look up how to do a steroid injection once on his PC and then fuck it up. Twice. Surpisingly he is very frequently on holiday now as no bugger wants to see him.
 
OTW thats dedicated of you to wait, id have expected you close up and go home if anyone was late. :) But i guess if you are working in a private practice then it pays to wait.

Some of the stand in doctors we had were pretty bad. A couple of the guys could barely speak or read English. Oneof them printed out a questionnare to assess whether i needed anti depressant or not, it was obvious how i needed to answer the questions in order to get the script. His manner could not have been any more distant and declaring "i dont give a fucking shit about you". I got the script though, that was the main thing.

I guess the regular team arent bad,, allthough im allways slagging them off. There's a couple of beauties there too. One of the docs is really stunningly pretty and very caring. She asked me if i minded that she was filming her appointments that day, for research purposes for medical students to watch, i told her i didnt mind,but i forgot i was being filmed, and when she wasnt looking i couldn't resist having an admiring glance at her awesome cleavage. :o I wonder if thats what the filming was for lol, to see how often she got eyed up or something. I dunno. She never usually wore such revealing and sexy outfits. They have a new junior doc too, straight out of med school, i wish i could remember her name id ask to see her next time. She's a 10/10 and extremely pleasant with it.
 
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snolly said:
Yeah, it's weird that. I had a GP who would do similar to me. I'd fiddle with my hands when I was anxious and he'd tell me to stop it or I'd go in with my book I'd been reading in the waiting room and he'd demand I put it under my chair.
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Really?? What an absolute dickhead
 
Yeah, he sounds like a control freak virging on being a bully. That's not good at all. I'd possibly have made an official complaint if i got treated like that. It's completely out of order, particularly if you have anxiety issues you would expect that they would show more empathy than that.
 
ColtDan said:
Really?? What an absolute dickhead
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Yeah, he was. He told my mum my problems with anxiety as a youth were all her fault. I wish I had made an official complaint MDB, it was a brilliant surgery otherwise; had one of th best...hand doctor people...in the country but sadly he was an amazing doctor and surgeon so he was always booked up. He should win some sort of award. Bloke drives an old white Jeep with his initials on the plate and a hammock of stuffed animals in the back. His house backs on to the stables my little sister keeps her horses while they wait for the apocalypse and she says he has an actual stuffed lion in his conservatory. In short, he was a brilliant doctor, the other wasn't. Was gonna say 'why do they get into this profession if they don't give a shit about people' but money.
 
"Bags for life" whose handles break when full of an unusually expensive amount of groceries. And two magazines (which cos a bleedin' fortune these days so are a bit of a luxory). And break one of the two bottles of cheap booze I'd bought to see if they were decent (cos are definitely a bargain). And the card machine not working so having to run to the bank to get cash. Then mop up spilled perry, try to dry off mags and groceries as best as possible. With a queue of people waiting.

That, in short, annoyed me a trifle.

Actually, the bit that annoyed me most was that they didn't even offer to replace the magz or booze. I know they don't have to but most shops do out of general decency. At least they do in my experience of being a clumsy cunt. I dropped several lengthy hints - particularly with the magz (wiping each page down with the kitchen towel they so kindly provided to emphasise the fact they were all but useless if the pages are all stuck together (no, not those kinda magz) - but not a sausage. Did give me a free 5p flimsybag to put said sodden magz in so they didn't have to sit in a soup of stale booze for the walk home though. Which was nice.
 
Oh lord definitely worth two trifles, that. Pray they weren't at least dirty mags.

Vaguely annoyed cos Mum just rang me telling me Optical Express rang HER to arrange an eye test for me. I always went to a local opticians when I was at home and haven't had a test since (need one tho) but fuck knows how they got my Mum's number and fuck knows why she chose now to call me about it.

Other minor annoyance: Lost my form that entitles me to free prescriptions and they want evidence of my student finance before they'll reissue it. The break down of what I will receive from SFE per term will not do but, bizarrely, the letter I got over a year ago saying 'Yes we will give you money' and which included no other info will.
 
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