General Heroin Discussion #18 - v. Stupidity ain't no badge of honor

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I'm gonna call him tomorrow if he doesn't agree I'll have to tell him to fuck off

I have a huge crack craving right now it's making me go absolutely insane
 
tomatalli said:
I just got a b and a half fronted from one of my dealers and I don't think I'm gonna pay him back lol. Some of the bags were mad skimpy so he can fuck off

@northside by I really hate wasting money man if I bought it I have to put it to good use. Idk if I'm ready to get clean or even go on mmt I like being fucked up. I think I'm gonna do what you said and just use sterile water to figure it out that's a really good fuckin idea.
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Your whole fucking habit is a waste bro. stop fooling yourself. I dont mean to sound like an asshole (although i'm one at heart ;)) but god damn man you're 18 and are doing more then a bundle a day and even close, if not doing, a bundle at a time. i started opiates at 16 and and did'nt start dope till i was 23 and by then i was in 2 rehabs and 2 detoxes and that took 7 years. Dope kicked my ass in 8 months. i went from 2 bags and now if i did it right before i got on subs and then the vivotrol shot i would have been doing 4-5 bags to get high. That took me years to get to that point. fucking years man.

Just imagine your habit now and then imagine when you're 24, if you dont kill yourself or OD or get robbed shot etc. Its gonna be a miserable miserable fucking life.

Ill be quite honest. Im glad i started doing dope last spring cuz thats what took me so low so i can finally want to get clean off of it. Withdrawing in 95 degree heat whille working 2 jobs, stealing from my family (still owe my gma 1200), literally wanting to kill myself and praying to god to just fucking kill me. Im 24 and dont have a fucking thing besides the roof my parents provide. pathetic. Do you really wanna be like that. Obviously you fucking do. Jesus christ man.

FFS i could go on and on and on but its pointless and a waste of words. Its just i couldnt not say anything whether you listen or not. If you're like me and you downspiral as fast as i did then you wont even see my age, much less 21. I did'nt even do dope for a full year but it sucked the life out of me in 4 months and doing more did'nt make it better.

I dont even know anything else to say. Makes me wanna fucking yak just thinking about it. Fuck dope. Fuck it up its mother fucking ass. fuck it fuck it fuck it.

tomatalli said:
I could really go for a nice 40 of crack right now...
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You might as well at the rate you're going. Jesus fucking christ. Im not even gonna write about this one. Ill just say that no bitch is gonna wanna fuck you when you're a 18 year old dope feine, much less a crack feine as well. FFS get it together.
 
^ spot on, man.

Tom, you're a cool dude and you're young. Its just frustrating to see someone walking (sprinting at this point) in your shoes, especially when you know nothing good will come out of it. I was the same way. did'nt listen to shit and got knocked on my ass mad quick. I hope you heed at least a little bit of advice, or at least think about. I hope you eventually get the help you need. It's such a better life and that's a promise. It will take a bit but it WILL get better. Keep your head up, man.
 
I will admit you guys have kept me from trying to shoot up again I have the box of syringes I got just sitting in my room and I don't know if in gonna send them back or what.
 
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The fact you're even having this dilemma is a good sign man. I think deep down you don't really wanna do it and know it's a bad idea. Get rid of the needles, get on methadone, and enjoy your life. That's my vote, my man.

No judgment though with whatever you decide. You know I'll help you out and get your back either way.

Stay safe, brother.
 
Mr.Scagnattie said:
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The fact you're even having this dilemma is a good sign man. I think deep down you don't really wanna do it and know it's a bad idea. Get rid of the needles, get on methadone, and enjoy your life. That's my vote, my man.

No judgment though with whatever you decide. You know I'll help you out and get your back either way.

Stay safe, brother.
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Agreed. Do what you wanna do Tom. You should not even think about it and chunk them needles, ven if you regret it later. I hope you get on methadone. I dont even know you and that would make me happy. As Scag said, ill still help you if you need it regardless of the circumstances but im still gonna give you shit. :p
 
I just don't know what I'm gonna do I honestly don't get that high from snorting it no matter how good it is and how fucked up other ppl get off it. I'm the type of guy that likes to get so fucked up that I drool that's why I'm already at at least a bundle and I only relapsed in June. I just wanna feel that rush that everyone talks about IMO if I'm gonna do heroin I mine as well shoot up. The only reason I haven't tried again is because I stuck myself almost 10 times on Saturday without getting it and I like scratched the inside if my vein once or something and that fucking hurt like a bitch lol. I don't wanna fuck anything up when I shoot up like leave air in it or whatever. When you pull it back when it's in ur arm does air get into it? Wouldn't that b bad?
 
IDK about your shooting question. ive always been a snorter, fortunately.

As for BBT. Well, that nigga got banned. lmao and the one namne i saw that joined this month and was posting in this thread and the Mass thread with the same posting style got banned. 85% sure it was him. He's probaly lurking as we type.
 
It's fine if you pull back and get air in it. It creates a vacuum so that when you do finally enter the vein, the blood will automatically shoot into the barrel and fill up the space from the air.

BBT keeps getting temp banned for breaking the rules.
 
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We can't really get into the specifics of discipline shit with other members, ya know? But if anybody knows BBT... hah, I'm sure its not hard to imagine why he could get in trouble. He's just got that winning personality...
 
If Tom starts shooting up we will have to make bets on how fast he od's. I would suggest a dead pool but how would we find out if someone died.
 
lmfao "that winnining personality". haha

well, the girl getting my marijuanas hit me back so ill get that fairly soon. right after that my dad called me and said that i start back at the golf course tommorrow so im stoked. If it rains or something i stay home tho, but thats only till the 3rd when i was actually supposed to start. But god damn, im fucking happy as shit. Funny thing is that the first day im back im leaving at 130 for my appt and follow up with the sub doc lol starting off on a good note, yes i am. ha
 
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