Alright Brimz, yes of course I get you man, couldn't blame anyone from backing away from here right now. I've lost a lot from here lately and it's not all from people dying. It can be incredibly difficult to have any empathy with EADD sometimes and that's fucking ridiculous because surely we're all users right? Unfortunately that doesn't have to mean we all share something. I wish. But no.
The times, they are a changing. Sang Dylan. In the sixties. Sorry, just trying to pre-empt the inevitable Alasdair type ripostes. And all that 'be the change' bollocks Shammy's already mentioned.
Yeah, that clip you put on you tube video the other day resonated for some reason. Life before the internet, drugs with interaction, real people doing real things with drugs, and no fucking monitor/laptop in front of them. I know where you're coming from, really I do.
I'd like to know what you do for a living though, I'd always assumed you were a drug dealer like the rest of us .
No amount of 'be the change' can deny the fact of a clash beyond your control. I've spoken to a couple of old BL'ers lately who gave me quite specifically similar reasons for leaving, not a million miles from yours, and I think I'd have to be really thick not to understand. To empathise.
I only stay through this being my only ever addiction in life. Once you've been on BL 13 years crystal meth is a pussy cat.
"Don't slam the door on your way out" is something Spade put in the subject line of a PM to me when I threatened to leave once. It still makes me chuckle Bear.
If there's nothing there there's nothing there man. But fuck yeah, stay in touch. Or just....take a step back. Then, when the time is right...come back and tell the young pups what's what.