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Hehe thank you! It's so odd being in a relationship with a guy who is actually nice to me... Respects me, etc. The complete opposite of my douchey ex and it's great. We've been friendly since last year but just started dating and made "official" in early January. I want to say the "L word" but I don't want him to run away. *sigh*
 
^^ Give it time. More then likely he's thinking something similar. He probably wants to say it, but it sounds like he never has before and he's probably really anxious about it.
 
It's so difficult working out when you got almost nothing to start with... I really wanna just lie down right now and fall asleep but that sort of mentality that always keeps me down. Physically I'm weak but I can endure a lot and keep on going even after I get tired, it's just my mind telling me I can't do this or that etc Hate it

The first 2-3 weeks starting up or getting back into the gym is always terrible. It sucks both physically and psychologically. I mean think about it...look around society and tell me what you think separates the 85% of out-of-shape people from the 15% in-shape people? THOSE COUPLE WEEKS!

When I used to drink a lot, I'd always kind of secretly wish that I could get the hangover done before the intoxication, just so that I could enjoy being drunk more, not worried about what's coming in a few hours. The thing about doing positive things in recovery is that you actually can get the hard part out of the way at first, and then truly enjoy it when the rewards happen.

And you're someone who's been through battles with drugs, so if you can handle that, you can handle a little bit of pain in the gym. Trust me, if you give it your all for 3 weeks (at most), science takes over and you start to feel amazing. I always struggle those first few weeks...everything is all shaky. You need to build your stabilizers up. But once you do, around the third or four week, your strength absolutely takes off. You notice yourself standing up straight, walking is easier, you have more energy, you can bend down to pick stuff up easier, and so on.
 
My best mate who I grew up with through school has turned down a bad path recently after we've been able to score heroin. He's started using needles where as a month ago he was just plugging and eating regular morphine. Yesterday he bought half a gram for himself. I think he knows how bad addiction can get, but he is still naive about it and thinks he'll be ok with using the half gram and will be able to go a few weeks without using again. It's sad really, I feel partly responsible for introducing him to IV 3 years ago while using home bake heroin. He didn't touch needles since and said he never would again, those limits he set himself all changed once H became available :/
 
^^ What's homebake heroin?

Maybe I don't need to know, actually. >.<


Regardless - Like C.H said, feeling guilty helps no one. Though I know that knowing that doesn't always help. I know a guy who still fucks around with heroin because I shot him up 4 years ago. I fully regret doing it, and I feel for the guy... But it's one of those "shit happens" kind of things. Had I known I wouldn't have done it but twenty twenty hindsight doesn't change the fact that the shit already happened.

I'm actually planning on calling him and making Amends soon. One of the amends' still on my list to do.
 
The first 2-3 weeks starting up or getting back into the gym is always terrible. It sucks both physically and psychologically. I mean think about it...look around society and tell me what you think separates the 85% of out-of-shape people from the 15% in-shape people? THOSE COUPLE WEEKS!

When I used to drink a lot, I'd always kind of secretly wish that I could get the hangover done before the intoxication, just so that I could enjoy being drunk more, not worried about what's coming in a few hours. The thing about doing positive things in recovery is that you actually can get the hard part out of the way at first, and then truly enjoy it when the rewards happen.

And you're someone who's been through battles with drugs, so if you can handle that, you can handle a little bit of pain in the gym. Trust me, if you give it your all for 3 weeks (at most), science takes over and you start to feel amazing. I always struggle those first few weeks...everything is all shaky. You need to build your stabilizers up. But once you do, around the third or four week, your strength absolutely takes off. You notice yourself standing up straight, walking is easier, you have more energy, you can bend down to pick stuff up easier, and so on.

ive never been to the gym lol
 
Me neither Plmar and I need to get in shape. I could take my dog for walks but lots of people don't clear the snow from their sidewalks. I don't like walking in the street either.
 
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I've been trying to make it in an extremely wealthy area as a line cook. It aint working. I mean I can pay my bills and have a little fun money but ain't shit going in the bank. So I'm moving far away to the city. I love my job so I'm going to commute for now and see if I can find better housing in the suburbs (preferable) or a better job in the city. Either way should be a nice change for me. I know for the first time today I couldn't stop smiling. So glad to be moving on. Fuck you stepping stone I'm so done with you at this point you don't even know.
 
Neat!

Was surfing another forum and saw another person w/ my avatar. I suspect it was a complete copy of mine, since I actually photoshopped this particular "square" from a larger, panoramic photo. Some dude going by the name "dragon."
 
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All this weather has messed up my shopping for my man! Not only is it Valentines day (which I could give two shits about), but it's his B-Day and I haven't got him anything.
Ughh I feel like the worlds worst girlfriend at the moment. :\.

Geeze and he even took off work today! I have to go to work since I am a manager so taking off today with all that weather is not an option, I have to play catch up tonight and work until the wee hours. So I can't even dedicate my time to him.

Oh well! Every thing happens for a reason, I assume?
 
You can always make something for a gift. I'm sure he'd appreciate it even if you didn't get around to giving the gift til later on. I'm making my boyfriend cookies for Valentine's Day.

Actually the cookies are more for me, but don't tell. ;) :sus:
 
All this weather has messed up my shopping for my man! Not only is it Valentines day (which I could give two shits about), but it's his B-Day and I haven't got him anything.
Ughh I feel like the worlds worst girlfriend at the moment. :\.

Geeze and he even took off work today! I have to go to work since I am a manager so taking off today with all that weather is not an option, I have to play catch up tonight and work until the wee hours. So I can't even dedicate my time to him.

Oh well! Every thing happens for a reason, I assume?

Greeny! welcome back!

I haven't been big on Valentines day, I mean I don't mind getting gifts/giving but it's not really a big thing for me. I guess I am not as romantic as I used to be lol
 
If he's anything like me, or most men, then simply being yourself, telling him you love him, and that you're proud to be his girl is all he wants and needs. :)

Yeah, in my family we always feel weird if we get store bought crap on holidays because it feels forced--either make it or say it and preferably not on a day dictated by Hallmark. Caleb and I used to have a joke: instead of saying "I love you" we would say, "Fuck Hallmark". Still makes me laugh and cry at the same time. I think I am going to go make him a valentine.

But in all sincerity, Much love to everyone today and every other day.<3
 
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