Thinkwithportals
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So this is my first time posting on this site, though I've browsed it numerous times. I wasn't sure where to post but I could really use some insight/advice! Sorry if this gets a little long, but I would really be appreciative if someone read through/could help me out.
About two years ago I was heavy into trying any drugs I could get my hands on. My boyfriend at the time was going to a methadone clinic and gave me some of his dose. I asked him if it was addictive and he told me no, and like a gullible and stupid kid I believed him and did no research of my own. I didn't think it was all that great, and he told me I could achieve a "small rush" by IVing it. It was the pink liquid methadone. I know, really stupid and one of my biggest regrets to this day. But I didn't really care at this point in my life and would try anything. Before I knew it I was injecting it every few days, until it became every other day. And I developed a really bad needle fixation. After a few months I decided that I wanted to stop and found out just how nasty methadone withdrawal really is. Im lucky that I haven't suffered any damage to my veins or (not that I know of yet) to my overall health.
I broke up with him but still saw him and continued my dose of around 20mgs every other day for a few more months until I'd had enough and hopped off cold turkey. I made it 14 days and broke down and found other means of obtaining methadone.
Recently I've decided that this time i am getting off for good. I havent done any drugs for awhile aside from occasionally smoking pot and I want to try and be completely drug free for awhile as I have a really good career opportunity that requires it. I took my last 20mgs of methadone 6 days ago (on Wednesday) and ordered 500gs of plain bali kratom powder. The kratom wouldn't get to my house until Saturday, but I was okay with going 2/3 days without methadone. On Saturday morning though the withdrawals were really bad and I found about 1/4 of a suboxone pill that I had saved and took that (knowing i was well enough into withdrawal to avoid predicated withdrawals) it eliminated my symptoms and I felt better. I received the kratom around noon that day and waited until 6pm to test it out. I took about 4 grams in tea and noted a slight euphoric affect but that could have just been a placebo.
On Sunday I felt the withdrawal creeping up on me and took another 4grams in tea at noon. In almost minutes my anxiety and hot/cold flashes subsided.
Around midnight (today) I noticed that I was really sensitive to temperature (hot/cold flashes) and the anxiety/restless limbs were creeping up. I made some more tea (about two teaspoons, so 6 ish grams) and felt better within the hour.
So it's been 6 days (counting wednesday) since i took methadone and usually i would be writhing in pain on the floor, but i'm surprisingly content and actually have energy! (Far different from the last time i tried to kick methadone)
I'm wondering if it is too good to be true, or if I'm just lucky - or if this kratom is really all it's cracked up to be! Of course I know that it is potentially addictive and habit forming so i'm going to use as little as i have to through the withdrawal period. And gradually taper my dose after 25 days. I'm hoping that the 500grams(1.1lbs) of kratom powder will be enough to see me through as it doesn't seem like I need all that much to curb the awful symptoms.
My question is, has anyone had success with kratom in regards to kicking methadone? I am really serious about getting off it, and trying to do everything necessary to restore my body back to even levels. (Exercising, drinking water, vitamins, etc)
Any advise on this topic, or knowledge on the use of kratom would be greatly appreciated.
Again, sorry that was so long!
Also see the continuation of the Thinkwithportals' recovery saga in their more recent recovery journal's:
Congrats [mention]Thinkwithportals[/mention]!!! Keep up the fantastic work
About two years ago I was heavy into trying any drugs I could get my hands on. My boyfriend at the time was going to a methadone clinic and gave me some of his dose. I asked him if it was addictive and he told me no, and like a gullible and stupid kid I believed him and did no research of my own. I didn't think it was all that great, and he told me I could achieve a "small rush" by IVing it. It was the pink liquid methadone. I know, really stupid and one of my biggest regrets to this day. But I didn't really care at this point in my life and would try anything. Before I knew it I was injecting it every few days, until it became every other day. And I developed a really bad needle fixation. After a few months I decided that I wanted to stop and found out just how nasty methadone withdrawal really is. Im lucky that I haven't suffered any damage to my veins or (not that I know of yet) to my overall health.
I broke up with him but still saw him and continued my dose of around 20mgs every other day for a few more months until I'd had enough and hopped off cold turkey. I made it 14 days and broke down and found other means of obtaining methadone.
Recently I've decided that this time i am getting off for good. I havent done any drugs for awhile aside from occasionally smoking pot and I want to try and be completely drug free for awhile as I have a really good career opportunity that requires it. I took my last 20mgs of methadone 6 days ago (on Wednesday) and ordered 500gs of plain bali kratom powder. The kratom wouldn't get to my house until Saturday, but I was okay with going 2/3 days without methadone. On Saturday morning though the withdrawals were really bad and I found about 1/4 of a suboxone pill that I had saved and took that (knowing i was well enough into withdrawal to avoid predicated withdrawals) it eliminated my symptoms and I felt better. I received the kratom around noon that day and waited until 6pm to test it out. I took about 4 grams in tea and noted a slight euphoric affect but that could have just been a placebo.
On Sunday I felt the withdrawal creeping up on me and took another 4grams in tea at noon. In almost minutes my anxiety and hot/cold flashes subsided.
Around midnight (today) I noticed that I was really sensitive to temperature (hot/cold flashes) and the anxiety/restless limbs were creeping up. I made some more tea (about two teaspoons, so 6 ish grams) and felt better within the hour.
So it's been 6 days (counting wednesday) since i took methadone and usually i would be writhing in pain on the floor, but i'm surprisingly content and actually have energy! (Far different from the last time i tried to kick methadone)
I'm wondering if it is too good to be true, or if I'm just lucky - or if this kratom is really all it's cracked up to be! Of course I know that it is potentially addictive and habit forming so i'm going to use as little as i have to through the withdrawal period. And gradually taper my dose after 25 days. I'm hoping that the 500grams(1.1lbs) of kratom powder will be enough to see me through as it doesn't seem like I need all that much to curb the awful symptoms.
My question is, has anyone had success with kratom in regards to kicking methadone? I am really serious about getting off it, and trying to do everything necessary to restore my body back to even levels. (Exercising, drinking water, vitamins, etc)
Any advise on this topic, or knowledge on the use of kratom would be greatly appreciated.
Again, sorry that was so long!
Also see the continuation of the Thinkwithportals' recovery saga in their more recent recovery journal's:
Congrats [mention]Thinkwithportals[/mention]!!! Keep up the fantastic work

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