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Mental Health Anyone have OCD?

Cuhpcakes

Cuhpcakes

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I think I might have OCD. For one, I can't go five minutes without breathing.

I have more subtle symptoms. Intrusive ideation consisting of actions that are cool like putting a gun to my head and pulling the trigger or spinning a pistol around my finger.

Also, I listen to the same songs constantly. Never gets boring to me, I find them just as beautiful as the first time I've listened to them.

I often research the same items of interest. Mainly medical related subjects.

I stopped masturbating because my fantasies would get a bit out of hand (having sex with my sister isn't something I want to engage in nor visualize)


I find an escape from my repeatitive thoughts by blasting music or simulating a song I like in my head. or perhaps doing this is my obssession?

I use to use drugs to spark my creativity, focusing on newer thoughts that would otherwise be outcasted by my obssessions. Now, that's not such a liable option because I'm suffering terrible withdrawal symptoms. Twenty-four hours sober now. :)

What are some interesting obsessions or repetitive impulses you have?
 
I am afflicted with obsessive compulsive thoughts/actions too.

Mainly what it consists of for me is negative thought loops about anything and everything that could go wrong, repetitive fears of going "crazy", and obsessing over germs and what can get me sick.
 
ad lib said:
I am afflicted with obsessive compulsive thoughts/actions too.

Mainly what it consists of for me is negative thought loops about anything and everything that could go wrong, repetitive fears of going "crazy", and obsessing over germs and what can get me sick.
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The mind sure is an interesting instrument. I don't want to engage in violent activities, I'm a softey. :)
 
My main ocd tic is repetitive movement on my finger near my eye brow. hate it when people ask me whats wrong. other tics include counting by 5 to feel like i have some sort of control of my thoughts.
 
Yep. It's usually controllable but has come back with a vengeance during benzo withdrawal. Intrusive thoughts are the worst for me. I have a mortal fear of sickness and am obsessing over germs like crazy since it's cold/flu season. Then comes the hand-washing. So stereotypical!

Rinse, repeat. And repeat. And...

After a while your brain just gets burned out and depression sets in. Above all, OCD is a really depressing condition.
 
I really sympathise with you guys, I couldn't imagine what OCD is like.

However, I don't personally know anyone with true OCD, but it irritates me beyond belief when people say 'Oh I'm a bit OCD about that...'

I have friends who say they have OCD because they like a clean bathroom... That's not OCD, that's just good hygiene. It really annoys me when people trivialise OCD because to see someone truly suffer from OCD is horrible. A very misunderstood disorder, I think.
 
Rybee said:
However, I don't personally know anyone with true OCD, but it irritates me beyond belief when people say 'Oh I'm a bit OCD about that...'

I have friends who say they have OCD because they like a clean bathroom... That's not OCD, that's just good hygiene. It really annoys me when people trivialise OCD because to see someone truly suffer from OCD is horrible. A very misunderstood disorder, I think.
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Totally agree with you!

People just casually throw OCD around without knowing the true debilitating effects it can have. And what some people just don't understand is that it's more than just being a "neat freak"- it's much deeper.

I wish more people were aware of what true OCD is.
 
ad lib said:
I'm the same exact way. It's exhausting...
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It is very exhausting and embarrassing. I don't have it severely like some people do but I definitely have it more than acceptably normal. Some of it I realize is ridiculous and can stop if I catch myself and some things I just can't let go of. Probably most of the habits I am unaware of as I think that they are normal. But I've taken a lot of crap for my OCD behavior over the years so it must be pretty obvious to others.
 
Rebel Maven said:
It is very exhausting and embarrassing. I don't have it severely like some people do but I definitely have it more than acceptably normal. Some of it I realize is ridiculous and can stop if I catch myself and some things I just can't let go of. Probably most of the habits I am unaware of as I think that they are normal. But I've taken a lot of crap for my OCD behavior over the years so it must be pretty obvious to others.
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Do you do anything to treat it? Have you tried anything for treatment? I've tried just about everything....CBT, SSRIs, SNRIs, and benzodiazepines. The benzos kind of work in the sense that they make me forget about everything, but that is short lived. It seems like a battle I'll never truly win.
 
I don't truly believe I have OCD, like any doctor wouldn't diagnosis me with; any good doctor any way.

What helps ease my repitive obssessions is to not dwell on them, just accept.
 
What changed from your first post to now that makes you believe you do not have OCD anymore, Cuhpcakes?
 
ad lib said:
Do you do anything to treat it? Have you tried anything for treatment? I've tried just about everything....CBT, SSRIs, SNRIs, and benzodiazepines. The benzos kind of work in the sense that they make me forget about everything, but that is short lived. It seems like a battle I'll never truly win.
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Actually, I have much worse problems than that so I have never made it my primary focus to treat the OCD first. Prozac did calm it down quite a bit and benzos do help but you may need a longer acting one. I think Dialectical Behavioral Therapy and Insight Meditation helped a lot also.
 
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