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mydrugbuddy
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Im a trifle annoyed that my kitchen hygeine is so bad its upset my stomach for 2 days and i had a 24 hour flu bug on top and i had to cancel a drinks session with a friend for the 2nd time. Really gonna have to do something about my kitchen. Hopefully i will have some energy tomorrow. I think i might just set it all on fire. Problem solved. Huh.
Woke up still anxious and edgy from yesterday, having not slept much.
Asked Mum if I could go shopping with her to get some Nytol because of anxiety and fuck all sleep. She said no. I asked if she could get me some. She said yes, but wouldn't it be better for me to get out of the house? I asked if I could go shopping with her. She said no. Then she asked if I intend to overdose on them. I said no.
Honestly I've done all the getting out of the house I can, I've walked everywhere within walking distance, it's countryside for miles and fuck all else and I spent most of yesterday in the garden and it was cold and annoying and didn't work. I just want to be back in Hull where I can wander about and go see people and have a place to myself. I appreciate being here, but it's shite for all of us really.
Asked Mum if I could go shopping with her to get some Nytol because of anxiety and fuck all sleep. She said no. I asked if she could get me some. She said yes, but wouldn't it be better for me to get out of the house? I asked if I could go shopping with her. She said no. Then she asked if I intend to overdose on them. I said no.
Honestly I've done all the getting out of the house I can, I've walked everywhere within walking distance, it's countryside for miles and fuck all else and I spent most of yesterday in the garden and it was cold and annoying and didn't work. I just want to be back in Hull where I can wander about and go see people and have a place to myself. I appreciate being here, but it's shite for all of us really.
Eveleivibe
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Why wouldn't she let you go shopping with her? I love walking in the countryside for miles. Hope you feel better soon n get some sleep. If it continues to affect you go n see you a doctor. I was getting disturbed sleep n some anxiety n doctor put me on an antidepressant called Mirtazapine n now I sleep ok.
Take care, Evey x
PS: i'm going to start posting here as I get no support in TDS. Twice I've gone there upset asking for support n they couldn't care less about me or how I'm feeling so I'm post here with Brits like me who understand what I'm going through.
It's not nice feeling low n then being ignored one of those times I took 12 citralopram to calm me down as I went to uni n they had not made large copies of everything so I missed out in all the group activities. When I joined a group they ignored me n talked with each other n not one person asked me to go to lunch with them they all went in a big group n I spent three days isolated, lonely n feeling inadequate. Maybe it was something to do with the fact they've all come on to tbe masters as healthcare professionals n I'm just a single mam on benefits?
Or is it true that 80% of communication is non-verbal n that's why I struggle making friends? Like yesterdayI thought a woman was being snotty with me with something she said but my Mams friends friend said no she was joking she was smiling. I never saw her smiling n thought she was being nasty so I ignored her.
To top it off I failed one of my assignments. I never went to the tutor for help cause he said I could see a table of figures which I could not. Although he apologised I didn't feel that I could talk to him n I feel like they think I'm a joke compared with all those healthcare professions there - psychology tutors, nurses, GPs, dieticians--- and then there's me, a single mother on benefits not long finished a psychology degree n only had a 2:2 anyway.
Arrrrggggggg
Take care, Evey x
PS: i'm going to start posting here as I get no support in TDS. Twice I've gone there upset asking for support n they couldn't care less about me or how I'm feeling so I'm post here with Brits like me who understand what I'm going through.
It's not nice feeling low n then being ignored one of those times I took 12 citralopram to calm me down as I went to uni n they had not made large copies of everything so I missed out in all the group activities. When I joined a group they ignored me n talked with each other n not one person asked me to go to lunch with them they all went in a big group n I spent three days isolated, lonely n feeling inadequate. Maybe it was something to do with the fact they've all come on to tbe masters as healthcare professionals n I'm just a single mam on benefits?
Or is it true that 80% of communication is non-verbal n that's why I struggle making friends? Like yesterdayI thought a woman was being snotty with me with something she said but my Mams friends friend said no she was joking she was smiling. I never saw her smiling n thought she was being nasty so I ignored her.
To top it off I failed one of my assignments. I never went to the tutor for help cause he said I could see a table of figures which I could not. Although he apologised I didn't feel that I could talk to him n I feel like they think I'm a joke compared with all those healthcare professions there - psychology tutors, nurses, GPs, dieticians--- and then there's me, a single mother on benefits not long finished a psychology degree n only had a 2:2 anyway.
Arrrrggggggg
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Thanks 
Anxiety is a bitch yeah, and she wouldn't let me go because I'd just fight with my sister, apparently. We're both in our mid 20s but it's true we do get at each other sometimes.
And yeah feel free to post here more, lot of people feel more comfortable in a smaller more relatable subforum, tho TDS is awesome for what it does. And I feel you on the group work at uni, I'm a bit older than most the people in my classes at 26 and I feel a bit out of place and hate working in the groups, would much rather do my own thing but I guess that's how you get on in life
My missus is a bit like you say you are with the non verbal communication, she'll say to me that she thought someone was being a dick to her but it'll have been the opposite, can be hard to talk to some people. She hid behind me when I ran into one of my old housemates, bless 
All my friends like her but she will think they don't and even I have to be careful saying or doing certain things sometimes, but you learn how to adapt in both directions.
Anxiety is a bitch yeah, and she wouldn't let me go because I'd just fight with my sister, apparently. We're both in our mid 20s but it's true we do get at each other sometimes.And yeah feel free to post here more, lot of people feel more comfortable in a smaller more relatable subforum, tho TDS is awesome for what it does. And I feel you on the group work at uni, I'm a bit older than most the people in my classes at 26 and I feel a bit out of place and hate working in the groups, would much rather do my own thing but I guess that's how you get on in life
My missus is a bit like you say you are with the non verbal communication, she'll say to me that she thought someone was being a dick to her but it'll have been the opposite, can be hard to talk to some people. She hid behind me when I ran into one of my old housemates, bless All my friends like her but she will think they don't and even I have to be careful saying or doing certain things sometimes, but you learn how to adapt in both directions.
knock
Bluelighter
I don't get how anyone has time and energy for maintaining themselves whilst also doing a job and perhaps having some actual fun. I've been doing chores for three hours, sick of it and I've barely made a dent in it. This annoys me. I don't know how people do it.
StoneHappyMonday
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Regularity.
If you do chores every day, they last minutes.
Chores now and again....bits of the odd hour.
Chores MDB style - years to the point of insanity.
Happy mediums. Maybe I mean Happy Mondays.
Oh. Standards come into it too.
Next.
If you do chores every day, they last minutes.
Chores now and again....bits of the odd hour.
Chores MDB style - years to the point of insanity.
Happy mediums. Maybe I mean Happy Mondays.
Oh. Standards come into it too.
Next.
knock
Bluelighter
I've got standards you cad!
My cutlery is spotless. There is no cleaner cutlery in the Western hemisphere.
I'm pretty clean myself too :D But everything else can visit france.
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StoneHappyMonday
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Copulater/copulate surely?
I put my desserts in the wrong way round and they came out stressed.
Work it out.
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knock
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haha. you're right I was drunk and behaving like a yob.
im a trifle annoyed.
been postponing planning anything for new years eve hoping something will come up. and nothing.
NADA!
not a single invite from any of my friends. not that they are doing much.
shit.
going away from town is fucking expensive.
clubs are expensive too. and half the quality...
who includes food when going to a club? who wants to eat all that crap they include anyway??
been postponing planning anything for new years eve hoping something will come up. and nothing.
NADA!
not a single invite from any of my friends. not that they are doing much.
shit.
going away from town is fucking expensive.
clubs are expensive too. and half the quality...
who includes food when going to a club? who wants to eat all that crap they include anyway??
StoneHappyMonday
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Food in a club? Is it trifle? Is that why you're a trifle annoyed?