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MDPV Megathread 10: Stuffandnonsensemonger

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nick is on the dangerous road right now, oh I fucked up, big tima.. hope ya all good my loved fiends.
 
thanks mate, and goes the other way too ;)

But yea.. I am fuckin up, loosing people in my life this time im sure of.. Did m1 yesterday till today/ drinkin right now while on antabuse (thanks benadryl for I can, lol). + I have done sum bad things for long time that did come to news for one of my people(my gf) yesterday.. All this have me thinkin of who the hell I am. And what the fuck I am doing. Man don't know if I can live like this anymore, not being totally honest. So many lies :(
 
well.. 2,2g m1 and 2g Mephedrone later.. And piss-test later. I am doomed, they gonna kick me out. Oh well not giving up.
 
First coming out there tomorrow (moved it a day), but yea they do on me now. If I told I have drank 1 beer, and only that beer, they will kick me out faster than I can drink a beer (and its fuckin fast haha). Worst is im thinkin of doing sum more m1 or meph, man my life falling apart, and the craving for stims is insane. Sum mdpv right now.. WOW
 
Nicklazz, have you thought of taking up walking in the countryside? Fresh air and exercise is good for you :D

Mind you I could take my own advice.
 
long walks in general are thought to be healthy!

nick man try to not do any more damage man... put down the meph and m1!
 
It sadly don't say me much, maybe if I just was there, I would like it. But as it all is right now, the countryside can fuck off, lol. But thanks for the tip mate <3

Now you all see how stupid and how I live on the edge. Getting a gram of m1 here soon. I have made up my mind, im too weak right now to stand the cravings (got beers in my system = idiotic behaviour may occur). Im doomed. But I try live with it and go other places to get help and try do it better there. Aint over before Nick is all clean or dead with 3g mdpv in system swallowed because he wanted to get high.

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already too late kingme, I can't battle my mind and cravings right now. Its game over for that piss-test.
 
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heck man, what can i say. i wish we could help you more...

still, a friend irl that might help you throuh these cravings might be a whole lot better than an internet forum where drug talk might just be too much temptation to take.

are you still battling the voices and paranoia and whatnot?
 
I've been wanting to post here for years now - since I was a frequent (ab)user of Ivory Wave when it first hit the United States (my state was approx 2.5 years ago). I do not feel right about posting these two things in the same comment however - so I will follow this up with my question. First comes first though and Nicklazz I have been following your story since the beginning of this Megathread #10 and it tears me up inside to hear you having such a hard time. Addiction can be pure evil and destructive. I hope you keep hanging in there. As I am sure you've experienced there is always some light at the end and there will be a time or at least extended periods of time where you can put this behind you and have some pretty great days. My longest clean time has been a little over 5 months - and I am kind of in the cycle of a 10 day or so binge followed by typically 2-3 months of sobriety. I read all of your posts and can see how passionate you really are about wanting to get over particularly the MDPV use - you are committed to wanting to quit and that will serve you very well in your gettin clean. Appears you have some pretty great support here - I hope I can do my part to do what I can for you and others. Thoughts are with you and look forward to speaking with all of you frequently.
 
Hi O-$how85, welcome to BL!

Your first post was very thoughtful, thank you.

Your second post was sourcing and we do not allow that, so I have unapproved it. Please do not use BL to seek drugs.
 
knock - thank you, glad to be here and look forward to learning along the way and also hopefully doing my part as well. I apologize for the sourcing - I misunderstood thinking I was okay if I left just did not mention any names etc. - I do however after you pointed it out how it was along the seeking lines, I didn't put enough thought into that, and won't happen again - not why I am here. Thank you for pointing that out, and of course again for the welcome.
 
Nicklazz, I'd better take anything but M1 to fill drug craving if I were you.
M1 is very short life, and it lead very fast to depression, and depression lead to MDPV/whatever more craving.
If you want empathogene to numb your MDPV craving, I'd advise to long acting one, like 6-APB or AMT.
 
I need some to keep me going , but that stuff is jus insane not in moderation, one hell of a bang if u get the right stuff
 
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Nicklazz, I'd better take anything but M1 to fill drug craving if I were you.
M1 is very short life, and it lead very fast to depression, and depression lead to MDPV/whatever more craving.
If you want empathogene to numb your MDPV craving, I'd advise to long acting one, like 6-APB or AMT.
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Definitely agree with this! The stuff is too tempting in my eyes and if u have no self control u will make things worse (meaning cut ties with your supplier) its evil stuff when abused, way too tempting as im sire u all know
 
i dont think amt is that good of a suggestion for mdpv cravings, or any other kind of stim actually. m1 is definetly not that good of an idea, but amt is primarily a psychedelic and therefore might not be handled well by a craving mind. that, combined with it needing a medium dose to get to a nice place, and the risk associated with it being a slight maoi... i wouldnt recommend it. 6apb might be better but somehow i feel abstinence is best.
 
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