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thenightwatch said:
i even took a year off after high school, lol...

ended up on academic suspension at two different schools...

the second time i actually thought i was doing the responsible thing.... i was trying to work 40 hours a week, go to school 14 hours a week, and keep an engagement going with a girl i thought was the love of my life.... i couldn't juggle all three though, and decided i had to drop something.... i figured school was the most sensible thing to drop out of, since i was going to be moving a few hundred miles away after that semester anyway... unfortunately, i didn't realize that dropping out that semester would make me ineligible for financial aid in the future...

the less educational part of the story is: then i got fired from the job, and the girl left me.

the moral of the story is, though: stay in school and don't fuck it up. it actually is one of those golden opportunities that is very difficult to get back if you lose it.
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I'm sorry for giving you so much shit over the last 18 months or so in TL. I never knew it went down like that.
Maybe you can apply for voc rehab like I am, or some form of non-government educational funding.
 
^Things getting better, entheo?

johannes kreisler said:
back story!
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Woah, interesting stuff. I must admit that I'm a lil' envious of your bravery, at the very least it gives your "unconnectedness and incongruence" a literary sheen. Sorta some 60s stuff going on, and that always feels more hopeful than 50s stuff. Whether or not there is any real difference is beyond my powers of speculation.

I hope things feel like they're moving forward for you, and there's some learnin' goin' on along the way.


dondante said:
..y'all are just a bunch of Turkeys
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I don't even know what that means.

Have some music everybody, just 'cause.
 
Hey there buddy, just replied to your pm. I think you'll be okay, you've already made it to about T+8hr so you should be through the worst of it. Lay down with a cool rag on your head and play some happy music that you like. It's good your brother is on standby if you need him but I think you'll be okay. I'm here if you need me bro, I'm just a pm away
 
Never Knows Best said:
Woah, interesting stuff. I must admit that I'm a lil' envious of your bravery, at the very least it gives your "unconnectedness and incongruence" a literary sheen. Sorta some 60s stuff going on, and that always feels more hopeful than 50s stuff. Whether or not there is any real difference is beyond my powers of speculation.

I hope things feel like they're moving forward for you, and there's some learnin' goin' on along the way.
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thanks man!
seems like bravery and desperation lie close together. in retrospect it's always better to construct your past like a novel from the 60s when in fact it was just a huge mess. just like the 60s. maybe.
actually I feel that enough learning has been done. that is: the decisive quantum. the 51st %. I will not run head first against the wall or into the void any more - no matter how dysfunctional my life-style happens to be from time to time. it's a good feeling, it comes from within. ...approaching thirty. don't know if it's maturation or just the age.
however experiencing that it is in my hands to lead the very life I always wanted to live was the most important lesson. this is the learning process that never stops.


schedule for tomorrow: 180mg 6-apb (maybe some tryptamine on top) or 45mg aMT (ir) with one of my best friends whom I haven't seen in months. good old psychedelic euphoria to sort things out.

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@entheo: this experience sounds horrible. feeling sorry for you...
I hope you feel better by now. give yourself a few days of rest and trust in the healing power of you own body&mind. it's just a matter of time...

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(sweetness 8) )
 
^Apparently soundcloud works for me on Opera...now I can offer opinions sooner or later.

You know they sell those mini-bottles of wine in like four packs? Yeah so I wanted to drink on the walk home from work (I live in a different city, so it's a decent walk) and figured multiple small bottles would be more surreptitious than sneaking drinks from one large one. THe price was less than ideal, to put it mildly, but it bore fruit in this haiku for y'all:

Potted bamboo sway
thousand dreams of the Orient
in Los Angeles

jk said:
seems like bravery and desperation lie close together
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Not necessarily, perhaps in more psychedelic thinking (not necessarily using) scenes like you described, there seems like there was a striving towards something, and some real humanity. In my experience with people (if not tweakers or junkies, people at the End of the Line as far as drug use goes), there was certainly an unspoken desperation in everyone...but there was nothing constructive or brave about it, everyone was in their own private little death spiral towards some nameless horror, though awareness of this varied.

Anyway, it gives me hope to hear you slightly older folk able settle, or become more sufficient in existence/direction unto yourselves. Part of what keeps me going is that this feeling that everything has to be figured out and decided/got to NOW is an inherent part of my youthfulness, and will abate with time. It'd be nice to feel like the sky weren't falling, or there wasn't yet another massive personal meltdown just around the riverbend.

As I've said/theorized before: the beauty of youth is in the fiery transience of the cherry blossom, while the beauty of the mature is in the constancy of the pine.
 
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Roger&Me said:
kinda. there are lots of "candy shop" type psychiatrists in my area at least. you can get any of the major ones without too much hassle, plus an adderall script too for good measure. but my state is notorious for shady doctors, its probably not like that everywhere.

in somewhat related news, i had a headache so i took some gabapentin and now a couple hours after taking it i have a strange urge to go out and drink, party, do a bunch of blow, fuck bitches, and rage like crazy. i mean, i usually have that urge, but now its much stronger than usual. it sucks being older, i don't think i could make anything epic happen on some random monday night like back in the old days. well i mean, in the old days a gram of dro and a six pack was epic shit, but i miss that feeling where little things were hugely fun. getting together just cuz. now it seems like a chore to get together with friends.. i bet if i called my go-to party bros right now they would tell me to fuck off and go to sleep lol. back in the day it was like fucking assemble and everyone was right there.

i think one of my biggest character flaws is my nostalgia for the good ol' days, tbh
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Damn that's cool shit! In the US we knowresribe around 4-5 benzos, all which other countries above due to the paradoxical reactions they cause. I know what you mean as well, I'm no "old" man but there are certain times where things simply don't feel exactly the same but IMO it's almost up to you to bring the magic back! Uhggg So many pages to catch up on again! <3 My brothers hope you all doing well!
 
Oi, I really need to get on some semblance of a routine, days just melt away.

Delsyd said:
Well hey Ms. Vines, it's always nice to see you pop in here.
What is the NC crew? Like North Carolina? I know a few BLers living in Asheville. Will be having thanksgiving with the one and only Xorkoth tomorrow.
Glad to hear things are going well you.
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I hope you had a great time! And yes, North Carolina, I know CS and Neko are in a-ville but I can't remember whom else. Do you know Samadhi_Smiles contact info or new handle? I suppose I'm going senile in my old age. ;) Super happy to hear from you! Gosh, we should organize a get together sometime.

Never Knows Best said:
^Well I hope y'all have a happy thanksgiving.



The only thing I could score right now is probably some Doctor Who DVDs. I'm not fraternizing with drug types these days, and people generally meet me, not the other way around, so yeah. I'll keep it in mind though.

Gathering my friends is like trying to herd cats.<---This
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The Doctor!!!!!!
[video=youtube_share;Tyo1c9JmEkg]http://youtu.be/Tyo1c9JmEkg[/video]


freehugs said:
This isn't harm reduction so I decided to post it in the social sooooooooooooo:
Have any of you guys ever been deep in a trip, trying to figure out stuff about your life, and then when you finally figured out a very important piece of information it was almost impossible for you to physically say it?
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Sure, although it isn't something I've ever felt specifically distressed over. I mean, words are great and all but I suppose I accept the disorganized thinking as an added bonus to the experience. Mental tetris. Words are often self-limiting because the experience is deeper than the rigid confines of our lexicon. Time also helps the brain assimilate thoughts pretty effectively as well. We can be our own worst enemies by over intellectualizing and compartmentalizing our emotions.
:)
So, just go with the thought, observe it, make it tangible, but wait to define it when you are in a more capable state. :)
morninggloryseed said:
https://soundcloud.com/morninggloryseed/hollywood-forever-cemetary

Finished and premastered.

MGS on guitar, bass, production
BK on vocals.
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Gah, totally reminded me I need a new harmonica. :(
 
Good to see some familiar faces around here.

Never Knows Best said:
I don't even know what that means.
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Turkeys with a capital T!





... In all honesty, I don't know what I meant either. Seems to be a case of post-ambien amnestic forum posting. :)
 
HI Y'all!! Long time no talking. Woke up thinking about BL and specifically Toballa and SKL. Couldnt remember Toballas name and that was super upsetting to me but then I remembered it... KURT. His name was/ is Kurt.

Nice to see some familiar names/ faces. Hi Roger! Hi SHAMBLES (is he still around these parts?)

Im doing really good. Found myself thinking about the true purpose of my experiences with DMT today. Its hard to come across something so humbling and beautiful and not fully understand the what whys and hows of it all.... psychedelic problems.... MWA. LOVE AND LITE <3
 
I found one of my OLD dexedrine from when ihad a skrip. Brought back memories just seeing it. I used to put 10 of those up my nose at a time. All time pd king of speedrants
 
^hai llama, you staying outta trouble bro?

*Love*Lite* said:
HI Y'all!! Long time no talking. Woke up thinking about BL and specifically Toballa and SKL. Couldnt remember Toballas name and that was super upsetting to me but then I remembered it... KURT. His name was/ is Kurt.
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hi lovelite!

coincidentally, i suddenly thought about tobala late last night / early this morning and made a post in his shrine thread

some synchronicity going on there, for sure
 
Relatively dog. Havent used since i caught this last public intoxication. Of all the times to get a public intoxication. Ive walked down the street on the block sniffing the white off my hand before and not been hassled.
 
You must have been pretty fucked up dude.
I talked to cops while on 30mg+ of etizolam, in a blacked out state, holding a beer in my hand after hitting my gf's brothers car. And i guess they just told me to go inside my house (i dot remember, i was told.) Yeh i was pretty lucky. And that was enough to make me not want to take benzos to get fucked up ever again.
 
I was. Benzos+white. And thats cause my parents took 4 off of me beforehand. Had i gotten into the 4 i had i might not be here. That particular stamp apparently killed somebody
 
sometimes PI is what they slap you with when they just feel like fuxing with you but don't have anything else solid to hit you with
 
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