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TDS *Trigger warning* Please read. I need help.

lovegluegunnin

lovegluegunnin

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I think my dad molested me when I was little. I have recurring nightmares of him raping me and molesting me on and off where I'll have the same dream a week straight and then not experience it for 6 months or so. I have this sense of wariness when I'm around him, I have animosity toward him and anger toward him for reasons unknown. Could it be possible that it happened, but it was so traumatic that I blocked it out, and my mind is sub-consciously bringing it back to me?
 
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It's possible, but dreams are funny things too. Have you talked to a therapist about this?
 
spork said:
It's possible, but dreams are funny things too. Have you talked to a therapist about this?
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I have a psychologist and I just started seeing a therapist, so I wasn't too sure about telling her things right when I met her. It was really just letting her get to know me the first meeting, but I'll mention it the next time I see her, which is Monday of next week.
 
I think that's a good idea. Sometimes dreams are representative of repressed memories. Other times, they can be bizarre manifestations of aspects of our psyche.

And, I suppose, sometimes they just are.

It's very important, I think, to try and be as sure as you can be about their origin before allowing the thoughts to wreak havoc on your reality, no?

Congrats for being willing to approach this with a therapist. I think that would be of great benefit to you! I hope it goes very well :)
 
Vaya said:
I think that's a good idea. Sometimes dreams are representative of repressed memories. Other times, they can be bizarre manifestations of aspects of our psyche.

And, I suppose, sometimes they just are.

It's very important, I think, to try and be as sure as you can be about their origin before allowing the thoughts to wreak havoc on your reality, no?

Congrats for being willing to approach this with a therapist. I think that would be of great benefit to you! I hope it goes very well :)
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Oh I'm definitely not going to let myself believe that my father is a rapist just yet, lol. I just know a little bit about dreams and psychology and wanted some insight to what others thought about it.

Thanks for that. It took me a while to let anyone help me at all, let alone a stranger who gets paid to help me. I just have to keep reminding myself, or telling myself that this person his here to help me regardless of their motive, and I may as well take advantage of the opportunity as lots of others want and need what I have but don't have the means to afford it. I'm very fortunate, and I hope I never forget that. Thank you for the advice.
 
You're absolutely welcome! I'm glad you brought it here...takes courage, it really does :)
 
lovegluegunnin, would you rather this thread be moved to the Mental Health forum as the thread's prefix would indicate, or would you prefer it remain in TDS?
 
Vaya said:
lovegluegunnin, would you rather this thread be moved to the Mental Health forum as the thread's prefix would indicate, or would you prefer it remain in TDS?
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I have no preference as to where it goes, as long as it doesn't trigger anything for anyone. Thank you for asking, though!
 
I know that sometimes in schizophrenia the person will have a delusion that someone did something bad to them, but if it's something that's recurring there might be something there. It's just really hard to say. I'd say best take it up with your counselor.
 
nuttynutskin said:
I know that sometimes in schizophrenia the person will have a delusion that someone did something bad to them, but if it's something that's recurring there might be something there. It's just really hard to say. I'd say best take it up with your counselor.
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That I've read but completely forgot about until now, thank you for bringing that up. It's definitely recurring, I've had this dream for as long as I can remember.
 
Don't get a man convicted on a dream. A therapist is not an eye witness. The things that will happen to a man in prison under those allegations are horrible. Also, hypnosis is not reasonable evidence.
Please don't think I'm being a jerk for saying this. Allegations of abuse are not to be taken lightly.
 
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