idk even know what to say about heroin anymore that hasnt already came through without even realizing it. when I told my mom I had used heroin before it was like I just told her where the body was buried at. fucking sucks man, making my mom cry and shit.'I didnt sign up for that. I didnt really sign up for anything though, probably why I started using drugs tbh
couldnt find something positive to enjoy and strive for so I went the less thought intensive route and wound up liking that a little too much
used to be sports but it was like nah im not tall/strong enough to do anything serious with that
then it was computers but I just learned a bunch of shit with no real professional oppurtunites
now its just like well Ill just get fucked up and at least keep myself entertained because I dont know what else to do anymore
and then that runs its course and youre just like fuck now Im really not sure wtf im gonna do
Once that guilt sets in it becomes harder to enjoy the drugs, but also harder to quit since you don't want to have to deal with all the guilt that you are flooded with when you stop.