Glad to hear about the CWOF Noc...you just gotta play their games for a year probably have to go to N/A meets and RANDOM UA's so you betta behave!!! I'm glad I got an Administrative Probation for that copper theft bull...they dropped the larceny charge in exchange for pleading guilty to Recieving Stolen Property(even though I didn't even touch the damn metal)... My court-appointed lawyer said if I went to trial, just on circumstantial evidence(me showing my ID to try and cash it in; the asshole that did it was there but was smart enough not to show his face) I could lose the case and be looking at some serious time. I just have to pay a $50 court fee by Dec 9 (having trouble getting the money cause when I get money in my hand it's auto pilot straight to my dealer's house
) also have to do community service (48 hours by Sept. 11 the day my year's up) I talked to my P.O. and she said I could do it all at once, one day a month or however i want. Going to wait till spring and summer come and I'll knock it out...and finally just stay out of trouble...that's pretty easy...
How do they know that you're going to NA meetings with them being anonymous and all? In NY they make you go to outpatient rehab and you sign a waiver for your P.O. so that your counselor can send reports of your progress to them, as well as your drug test results. Idk, I might have heard of some people being able to get something signed at an NA meeting, but I've never seen that happen in person.
its horrible..i was having my dad pull 350$ every 2-3 days when i lost my job 3 weeks ago just so i could function because i had some important shit to take care of..my parents have known about my addiction probs but my most recent opiate run has been from my motorcycle accident and its honestly just horrible when i think of the shit i put them through..having them find rigs n shit..my dad actually poked himself one time when i was trying to fight him to get my lil sock of rigs and spoon back.
Damn, $350 every couple of days is a lot for your dad to pay for your habit. I can see them giving you enough money for dope just to keep you well, but with that much money you had to have been getting more than just 'well' sometimes. I mean I'm sure that you were doing less than usual with that amount of money, but as long as you spaced it out enough you should be able to stay well using 1/2 or even less of your normal dose.
coming clean to the family is never easy; esp. those families who are not used to having someone w/ a problem. my family did not have a clue how to take it when i came forth; they all started to say they "knew" it and could see it but wasnt sure. i really DOUBT they saw shit but they wanted to say that. i wasnt even living in the house and was high always when they were not around. sure, i was probably jammed when i did see them but never nodding or anything like that. who knows, tho. but they came and said all that and panicked a bit more than what i was ready for. went to rehab, bounced, saw family, they cried, went back to rehab, bounced. saw family, they cried. eventually I OD'd and family picked me up and brought me to the hospital and I got locked in there for a bit. thats when I came clean. since leaving the family has been behind me and supporting the sobriety, but family is def. NOT easy to deal w/ all along the way. then again, maybe just how I saw it, others may see it differently.
I actually think that a lot of times they know but are in denial so don't figure it out on their own, but aren't surprised when you drop that bomb on them. For me my parents started to think that I was mentally ill because I was chain-smoking cigarettes and let my hair get grow a little wild, plus wasn't going out with my friends nearly as much as usual and basically just sat on the computer [*cough* bluelight *cough*] all night lighting the next cigarette off the last one.
Yeah, I've always been terrified of that, I know someone who got fungal endocarditis from puddle water and died....the whole hospitalization thing, not to mention physically damaging your heart....fuck that!
When I relapsed when I went back east 9 months ago...I found two of those 16 oz solo cups full of used cottons that weren't wrung out...My friend was just shooting up and then saving the cottons for like a whole year...Those two cups kept me not just well, but fucking high for 2 1/2 weeks! And I was just throwing 5-6 at a time in the cooker, mashing them around and then shooting it! Sounds horrible, but they were completely dry...I ws so scared of endocarditis in the few months following....but it never happened...Strangely, with all that cotton mashing, I didn't get cotton fever at all from those cottons!
I used to have a really good method for using my cottons, and whoever I showed it to was very thankful that I showed them.
All I did was back-load the cottons into the syringe, and push them 3/4 of the way down. Then I would put the plunger back in about 1/2 inch from the pin, and draw up water until the rig was between 1/2 and 3/4 full. From there I would pull the plunger all the way back which would pull the water back where there would be air in the first 1/2 inch or so closest to the pin (would have to point the pin up to help with this) and would push the water through the cottons until it got to the tip of the syringe, and then I would draw it back through the cottons again until the plunger was all the way at the back of the barrel.
I would do this a handful of times to allow the water to pass through the cottons enough times to fully 'wash' them, and then I would either back-load a new rig from the cotton rig, pushing the plunger all the way down and as hard as possible to squeeze out every drop, or I would do that back into a cooker and re-filter it with a new cotton into a new rig, but using as small of a cotton as possible to keep it from retaining any dope after going through all of that to get every last molecule of dope out of it.
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