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[MEGA] MDMA Comedown support thread - Ch. 1 - New Beginnings

Thank you PMZ for your answer.

What were your symptoms on your initial comedown and how much have you recovered? How long have you been suffering?

After seeing your recovery process, do you believe that 100% recovery is possible?
 
Macenroe said:
Thank you PMZ for your answer.

What were your symptoms on your initial comedown and how much have you recovered? How long have you been suffering?

After seeing your recovery process, do you believe that 100% recovery is possible?
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The typical anxiety, hating my life. Having no idea how to function. It was so bad in the beginning that I thought I had to kill myself Its been 7 month.
Right now. I honestly feel oddly like a silly mother fucker and am in a good mood. Yeah I still feel like disassociated but its not bothering me. I feel in a few more months I should be good. 100%? I have no idea but I'm not concerned or worried anymore. So i think it says a lot from the beginning. Pull your socks up sport. Its gonna be alright
 
I'm one that's been in the scene for 15+ years. There's a very simple answer to this question imo. 1st.....u should . Please as n ahead a lol and grab a friend's ssri....like Zoloft, prozac or w/e. Taking one of these chemicals before mdma is a horrible idea if your looking to "roll" but Taking some after your peak or when your done will greatly help, I also don't recommend redoseN more than once.....you should save some brain chemicals for normal function of your emotions:!
 
PMZ, do you feel like your cognitive habilitys came back fine once the anxiety disapeared? I have the feeling that the anxiety is responsable for that decline in cognitive habilitys because when the anxiety goes away at night, I feel 10 times smarter than in the morning.

Are you capable of working again or studying? How bad you were at the beginning? Are you capable of reading again?

How long it took you to be a functional human being again?

Thank you for your time bro!!!
 
Macenroe said:
Hi guys! i am on my 3rd month long term comedown experiencing anxiety, derealization and some mild cognitive impairment.

Everyday I experience the same cycle, I wake up anxious, spaced out with some derealization and as the day progresses I end up feeling almost fine close to 100% me at night. In the morning I have social anxiety where is even hard for me to come out of home but then usually after 7pm I feel good again, sharp, quite social and mostly functional.

Then I go to bed, sleep and wake up in the same nightmare again. I want to think that a lot of my symptoms are related to anxiety but i am not shire.


Have any of you guys experienced the same fluctuations and cycles? If yes, have you recovered greatly?

Looking for some help.
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Hi Macenroe. Here is something I lifted from the DP manual that I thought might interest you:

"Question 10
I find that in terms of anxiety/dp, mornings are more difficult than the nighttime. Is this common?
Yes, it’s extremely common! It seems that mornings are often more difficult for people with anxiety/dp than the evening/nighttime. I know it was certainly that way for me - although I'm not really a morning person anyways!
And yes, I’ve heard from people who have said that they have found the mornings to be easier than the evenings too! In fact, this tiny variation are a perfect example of what people often panic about, when in fact, it’s a totally innocuous thing.
It makes NO difference whether you feel better in the morning or the evening. It doesn’t mean anything, there is nothing significant about it at all. You don’t need to worry about it, or even think about it, because it has and will have no bearing whatsoever on your recovery.
All these worries, all these so-called issues and problems, will disappear completely, just like all the symptoms associated with the condition."

I recommend you buy a copy and read it through. My DP is still pretty intense, but the text has helped me immensely...
 
Unwarranted pedantry to follow:

Y'know, I think that it's useful to discriminate between comedowns (ie, immediate after-effects as the compound wears off, spanning to up to a few hours), hangovers (that is, unpleasant effects for 1-3 days following use), and chronic after-effects (anything more enduring than the former two).

Why'd we decide to call all of these "comedowns"?

ebola
 
Thank you Herenow!

Hey bro, maybe you can describe me what are your symptoms right now, please give me as many details as you can.

I feel spaced out, like in a daze, a dream. Do you feel the same? Have you experienced any improvement lately?

Are you still working right now? How you manage to keep up with your tasks?
 
ebola? said:
Unwarranted pedantry to follow:

Y'know, I think that it's useful to discriminate between comedowns (ie, immediate after-effects as the compound wears off, spanning to up to a few hours), hangovers (that is, unpleasant effects for 1-3 days following use), and chronic after-effects (anything more enduring than the former two).

Why'd we decide to call all of these "comedowns"?

ebola
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A lot of the chronic after-effects of MDMA use/ abuse are qualitatively similar to the experience of a regular bad comedowns/ hangovers (anxiety, emotional instability, irritability, brain fog, depression, twitching etc), although they are admittedly different in a few ways (duration; evolving symptoms in a long term comedown such as the transition from emotional instability to anhedonia; varying intensity of certain symptoms etc). We don't know much about MDMA, and to compound matters, no one who consumes MDMA acknowledges subjective accounts of negative MDMA after effects for obvious reasons, causing a general lack of discussion (on this forum, at least). I think this is one of the reasons no standardised categories for these things have been established to date amongst the MDMA community. What you view as after-effects (say a severe mood dip for a week or two) may very well be considered a regular comedown for a seasoned MDMA veteran for whom these longer comedowns have become "normal". At what point exactly does a hangover morph into what you call chronic after effects.

A long term comedown also implies an end point, which is a whole lot more positive and productive to recovery. For many people, but not all, this is a mental battle and these little things can make a difference. No one wants to be indefinitely doomed to the fate of being a victim of chronic MDMA after-effects.
 
I feel everything ur feeling. Spaced out, derealization, constant anxiety, vision problems, speech problems... I'm on month 5. It has gotten significantly better, but it's still no fun.. I still work but everyday feels like a bit of a struggle. I just kind of power through it I suppose.

What has helped me the most is realizing that might symptoms are not MDMA specific. If you visit other forums besides blue light, you'll discover hundreds of people going through the same depersonalization spells with the exact same symptoms but nothing to do with mdma. Realizing this has helped me accept that what I'm experiencing is anxiety based, rather than some drug induced brain damage. If I were u I'd buy the dp manual ebook. It has been an immense help for me.
 
badrobot114 said:
No, other music is very much tolerable. I just really enjoy that particular genre.
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ugh so what the fuck is wrong with me? I just want to get lost in music again and I feel like I cant. WFT is holding this back?
 
ey ey dont stress yourself with that....was for me more than 1 year until i receive again the pleasure of music ater my comedown. i was in the bathroom and my alarm set on suddenly with a old drum and bass theme i used to love i feel something...from that day my mp3 if battery FULL and my headphones have the old use it had.
trust me that symptoms will dissapear, the sex, the taste,the food, all are connected inside of us.

in that time i said myself to stand , to accept this new noemotion man, well..i mistook :), im here again playing my guitar.
 
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I'm on month 6 almost. I don't really know if I been getting better or not, hard to say. I hope so though and trying to keep a positive outlook.

Unlike others here that have the same type of issues daily, I have ever-changing anxiety. One day super tired, next time so awake I can't sleep for 2-3 day straight. If I worry about one type of anxiety, my other types of anxiety go away. Then if I remember them they come back. So my anxiety basically is whatever I set my mind for it to be.

I've been put on a medium dose of Lexapro SSRI and that has definitely helped a lot but not cured the situation.

All in all, I think a lot has to do with the person and the medication will only give you a boost, the rest is upto you to fix.
 
derok said:
ey ey dont stress yourself with that....was for me more than 1 year until i receive again the pleasure of music ater my comedown. i was in the bathroom and my alarma set on suddenly with a old drum and bass theme i used to love i feel something...fron that day my mp3 if battery FULL and my headphones have the old use it had.
trust me that symptoms will dissapear, the sex, the taste,the food, all are connected inside of us.

in that time i said myself to stand , to accept this new noemotion man, well..i mistook :), im here again playing my guitar.
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Cool man. Thanks. Doing all I can. To just keep distracted and moving so it Dont get the best of me
 
I'm new to this site and can say that it has definitely helped and kept me sane through this horrible experience. On Halloween I rolled mdma only .2 and nearly overheated. I went to a club and just freaked out. I was shaking and felt like I was gonna pass out. Luckily i drank water and my friends kept me calm. After a few min i was fine and went back in the club. I have only rolled 4 times in my life. I didn't test it and now I know that was foolish but out of the 8 or so people that took it in the group I was the only one who had such a negative reaction it. I only did .2 there were chicks snorting .6 and drinking alcohol and smoking that we went with. I took it in powder form and put it in water. Wtf, just my luck. A few days later came head pressure and extreme depression. I smoked weed and urged to the er after because of the brain waves I felt and depression. I was moody, fear of death, crying randomly. It was a week of non stop fear. I just began to appreciate my family much more and wanted to be with them or my gf. I live alone so this only made things harder.

It has now been three weeks In and I can say I feel better mood wise. No more mood swings or break down crying. I Still have head pressure and sometimes a pressure behind my right eye which does bother me. I made an appointment to see a neurologist next wk. I haven't been exercising. I just have been praying, thinking positive, and taking vitamins. I'm still scared at times and need peace of mind which I hope to obtain from the neurologist. I know everyone says time but I can't deal with these worries. I work in a hospital emergency room which makes shit worse because I'm seeing traumatizing things daily. Guys I need some recovery help. I am not going to antidepressants or anything. Just fish oil, magnesium, vitamin b12, and one a day multivitamin. I'm trying to beat this thing. I was not a frequent roller. I just need reassurance and support I guess and to hear of some success stories. I've heard people being 7 months in and shit. Freaks me out.
 
^ That kind of depends.. if I abstain from all drugs I can easily say I have recovered, as little to no lingering effects show themselves. If I am using too much however it is pretty easy to fall into some very bad habits.


Overall I'm doing fine, though. I have more bad days than I probably should but I have been pushing myself a bit lately.




I just meant it HARDLY feels like I've been using for so long.. seems almost a crime for me to have over 4 years of experience when I'm only 18 :\
 
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