been binging on etiz and booze for a few days now after a huge MD/meph session.
realized that I have to pretend to be cold and cool and distant in front of her so she'll like me more, then behind her back let out all my hopeless bitter love for her and be beta as fuck listening to bright eyes and trying not to cry.
or just stay on etiz and be a soulless zombie my whole life. Sorry for being grim as fuck, I know there's far bigger problems in the world than my stupid relationship, but I've been fucked for days now and it's ahrd to get a sense of perspective.
Just call her?
