I used to be scripted Ambien, and during that time it was pretty much all I looked forward to. Getting my bi-monthly script of ~30 10mg zolpidem was like Christmas day, and from then on I would be snorting those fuckers almost every night, sometimes up to 50mg in a night. The insane burn became pleasant, and I started to really have just a little too much fun with it. The high was great, euphoric and light, trippy, visual, talkative, very recreational when snorted. When swallowed, 10mg would make me delirious and I wouldn't remember anything, yet I could rail several pills over a night and stay lucid partying with friends, very interesting effect. Definitely was fun while it lasted, I cannot tell a lie.
However, the withdrawal sucked. I eventually knew I had to stop, so I did, and man it was lame. Lots of anxiety all day, depression, insomnia, racing thoughts, cold sweats, nearly everything one would expect from opiate withdrawal. I've never had a benzo withdrawal so I don't know if I can compare it, but I'd assume it's similar. It lasted a couple of days, and as long as I was abstinent from the ambien, I would eventually level out in 2-3 days after heavy use. During the withdrawal, I was very tempted to take some with me to work and such, thinking it would fend off withdrawals, but looking back I'm VERY glad I did not, my career could have been lost. My girlfriend informed me that during this little binge I was constantly freaking her out with incoherent midnight conversations, full on arguments, and all sorts of other undesirable behavior that I had NO recollection of whatsoever, and I could tell it was bothering her. One she informed me of all this, and I felt the withdrawal, I knew it was time to put it down, so I did. Haven't had any since.
Good luck my friend, this one shouldn't be too hard for you.
