Intenselife
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Ok, so i went to my psychiatrist yesterday, and i also recently got accepted into nursing school. Also to mention even though i am accepted, i still have to successfully pass the criminal background check (which i'm worried about because i have a misdemeanor, and another one with a failure to appear to court with a bench warrant), AND that they will be randomly drug testing before the program starts (december 3) and throughout the 18 month program at random given times!
Normally this wouldn't bother me much, because i haven't been recreationally using much drugs since the past year since i moved somewhere new and have no connections. Either way, after multiple attempts and severe anxiety/depression i got prescribed klonopin (which i dont abuse 1mg twice a day 4 months now) and about 3 months ago i also obtained a script for adderall from the same psychiatrist (20mg IR twice a day as the starting and current dose.) Even though i have adhd, i don't like the negative effects of adderall and therefore only limit myself to taking it twice a week, it was a little hard to do in the beginning but i have 40 sitting in my wallet right now. I only take them on my off days from work and i PLUG them (usually 40-60mg twice a week) never more than that. Because as someone told me adderall has a very low oral bioavailbility (for whatever reason) plugging actually gives me more of a body high and meth like rushes and lasts a good 3-4 hours with a smoother comedown.
Either way so i was glad to be prescribed the adderall legally, and to be able to control myself with them till this day because it helps me cope with the extreme lack of motivation,depression, and the feeling to feel free and escape a bit and i don't have to get paranoid because its illegal etc. However trying to get to the point now (on the adderall today). I wanted to try and get another medicine that i need and could get to use for thereaputic and recreational purposes. I withdrawed off gabapentin and seroquel (gabapentin 400mg 3x a day =1200mg, seroquel 200mg xr every night for a little less than a year everyday thanks to a dumb fucking psychiatrist). After getting the good shit and the ones that actually help me without abuse issues, i was able to get a script of soma (carisoprodol) to help with minor withdrawal symptoms of suddenly stopping gabapentin and seroquel, which im lucky was not worse than that it was like it is for most. I knew he wouldn't prescribe a pain killer and didn't wanna break his trust in me after already getting klonopin and a high dose of adderall prescribed.
Now this is the real point for those who didn't wanna read the extra info. Yesterday when i had my appointment i was trying to get a vicodin script (which has been pretty easy for me to do, but never really liked them, even though im only 21 and healthy appearing). I JUST started smoking weed a little over a few weeks ago daily (when im not at work), and after hearing that they will be doing a drug test before and all throughout the nursing program it made me real upset. Because weed has been a SAFE way to stay away from the search of other drugs mostly real bad ones. And it's not addicting/helps with depression symptoms. But so i tried to get vicodin but he told me i need to see my general physican if the pain persists (any kind of pain or irritation associated with marijuana cravings which he doesnt know about).
So then i asked him fine what do you recommend for sleep (since ever stopping the seroquel i've had sleeping problems, and the weed i've been smoking that i can't anymore
due to nursing school drug testing has been helping me sleep). So i was just expecting him to name some non euphoric non recreational sleepings meds, but i was surprised in his top 3 he mentioned AMBIEN! From what i know ambien is pretty recreational and it is not one of the easiest medications to get for sleep because of potential abuse/misuse. So i told him sure i'll give it a try (still surprised not sure if i should be, i am now prescribed 30 10mg ambien (zolpidems) once for every night (long term).
I never thought id ever be able to get prescribed klonopin+adderall+ambiens, from one of the most high rated psychiatrist in the city. SO: unfortunately since i won't able to save up 4-5 pills to take with weed to get an intense trip since i need to to quit smoking by tomorrow since people have told me it can stay in my system to 72 days, for just three weeks use! So i want to my best to get rid of it fast as i can so that if i pass the criminal background check (which im so worried about) and then the drug test, i will be able to successfully start.
So does taking ambien 2 times a week at doses like 30mg-40mg have any recreational value, any positive effects, etc? What do you feel, any euphoria?
--I have snorted 6 ambiens two years ago because i was staying with a relative who had them and i was suicidal at the point in my life, and i had heavy DOUBLEEE vision, and threw up, and got caught so had to go to the hospital because uncle made me even though i was fine, and got sent to psych ward afterwards+ then parents took me back home, but the point is i didn't black out, i didn't really get much visuals/hallucinations, and i had no tolerance. So is their any recreational value of ambien 2 times a week (or coming off adderall)
Normally this wouldn't bother me much, because i haven't been recreationally using much drugs since the past year since i moved somewhere new and have no connections. Either way, after multiple attempts and severe anxiety/depression i got prescribed klonopin (which i dont abuse 1mg twice a day 4 months now) and about 3 months ago i also obtained a script for adderall from the same psychiatrist (20mg IR twice a day as the starting and current dose.) Even though i have adhd, i don't like the negative effects of adderall and therefore only limit myself to taking it twice a week, it was a little hard to do in the beginning but i have 40 sitting in my wallet right now. I only take them on my off days from work and i PLUG them (usually 40-60mg twice a week) never more than that. Because as someone told me adderall has a very low oral bioavailbility (for whatever reason) plugging actually gives me more of a body high and meth like rushes and lasts a good 3-4 hours with a smoother comedown.
Either way so i was glad to be prescribed the adderall legally, and to be able to control myself with them till this day because it helps me cope with the extreme lack of motivation,depression, and the feeling to feel free and escape a bit and i don't have to get paranoid because its illegal etc. However trying to get to the point now (on the adderall today). I wanted to try and get another medicine that i need and could get to use for thereaputic and recreational purposes. I withdrawed off gabapentin and seroquel (gabapentin 400mg 3x a day =1200mg, seroquel 200mg xr every night for a little less than a year everyday thanks to a dumb fucking psychiatrist). After getting the good shit and the ones that actually help me without abuse issues, i was able to get a script of soma (carisoprodol) to help with minor withdrawal symptoms of suddenly stopping gabapentin and seroquel, which im lucky was not worse than that it was like it is for most. I knew he wouldn't prescribe a pain killer and didn't wanna break his trust in me after already getting klonopin and a high dose of adderall prescribed.
Now this is the real point for those who didn't wanna read the extra info. Yesterday when i had my appointment i was trying to get a vicodin script (which has been pretty easy for me to do, but never really liked them, even though im only 21 and healthy appearing). I JUST started smoking weed a little over a few weeks ago daily (when im not at work), and after hearing that they will be doing a drug test before and all throughout the nursing program it made me real upset. Because weed has been a SAFE way to stay away from the search of other drugs mostly real bad ones. And it's not addicting/helps with depression symptoms. But so i tried to get vicodin but he told me i need to see my general physican if the pain persists (any kind of pain or irritation associated with marijuana cravings which he doesnt know about).
So then i asked him fine what do you recommend for sleep (since ever stopping the seroquel i've had sleeping problems, and the weed i've been smoking that i can't anymore
due to nursing school drug testing has been helping me sleep). So i was just expecting him to name some non euphoric non recreational sleepings meds, but i was surprised in his top 3 he mentioned AMBIEN! From what i know ambien is pretty recreational and it is not one of the easiest medications to get for sleep because of potential abuse/misuse. So i told him sure i'll give it a try (still surprised not sure if i should be, i am now prescribed 30 10mg ambien (zolpidems) once for every night (long term).I never thought id ever be able to get prescribed klonopin+adderall+ambiens, from one of the most high rated psychiatrist in the city. SO: unfortunately since i won't able to save up 4-5 pills to take with weed to get an intense trip since i need to to quit smoking by tomorrow since people have told me it can stay in my system to 72 days, for just three weeks use! So i want to my best to get rid of it fast as i can so that if i pass the criminal background check (which im so worried about) and then the drug test, i will be able to successfully start.
So does taking ambien 2 times a week at doses like 30mg-40mg have any recreational value, any positive effects, etc? What do you feel, any euphoria?
--I have snorted 6 ambiens two years ago because i was staying with a relative who had them and i was suicidal at the point in my life, and i had heavy DOUBLEEE vision, and threw up, and got caught so had to go to the hospital because uncle made me even though i was fine, and got sent to psych ward afterwards+ then parents took me back home, but the point is i didn't black out, i didn't really get much visuals/hallucinations, and i had no tolerance. So is their any recreational value of ambien 2 times a week (or coming off adderall)
