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Gibberings CXLII : Frothing At The Mouth

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raas_2012 said:
^ He loves you to, Bodda... what have u got to lose!?
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There are very few people on this forum that I do not like - this forum is probably the most friendly place online that I have found. (loving my Rose tinted glasses aka Lithium)
 
Bearlove - I felt this was sorted out in the picture thread?
If it's worth anything my ex got me into BDSM as a top among other things. I don't judge anyone by sexuality or use of drugs (apart from kiddie lovers & jenkem users)

Raas - a good friend on here & irl spoke highly of you to, I think they are mad but i'll save my full judgement till later but your attempt to get me banned the other day wasn't cool, very underhanded & won't be forgot. It was also noticed by people alot higher than you think in terms of BL staff. It's a very safe bet ALL my posts for several months are under 100% review. People aren't dumb & can spot goading. I know for a fact it was raised as I made a point of doingit myself & you may not be aware who is who when they post on here. I sure had a shock the other day didn't I Mr PM you to ask who you were & when I found out nearly puked in fear ;) :D
 
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Bearlove said:
There are very few people on this forum that I do not like -
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the quirks of bisexuality.

Bodda said:
Bearlove - I felt this was sorted out in the picture thread?
If it's worth anything my ex got me into BDSM as a top among other things. I don't judge anyone by sexuality or use or drugs (apart from kiddie lovers & jenkem users)

Raas - a good friend on here & irl spoke highly or you to, I think they are mad but i'll save my full judgement till later but your attempt to get me banned the other day wasn't cool, very underhanded & won't be forgot. It was also noticed by people alot higher than you think by BL staff.
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Farmaz, again, CHILL. the knife for 50p jokes were mucking around. I know u've had it hard... the h for money jokes is just jest.... please don't see it so disrespectfully
 
Happy bank holidays folks, unless your on JSA / DLA when every day is a holiday( though more like camping in Dudley than 2 months in Laos)
Coffee, roll up, Lorraine on ITV & toot from last night in bed for Bodda.

Pagey if your around hope last night's experiment was ok, as sad before your selection imo is well worth the cash. You can learn alot from that chemical.

Peace :)
 
Cornishman said:
I'm genuinely worried for Monsta now.
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he will be fine. ppl who know him irl are very familiar with this pattern of behaviour.

maybe some of those concerned should invite him to yours, not much to offer if you're that worried, then you'll know for sure he's doing ok.

Allein said:
Sounds to me like it's about time you started taking responsibility for yourself, rather than blaming other people failings for your own problems.
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I agree and disagree. i'm the only person who can control my actions. but its not always the case that someone else isn't responsible. would you say that to a victim of sexual violence? I had a lot of counselling to convince me that in that case, I wasn't responsible, i'd hate to find out via the internet that those professionals were wrong.

fwiw I have done what I can to take responsibility- trying not to repeat my mistakes. Saturday was the first time in since the monsta debacle that I invited people into my house, I spent all day puking with anxiety. I have stopped trusting in people. its pretty lonely but I can't see how else I can avoid that mistake again, and hence 'take responsibility.'
 
chinup said:
he will be fine. ppl who know him irl are very familiar with this pattern of behaviour.

maybe some of those concerned should invite him to yours, not much to offer if you're that worried, then you'll know for sure he's doing ok.



I agree and disagree. i'm the only person who can control my actions. but its not always the case that someone else isn't responsible. would you say that to a victim of sexual violence? I had a lot of counselling to convince me that in that case, I wasn't responsible, i'd hate to find out via the internet that those professionals were wrong.

fwiw I have done what I can to take responsibility- trying not to repeat my mistakes. Saturday was the first time in since the monsta debacle that I invited people into my house, I spent all day puking with anxiety. I have stopped trusting in people. its pretty lonely but I can't see how else I can avoid that mistake again, and hence 'take responsibility.'
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I don't see any issue's with what you've done. And if it's helped you in any way then all the better. People who have an issue with it, obviously have some issues of their own that they should look into addressing.
 
^ I have no issue, I made my stance clear:

chinup said:
on the right side of me, i'll fucking open my home to you, rent free, feed you, clean up for you, as i did monsta, and do everything i possibly can to make your life good. on the wrong side of me, i'm an absolute bitch from hell. it takes a lot of shit to get on the wrong side of me and you get several warnings if you're on the way, so by the time you get there you're getting what you had coming to you, as far as i'm concerned.
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its a known fact that victims of crime can't move on when no justice is seen to be done to the perpertrator. what monsta did, the truly bad shit, wasn't technically a crime, but I think it applies. and frankly, if a few people on here stop and think twice about him, that will be a small amount of justice, so will bring a small amount of closure, when otherwise, I will never get any. so it has done me good and frankly given i'm the one who fucking changed my entire life (in the medium term RUINED) to help him, I think at this point i'm justified in putting my needs over his.

what I do have issue with is being accused of not taking responsibility for my actions, when I have drastically altered my life, to a much sadder existence (oh woe is me!!!) in the light of what happened, to prevent it happening again.

edit btw top twat- I know you're not my boyf cos he's asleep next to me and despises BL, but if you're any of the people marmz speculates you are, please pm me just so I know.
 
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chinup said:
he will be fine. ppl who know him irl are very familiar with this pattern of behaviour.
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this sentence could be about you tho, from the eyes of a number of people here.

The amount of times I've seen you write about being suicidal. Like when you left here and stuff went wrong. It didn't go how you wanted it to. It wasn't a sexual crime, it wasn't violence. It wasn't theft. It maybe felt like an injustice, and perhaps it was, perhaps it wasn't but to be so flippant and say he'll be fine, when it's YOU who is causing this whole situation unnecessarily, that couldve been done in private is very telling of who you are.

Taking pleasure in being cruel, which you've admitted you and your bf are enjoying. You don't deserve sympathy. You've learned nothing from your mistakes (or other people's). You're an emotional vampire.

Please just go away with your cheap nasty tricks.
 
yes it could. or you could read it how its intended, which is that HE WILL BE FINE. I am going not by my own experience, but that of people who've known him since high school.

why don't you fucking lead by example, if you want people to be nice, be nice yourself?

and frankly, i'm fucking glad, after this whole thing, that it 'telling of who I am' cos there in lies the entire source of the problem. if you don't like me, fine, I can live with it, but you wont get any nasty surprises after you've sacrificed a shitload for me.

now it is you who is being cruel.

and I din't fucking ask for sympathy and one thing I've learned as that sympathy on the internet means absolutely fuck all.
 
Stop yer nasty nonsense.

To make it clear for you. I wholly object to anyone ... ANYONE coming in here with the sole intent of making someone feel bad, likely to the level where they're feeling suicidal AND TAKING PLEASURE FROM IT.

Got it?

I think this totally goes against what we're about here, and as such you should stop with it immediately you sick individual
 
chinup said:
^ I have no issue, I made my stance clear:



its a known fact that victims of crime can't move on when no justice is seen to be done to the perpertrator. what monsta did, the truly bad shit, wasn't technically a crime, but I think it applies. and frankly, if a few people on here stop and think twice about him, that will be a small amount of justice, so will bring a small amount of closure, when otherwise, I will never get any. so it has done me good and frankly given i'm the one who fucking changed my entire life (in the medium term RUINED) to help him, I think at this point i'm justified in putting my needs over his.

what I do have issue with is being accused of not taking responsibility for my actions, when I have drastically altered my life, to a much sadder existence (oh woe is me!!!) in the light of what happened, to prevent it happening again.

edit btw top twat- I know you're not my boyf cos he's asleep next to me and despises BL, but if you're any of the people marmz speculates you are, please pm me just so I know.
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So putting your needs over his at this time is justified but when he put his needs over yours was not? I often get confused over this aspect of human nature - I hurt you and that is wrong - you set out to hurt me which is justified? How? Your hurting me to teach me a lesson not to hurt - your showing me that hurting is a tool? Maybe when I hurt you it was accidental (didn't set out to hurt you) but you know better and are deliberately trying to hurt me?

Not taking sides here - just asking a question.
 
BL- I think the problem is this- I considered both his and my needs. he did not. this was clear time and again over a period of months and many people, tried to pull him up on this. in general, I don't think hurting people is right, ever. so I don't condone my own actions yesterday, but I do know that I do need closure on this issue and as monsta has been given ample ample chances and been explicitly told how I can have it, and not done it. so in this case, someone was going to get hurt- either me by continuing not being able to trust or really interact with anyone. or him. I chose him.

tl;dr- in this case, someone being hurt was unavoidable.
 
It's a shame people listen (generally speaking) to the negative views of a few rather than the positive views of the majority. I'm talking about in life in general. Focus on the negatives, don't take positives/compliments well. I'm guilty of it too.

So yeah monsta shouldn't fuck off because of this.

He has taken the time to PM me on a few occasions with good advice and being highly supportive. I would fucking hate to have things posted on here that I had done in real life. Obviously real life and here overlap quite a bit, obviously chinup feels violated, obviously what monsta may well have done was wrong and if so, he knows it.

Drug addiction can turn the nicest person into a cunt. I have experience with benzo haze/heavy use and in retrospect addiction. I turned into an aggressive, nasty, hollow, selfish person. I was fucking horrible to my own mum and sister, repeatedly over the time I was taking xanax powder heavily. I made their lives hell and said things I will forever regret. They forgave me, and would never drag it up to score points...unless hard pressed/I was dragging things up. But then again family seems to forgive easier maybe.

I don't have a balanced view on this because I don't know all the facts and I am 'friendly' to one person and bias. I think opinion of a person should be weighed fairly, including all the good/positive things they have done in life.

Taking joy in the misery of others isn't on, and giving people the benefit of the doubt/another chance is is something most people would accept as the right thing to do. Especially if drug use/addiction was the cause of someone doing a well hurtful selfish thing.

Revenge is shitty, but comes naturally for a lot of people. Admittedly I can relate to Monsta more than chinup here.

I am in no way putting myself on a pedestal in anything I have said. I am guilty of holding grudges (for smaller things) too.

EDIT: People DO/CAN change. In society we rehabilitate 'offenders' and the prison system gives people another chance for far harsher crimes than what chinup is reporting here.

Thinking of being perma banned here (shoppercheck) is another example of BL policy not giving people another chance/echoing real life. Yes I know it can't echo real life for a number of reasons. Give the guy another chance. You have done it for Bodda.
 
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