Jabberwocky
Frumious Bandersnatch
peeps - somewhat new to the board; well, VERY new when it comes to posting but I have been reading for a bit. saw a post earlier today having to do w/ MA/Boston so I decided to chime in and say a few things. anyway, wanted to start my own thing now, so here it is.
anyway, I've been a dopefiend for a bit now - 3 years strong but this is NOT my first time around. I am coming off about 6 years of sobriety (sobriety to me is not being a dopefiend but I was still drinking, smoking weed and prob. even ripped a few lines of coke over those 6 years, but nothing too whacky).
anyway, last month I decided to take off work for 2 weeks and check into rehab. well, I checked in and after 2 days I checked myself out. I just cant do rehab; being w/ all other addicts talking about our runs, our good times, etc, just doesnt do it for me. so I left there after day 2 and went on a 3 day ripper. after 3 days I called my parents and asked if I can pull out my old bed in the basement and stay w/ them for a week. so I checked in to my parents basement and went 7 days withdrawing at the home front. was it fun? no. always took about 24hrs before I started to feel sick. so after day 1 I was shitting my pants (mom LOVED seeing that), throwing up and twisting and turning all night (I tried ambien to sleep but it did shit). I went into rehab weighing around 170 and here I am 2 weeks later and I am at 150lbs. I def. have done dope since, even a G today, but over the last 2 weeks I prob did 2 G's total rather than the 2-3G's I was doing a day prior.
wondering how long it takes for your withdrawals to chime in? How long have you been sober before? How did you stay sober? Stay busy, right? Never easy. I am back at my own apartment now and doing my best. I am back at work Monday so that will kill my day from 9-5. Also might be checking into a program but NOT SURE if I went to go on Subox since I have already kicked the physical dependence; psychological, NO! thats why I am even considering a program.
so tell me a bit about yourself? what you did to stop, try to stop, even if no intention to stop, go ahead and tell your story. I am at the point where I am using this board to take up some time, do some different things than I was doing before, and trying my best to stay sober (although, I def. do not have EVERY intention in the world to do so, I def. need TIME OFF). sick thing to say, I know, but the truth is what it is.
anyway, I've been a dopefiend for a bit now - 3 years strong but this is NOT my first time around. I am coming off about 6 years of sobriety (sobriety to me is not being a dopefiend but I was still drinking, smoking weed and prob. even ripped a few lines of coke over those 6 years, but nothing too whacky).
anyway, last month I decided to take off work for 2 weeks and check into rehab. well, I checked in and after 2 days I checked myself out. I just cant do rehab; being w/ all other addicts talking about our runs, our good times, etc, just doesnt do it for me. so I left there after day 2 and went on a 3 day ripper. after 3 days I called my parents and asked if I can pull out my old bed in the basement and stay w/ them for a week. so I checked in to my parents basement and went 7 days withdrawing at the home front. was it fun? no. always took about 24hrs before I started to feel sick. so after day 1 I was shitting my pants (mom LOVED seeing that), throwing up and twisting and turning all night (I tried ambien to sleep but it did shit). I went into rehab weighing around 170 and here I am 2 weeks later and I am at 150lbs. I def. have done dope since, even a G today, but over the last 2 weeks I prob did 2 G's total rather than the 2-3G's I was doing a day prior.
wondering how long it takes for your withdrawals to chime in? How long have you been sober before? How did you stay sober? Stay busy, right? Never easy. I am back at my own apartment now and doing my best. I am back at work Monday so that will kill my day from 9-5. Also might be checking into a program but NOT SURE if I went to go on Subox since I have already kicked the physical dependence; psychological, NO! thats why I am even considering a program.
so tell me a bit about yourself? what you did to stop, try to stop, even if no intention to stop, go ahead and tell your story. I am at the point where I am using this board to take up some time, do some different things than I was doing before, and trying my best to stay sober (although, I def. do not have EVERY intention in the world to do so, I def. need TIME OFF). sick thing to say, I know, but the truth is what it is.