Fucking Acid, love it.

[Reasonably Bored]

Thank you Hoffman for bringing fucking LSD to this mother fucking planet.

I suffered from severe depression for the last 3-4 years, no confidence in myself, no respect, always afraid of change, I felt like a man living in a child's brain, one that hasn't fully developed. I was involved in a relationship that only aided in my circular depression, she would often threaten to charge me with rape or ruin my life in other means if I should ever leave her. I had no future, just a mindless drone awaiting death. What is life without dreams and ambitions?

I've taken acid a quite few times, mostly to listen to music or masturbate to porn. A few eye opening thoughts, but what I experienced today was fucking profound. I was outside at 4 a.m running around in the rain, it felt so surreal. The beautifully lit violent sky, its magnificent colors burning through the branches from which I looked, the misty rain breathing life into a dead mind and setting it free from its own destruction. I stood in a field of grass staring at the sky, my hands clenched with rage at my incompetence, always letting people walk over me. In that span of 5 minutes, I learned more than I could ever learn in 20 years. Life is full of opportunities.

I feel so fucking alive now, as if I was sleeping and just woke up from a stream of endless nightmares. I'm gonna try some fucking molly and dance until my balls fall off. Fuck, I love being alive.

Sorry I just had to type this somewhere! I could write so much more, haha

 

[my3rdeye]

I've taken acid a quite few times, mostly to listen to music or masturbate to porn
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Fapping on acid is rarely spoken about, but really fun.
Anyway hope things work out for you. I hope you can take this experience and benefit from it. Good luck.

 

[Deinonychus]

It can be a hell of a lot more difficult to bring things back from a trip and apply them to everyday life – to integrate the experience – than as would think, especially right after we have the realization and are still tripping. At that point it feels like 'well how could I *not* bring this incredibly profound thing back with me and apply it consistently to real life?', and often behavior does change, but in a few days, a week, several weeks, months, etc the message soon gets diluted and defeated by the pent-up weight of our old habits and old behaviors, the message or realization from the trip pushing as hard as it can but ultimately running out of steam before it can shift the mighty inertia of those old, possibly negative behaviors and habits. So if the message can't push all that inertia around by itself, then it must be a team effort within which we must do some pushing ourselves to. We must make up the imbalance, to combine our own inherent drive with the power of the message that has been learned, both pushing, and thus ultimately allowing us to finally move those obstructive habits and behaviors out of our way.

I'm not telling you this to discourage or demotivate you, just the opposite in fact. I'm saying this so you can know that it'll be harder than it seems right now to apply what you've learned, so that you can encourage yourself and motivate yourself in the fashion of 'this is harder than I thought, but I knew it would be hard ahead of time so I prepared myself'. Because though difficult, positive, long-term changes in lifestyle, behavior, habits, outlook/attitude, personality etc *are* possible, and this *is* something for which it is worth putting in the effort.

 

[maxalfie]

Thank you Hoffman for bringing fucking LSD to this mother fucking planet.

I suffered from severe depression for the last 3-4 years, no confidence in myself, no respect, always afraid of change, I felt like a man living in a child's brain, one that hasn't fully developed. I was involved in a relationship that only aided in my circular depression, she would often threaten to charge me with rape or ruin my life in other means if I should ever leave her. I had no future, just a mindless drone awaiting death. What is life without dreams and ambitions?

I've taken acid a quite few times, mostly to listen to music or masturbate to porn. A few eye opening thoughts, but what I experienced today was fucking profound. I was outside at 4 a.m running around in the rain, it felt so surreal. The beautifully lit violent sky, its magnificent colors burning through the branches from which I looked, the misty rain breathing life into a dead mind and setting it free from its own destruction. I stood in a field of grass staring at the sky, my hands clenched with rage at my incompetence, always letting people walk over me. In that span of 5 minutes, I learned more than I could ever learn in 20 years. Life is full of opportunities.

I feel so fucking alive now, as if I was sleeping and just woke up from a stream of endless nightmares. I'm gonna try some fucking molly and dance until my balls fall off. Fuck, I love being alive.

Sorry I just had to type this somewhere! I could write so much more, haha

Great post, really enjoyed reading it.
It's great when a drug can teach you something about yourself.As has already been said it is now up to you to remember what you learnt through your trip and use that knowledge to work on what you want to change about yourself or your life.
Glad you had a good time though.

 

[pofacedhoe]

I suffered from severe depression for the last 3-4 years,

I'm gonna try some fucking molly and dance until my balls fall off. Fuck, I love being alive.

facepalm!

mdma is very good at recreating a depressive mindstate. as a one time heavy user it can really mess with your head

 

[Chimeric]

integration of the lessons into sober life really is the key here. it's easy to have your hopes up after a profound trip full of epiphanies. but if one doesn't integrate the wisdom into sober life, then it's likely that s/he will just crave getting high all the time. not that there is anything wrong with being high all the time; life has no rules. but from experience chasing highs only leads to more struggle.

 

[rickolasnice]

facepalm!

mdma is very good at recreating a depressive mindstate. as a one time heavy user it can really mess with your head

It's also known to go the other way.. if you don't abuse it.