Right now on 97.5mg hydrocodone, 8ml 2-methyl-2-butanol, 6mg lorazepam, 2mg alprazolam, 600mg cimetidine to potentiate, 35mg diphenoxylate (a weak opiate for the shits - I've had them over a week now), 30mg mirtazapine (it does have some psychoactive effects, mainly increasing sedation), and 20mg tianeptine (an antidepressant that is very mildly euphoric, mostly in early treatment and when dose is increased). Maybe several other weakly psychoactive substances. Also taking hits off an electronic cigarette.
Fuck even more than 2 mg's is a lot. But unfortunately for u, you'll live, especially seeing as ur already on benzos and GABA friendly's to keep ur heart rate at a healthy level.
happy awake-dreams... i'm on 25I-NBOMe myself, about to get groceries..
I did not expect to die, I just had the thought that there was a very small chance in the back of my mind and I also knew others would comment on the large dose and possible danger.
This one seems to be forgiving of very heavy dosing - I've done it many times, though that was my highest dose so far. I was seeing people and animals in my house that I could not distinguish from reality and in my state of mind conversed with people who were not there.
I started writing a post to bluelight in MS Word and started to think I was ordering from a restaurant then went to thinking I was on an internet forum for employees of a restaurant I worked at a long time ago and told all those people how I felt in sometimes mean ways. I have a couple of other posts I started writing saved. Maybe I'll post it as a sort of trip report to show everyone how high doses of 25C-NBOME can affect you and make you see things indistinguishable from reality and believe you are in places or doing things you are not doing. I'll add some of what I remember that was not written down and how those 4 hits I took in 10 minutes or less affected me.
This substance seems to have less affect on blood pressure and heart rate than most psychedelics used at extreme doses even when not on lots of benzos and opiates.
I am very depressed but just started on Tianeptine and I am soon to start on Amineptine (an antidepressant that was removed from the market due to FDA pressure because it had a small abuse liability, but nothing compared to opiates - the maybe one percent or so of patients who abused it actually gives me hope that it will work for my depression as does its unusual mechanism of action. It was supposed to be a very effective one. I'll be combining it with Tianeptine which in the past was more effective than any other single antidepressant but probably would not work well with my SSRI that I quit so I could start it. Tianeptine has several unique mechanisms of action. One is enhancing re-uptake of serotonin but this may not be involved in its antidepressant effects. I have just started on it. I think it may be some of its other actions that make it an effective antidepressant.
I think I will try as a new antidepressant regimen 20mg Tianeptine 3x/day (modestly enhances mesolimbic dopamine release, potentiates D2 and D3 receptors, and may have some of the same antidepressant effects that ketamine and similar things have) 15mg Mirtazapine 2x/day (it is not an SSRI but an antagonist/inverse agonist at many 5-HT and a-adrenergic receptors and also has some sort of effect on opioid receptors and mACh receptors), 40mg Amineptine 3x/day (inhibits re-uptake of dopamine and norepinephrine, is a weak dopamine releaser, affects some other receptors, and does some other things I don't understand), 200mg phenibut 3x/day (GABA analog that crosses the blood brain barrier), Plant based Omega-3 fatty acid pills 2.4g 3x/day, piracetam 1.5g 3x/day (nootropic, don't know how it works but seems to have antidepressant effects), and 3g Inositol 3x/day (a carbohydrate with apparent antidepressant effects). Will also take a multivitamin and a couple of pills containing potent antioxidants with this regimen. It may be a couple of weeks before I have all the things I will be using in this regimen and I may add a few other supplements but must read as much about them and whether some may interact with others badly or in a way that reduces efficacy. I have to try to do something so I don't constantly want to die or do dangerous things.
I've been so suicidal for most of the last six months that it is just hard to tolerate. The meds I have been prescribed for it help little. I tried a couple of times cutting back on all drugs except opiates and benzos and even reduced their use to see if it would help. Life has been hell for years and overuse of drugs does not seem to be the issue. I have stopped using completely at least 3 times and during one of those breaks I attempted suicide. If I can't find a regimen of antidepressants and supplements that works a lot better than what I have tried in the past, I will take my life. I am going to try to find another solution. I hope I don't end up killing myself before I have tried all my options or many of them. There are other substances (meds, supplements, and herbs) I haven't mentioned that I may incorporate into that list. Not doing it all at once, I need to see what helps and what is ineffective. Maybe within 3 months I'll have something helpful.
I am also considering the mood stabilizer lamotrigine which also has antidepressant effects as something to add on. I can get it really cheap. Amineptine is the most expensive of the things I am trying but I have more hope for it than any of the others due to the good things I have read about it.
For those talking about 4-HO-MET
It is a nice one. I've liked all the 4-ho/acos I have tried. 4-HO-MET may have had the most unique visuals of the bunch and was quite euphoric like all of them. I'd say 4-ho-mipt was the most euphoric. 4-ho-dipt the most intense but shortest duration. 4-aco-dmt was most like mushrooms and was very intense. The whole group seems very nice and are my favorites of the synthetic tryptamines. I'd love to try 4-ho-amt if someone would make it. Also have to try 4-ho-det when I get the chance. All that I have tried have their own flavor and all are things I'd come back to again.
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