Black Rabbit of Inle
Bluelight Crew
Aw laugh, we should go for a drink some day.
<Annoyed>
<Annoyed>
sick and tired of being lonely
Longing..I wish i could meet somebody..I hate going to bed alone..
I did have a good day all in all..
I remember the most recent time my love of 5 years (on again off again) left me. It was blindingly painful, but I convinced myself to allow time to get to know myself and become more independent. I ended up liking it so much I've stayed single for the last 4 years. Being content on one's own is something on which you cannot put a priceGood luck.
I feel flattered by all the very generous friends and strangers at the bar. And I get to remember it all, being sober and everythang.
Sad
But that's ok because I know that If I can't move through the sadness (without heroin) I will never be able to accept the happiness that tomorrow may bring.
I'm sad. My ex is due with my child in a week. She's getting back with her ex. Which is cool but.....*sigh* this is going to get messy.