verso
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All that in one day... yeah, it was pretty unbelievable. We were so bummed because we had no money to pick up, and then it was like, pow, $40. Then it was like... oh, look, a bottle of oxys ("perc 15s") ... Good times lol
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All that in one day... yeah, it was pretty unbelievable. We were so bummed because we had no money to pick up, and then it was like, pow, $40. Then it was like... oh, look, a bottle of oxys ("perc 15s") ... Good times lol
Bob Loblaw
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Shooting coke
drinking beers
drinking beers
Professer
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smoking some m-amp
kava + kratom + weed lined up for afterwards
kava + kratom + weed lined up for afterwards
tweex
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10mg of Nicotine in a taco bell loaded griller an hour ago. I'm ridin' the rails at the moment 
Tryptamine*Dreamer
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F1n1shed:
If you can get some gabapentin(Neurontin) or pregabalin(Lyrica) to take with the benzos as you try to taper down, that seems to have allowed me to get by with a lower dose of the benzo without feeling significant withdrawal symptoms. Yesterday, I think I ended up using 5.5mg of clonazepam and still felt some withdrawal effects. Today, I only used 4.5mg clonazepam but also used 600mg gabapentin 3x/day and it felt like there was at most very mild withdrawal symptoms, mostly psychological/mental. This could have just been because I used a higher dose of hydrocodone today (a total of 52.5mg instead of a total of 37.5mg). I imagine phenibut would help just as much or maybe more as it is like a modified version of GABA that crosses the blood brain barrier. These substances can also produce withdrawal if taken long enough, so you should use the lowest amount possible if you choose to try one of those to help you taper down. Phenibut is sold as a supplement and is completely legal and easy to get. Just don't use it for a high as this may cause tolerance or prevent you from reducing tolerance.
The use of an NMDA receptor antagonist can help with the withdrawal and help prevent brain damage from excitotoxicity. There is a prescription medication used for alcohol withdrawal for this purpose, the NMDA receptor antagonist Acamprosate. I will quote the Wikipedia article. It does not mention use for benzo withdrawal but would likely be beneficial for that too as the mechanism that causes excitotoxicity in alcohol withdrawal and benzo withdrawal is the same or at least very similar if I understand it correctly. Here is the quote:
I know DXM worked very well at reducing the withdrawal symptoms I was experiencing, though it took a pretty high dose. I assume acamprosate would have far less psychoactive effects than DXM. Perhaps you could get acamprosate prescribed or maybe from an online pharmacy if you want to try that. I may look into that myself to see if it would help me taper down faster without the fairly minor but still at times unpleasant residual withdrawal symptoms I feel at times as I am beginning to taper my dose down.
PillToChill:
I'll definitely keep in mind that you could be of help and I'll PM you if I start having trouble. And this is not something that anyone should try to do cold turkey. I was having some major issues - jerking body movements, blood pressure that reached at least 186/114 (highest systolic and diastolic pressures I measured during the ordeal), and a body temperature that got as high as 100.8F. That is just some of what happened. I think I would have been in big trouble if I had been unable to get that clonazepam.
I'll keep everyone updated on how I am doing.
I made a post a little while back about a suicide plan I intended to carry out on September 7th. I am not going to do that. I really do not want to die. I did for a while, but that has changed. I also posted about my sleep apnea. I have figured out a way to keep myself from turning over on my back in my sleep and it seems to have stopped that. My mom had been coming in to check on me because I normally was breathing very noisily between the pauses in breathing, I guess because I breathe normally when not on my back and she was not hearing me as she usually does. She says I have stayed off my back and she has not seen any apnea spells since then. It seems I will be able to manage that without treatment as long as I can continue to stay off my back while sleeping.
My sleep schedule is messed up. Been sleeping all day and up all night. I'll stay awake the rest of the night and tomorrow to try to fix that.
I am going to smoke 2mg 25C-NBOME in just a little while. I am feeling just fine at the moment and it has been a while since I have used it. I'll measure out another 2mg to smoke in 2 or 3 hits later to keep it going through the day. No more than that, and that is for sure. It is a high dose, but not dangerously high. I don't intend to go higher than that with that substance ever again in the future. I have before without any serious problems but it is plenty strong at the level I am going to use shortly.
I was going to try to taper off on the hydrocodone too, but I found that it was just too hard to taper down on that and the benzos at the same time, so I'll just focus on the benzo taper for now and I'll try to reduce my hydrocodone use later. I don't see my hydrocodone use as a significant problem right now, but I really need to get my benzo addiction under control so I don't have to be on them all the time.
Edit:
Had to IM it because I forgot that I didn't have a lighter. Coming up very fast. Very intense, but somehow I feel calm even while things seem to be disintegrating. Gonna listen to music (Ozric Tentacles, perfect tripping music, IMO) and I won't be on bluelight much during the trip unless it goes bad. I do intend to post in about 30 minutes when I check my blood pressure just so others will know if it has a significant impact on that at 2mg/intramuscular injection.
Edit:
Just read the responses to that suicidal post I made a few days ago. I really meant it at the time and I thought I would do it. I won't and I am sorry for causing people to worry. I guess there was good reason for anyone who cared. I don't know if it was that hellish benzo withdrawal or something else that changed how I felt. I somehow don't really even feel depressed most of the time since I went through that. I've had some bad mood swings where the thoughts have come back but nothing I think I'd act on and my overall mood and outlook has been at least somewhat positive, especially compared to what I am used to.
Also, I cleared out my inbox just in case someone still wants to send me a message or something. If anyone else happens to be feeling suicidal or wants to talk about benzo withdrawal, my ears are open (or my eyes, since this is the internet). I am not suicidal anymore and I am right now having a hard time understanding why I was so recently.
Also, still plan to volunteer at the animal shelter. I intend to do the application that has to be taken to the police station next week. Not just to do the right thing, I need something to keep me from thinking constantly about drugs (I don't regret using them and have no intention to quit, but I really need to stop abusing them the way I have been).
Edit:
I don't know how much any of you know about sleep apnea and depression, but sleep apnea can worsen or even cause depression. I know it did not cause the depression (I have dealt with that most of my life and I had a really traumatic childhood to contribute to that) but it has likely made it worse. I have no idea how long I have had the sleep apnea but my mom said it was getting a lot worse. I hope what I have been doing to prevent it the last few nights (or days, since I have been sleeping more in the day than night) continues to work.
Edit:
It caused a rise in blood pressure to 154/98 20-30 minutes after injection. Now, maybe an hour later, it is 136/92 pulse 68. It seems that it will raise BP for a short time but it quickly returns to normal (that is a perfectly good reading for me, but higher than the ideal pressure. My new BP medicine added on will hopefully have my blood pressure in a healthier state before long (it can take a few days for it to fully take effect).
Now I am going back away from the computer. There are better things to do tripping
If you can get some gabapentin(Neurontin) or pregabalin(Lyrica) to take with the benzos as you try to taper down, that seems to have allowed me to get by with a lower dose of the benzo without feeling significant withdrawal symptoms. Yesterday, I think I ended up using 5.5mg of clonazepam and still felt some withdrawal effects. Today, I only used 4.5mg clonazepam but also used 600mg gabapentin 3x/day and it felt like there was at most very mild withdrawal symptoms, mostly psychological/mental. This could have just been because I used a higher dose of hydrocodone today (a total of 52.5mg instead of a total of 37.5mg). I imagine phenibut would help just as much or maybe more as it is like a modified version of GABA that crosses the blood brain barrier. These substances can also produce withdrawal if taken long enough, so you should use the lowest amount possible if you choose to try one of those to help you taper down. Phenibut is sold as a supplement and is completely legal and easy to get. Just don't use it for a high as this may cause tolerance or prevent you from reducing tolerance.
The use of an NMDA receptor antagonist can help with the withdrawal and help prevent brain damage from excitotoxicity. There is a prescription medication used for alcohol withdrawal for this purpose, the NMDA receptor antagonist Acamprosate. I will quote the Wikipedia article. It does not mention use for benzo withdrawal but would likely be beneficial for that too as the mechanism that causes excitotoxicity in alcohol withdrawal and benzo withdrawal is the same or at least very similar if I understand it correctly. Here is the quote:
Wikipedia said:
I know DXM worked very well at reducing the withdrawal symptoms I was experiencing, though it took a pretty high dose. I assume acamprosate would have far less psychoactive effects than DXM. Perhaps you could get acamprosate prescribed or maybe from an online pharmacy if you want to try that. I may look into that myself to see if it would help me taper down faster without the fairly minor but still at times unpleasant residual withdrawal symptoms I feel at times as I am beginning to taper my dose down.
PillToChill:
I'll definitely keep in mind that you could be of help and I'll PM you if I start having trouble. And this is not something that anyone should try to do cold turkey. I was having some major issues - jerking body movements, blood pressure that reached at least 186/114 (highest systolic and diastolic pressures I measured during the ordeal), and a body temperature that got as high as 100.8F. That is just some of what happened. I think I would have been in big trouble if I had been unable to get that clonazepam.
I'll keep everyone updated on how I am doing.
I made a post a little while back about a suicide plan I intended to carry out on September 7th. I am not going to do that. I really do not want to die. I did for a while, but that has changed. I also posted about my sleep apnea. I have figured out a way to keep myself from turning over on my back in my sleep and it seems to have stopped that. My mom had been coming in to check on me because I normally was breathing very noisily between the pauses in breathing, I guess because I breathe normally when not on my back and she was not hearing me as she usually does. She says I have stayed off my back and she has not seen any apnea spells since then. It seems I will be able to manage that without treatment as long as I can continue to stay off my back while sleeping.
My sleep schedule is messed up. Been sleeping all day and up all night. I'll stay awake the rest of the night and tomorrow to try to fix that.
I am going to smoke 2mg 25C-NBOME in just a little while. I am feeling just fine at the moment and it has been a while since I have used it. I'll measure out another 2mg to smoke in 2 or 3 hits later to keep it going through the day. No more than that, and that is for sure. It is a high dose, but not dangerously high. I don't intend to go higher than that with that substance ever again in the future. I have before without any serious problems but it is plenty strong at the level I am going to use shortly.
I was going to try to taper off on the hydrocodone too, but I found that it was just too hard to taper down on that and the benzos at the same time, so I'll just focus on the benzo taper for now and I'll try to reduce my hydrocodone use later. I don't see my hydrocodone use as a significant problem right now, but I really need to get my benzo addiction under control so I don't have to be on them all the time.
Edit:
Had to IM it because I forgot that I didn't have a lighter. Coming up very fast. Very intense, but somehow I feel calm even while things seem to be disintegrating. Gonna listen to music (Ozric Tentacles, perfect tripping music, IMO) and I won't be on bluelight much during the trip unless it goes bad. I do intend to post in about 30 minutes when I check my blood pressure just so others will know if it has a significant impact on that at 2mg/intramuscular injection.
Edit:
Just read the responses to that suicidal post I made a few days ago. I really meant it at the time and I thought I would do it. I won't and I am sorry for causing people to worry. I guess there was good reason for anyone who cared. I don't know if it was that hellish benzo withdrawal or something else that changed how I felt. I somehow don't really even feel depressed most of the time since I went through that. I've had some bad mood swings where the thoughts have come back but nothing I think I'd act on and my overall mood and outlook has been at least somewhat positive, especially compared to what I am used to.
Also, I cleared out my inbox just in case someone still wants to send me a message or something. If anyone else happens to be feeling suicidal or wants to talk about benzo withdrawal, my ears are open (or my eyes, since this is the internet). I am not suicidal anymore and I am right now having a hard time understanding why I was so recently.
Also, still plan to volunteer at the animal shelter. I intend to do the application that has to be taken to the police station next week. Not just to do the right thing, I need something to keep me from thinking constantly about drugs (I don't regret using them and have no intention to quit, but I really need to stop abusing them the way I have been).
Edit:
I don't know how much any of you know about sleep apnea and depression, but sleep apnea can worsen or even cause depression. I know it did not cause the depression (I have dealt with that most of my life and I had a really traumatic childhood to contribute to that) but it has likely made it worse. I have no idea how long I have had the sleep apnea but my mom said it was getting a lot worse. I hope what I have been doing to prevent it the last few nights (or days, since I have been sleeping more in the day than night) continues to work.
Edit:
It caused a rise in blood pressure to 154/98 20-30 minutes after injection. Now, maybe an hour later, it is 136/92 pulse 68. It seems that it will raise BP for a short time but it quickly returns to normal (that is a perfectly good reading for me, but higher than the ideal pressure. My new BP medicine added on will hopefully have my blood pressure in a healthier state before long (it can take a few days for it to fully take effect).
Now I am going back away from the computer. There are better things to do tripping
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xstayfadedx
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Pot smoke fills my room... and I'm so fucking high.
I have work in a few hours... so this weed will help me sleep, woot.
I love my marijuana
Too stoned to reply back to pms atm... adventure time instead.
Then sleeps =^.^=
I have work in a few hours... so this weed will help me sleep, woot.
I love my marijuana
Too stoned to reply back to pms atm... adventure time instead.
Then sleeps =^.^=
Pill2Chill
Bluelight Crew
Wow I had written a long ass post of tweakness last night. Good thing I was too tweaked to hit post at the end lol.
Today will be: weed, tilidine, amps (for a change 8().
Today will be: weed, tilidine, amps (for a change 8().
Pill2Chill
Bluelight Crew
200Mg tilidine, 12mg bromazepam and amnesia haze to be precise. Gonna dose 100mg amps in a bit, don't wanna dose just yet because that'd be a waste of the amnesia I just smoked.
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Whosajiggawaaa
Bluelighter
hand full of aoxycontin 40s (old formula obv) - . and 2 oxy20 irs snorted.needa get my tolly down. but for now im prescribed as much as i need which has always been my dream(careful what u wish for). know itcant go on for ever tho.
verso - if u were rxed 5 - 600 mg of old formula OC 40 and 80s + ir 20s wud u stop herion? if most was covered by insurance too.
verso - if u were rxed 5 - 600 mg of old formula OC 40 and 80s + ir 20s wud u stop herion? if most was covered by insurance too.
geoffreychaucer
Bluelighter
Currently sipping on a hot mug of RVB kratom with lime juice. I now desire a nice skinny American Spirit rollie. Must resist urge to smoke weed as it completely over powers the pleasant mental high of the kratom. I still feel the kratom but the weed seems an obnoxious presence when compared with kratom's opioid serenity.
highhooked
Bluelighter
a fatboy 40 of some quality heroin up the nose. played a little ball in the warm sunshine now just chilling out with some music and mikes harder mango over ice.
feeling pretty nice. getting even just a little sweat going after some opiates really helps the high
feeling pretty nice. getting even just a little sweat going after some opiates really helps the high
verso
Bluelighter
Feeling good, but we had to work for it today! The guy that my dealer sent over to us was a total sketch ball, ended up taking our money and running off with it, so, I chased after him, running down side-streets and into back yards. (Just a quick note for harm reduction's sake, as though it weren't already obvious... don't ever do this!) Well, my dealer who was parked a few blocks away saw all this going down and, after his "boy" told him some bullshit story about how we were the ones who tried beating him, well, he made it right and ended up giving us what we payed for which was pretty cool because it shows that he believed us and not his boy. He was like, "I ain't never seen a white guy chase a black guy through the hood before, and you wouldn't have been doing that if you had your money or the dope or both..." And, actually, he seemed pretty annoyed and angry with his boy because it became obvious to all of us that this sketch ball's plan was to beat all of us, including my dealer, by pocketing not only the money we gave him but also the dope without giving anyone anything.
So, yeah, had to work for it today... but it ended up working out.
So, yeah, had to work for it today... but it ended up working out.
Damnnn what, tell your dealer you don't want anymore of his 'boys' dealing with you. Go straight to him man, that is not cool. You guys are gonna get caught like that some day.
Tryptamino
Bluelight Crew
Just finished my last 40. I really could go for a cigarette right now...
ellisdee25
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Just got off work and brewed up 25 pods with 75mg of hydroxyzine for potentiation purposes. Infinite pods is awesome. Now smoking a cigarette about to fire up some nuggets and play starcraft 2, its a good day
weekend addiction
Bluelighter
I started this recipe in the morning so this isn't as bad as it sounds
~20 grams of three different strains of kratom (Papau New Guinea Red and green vein and enhanced bali)
a dash of Klonopin
Couple bowls of Sativa sprinkled through out
1 cup of Maxwell House Singles
Kratom tolerance builds fast but of course I already have a large opiate tolerance so what can I expect?
For those who drink coffee: Its coffee in a teabag. Add hot water and its ready in one minute. Beats the shit out of all forms of instant coffee. Taste the same as from a percolator to me and much easier to deal with in the morning. Best of all its a sealed packet you can carry with you to work or wherever. I've been drinking coffee since 1 year old so I know what it should taste like. My dad let me have a couple spoons of coffee a few times and after that whenever I smelled it I would beg until he gave me a sip.
~20 grams of three different strains of kratom (Papau New Guinea Red and green vein and enhanced bali)
a dash of Klonopin
Couple bowls of Sativa sprinkled through out
1 cup of Maxwell House Singles
Kratom tolerance builds fast but of course I already have a large opiate tolerance so what can I expect?
For those who drink coffee: Its coffee in a teabag. Add hot water and its ready in one minute. Beats the shit out of all forms of instant coffee. Taste the same as from a percolator to me and much easier to deal with in the morning. Best of all its a sealed packet you can carry with you to work or wherever. I've been drinking coffee since 1 year old so I know what it should taste like. My dad let me have a couple spoons of coffee a few times and after that whenever I smelled it I would beg until he gave me a sip.
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SirTophamHat
Bluelighter
one of my good friends is ALL ABOUT pods and sc2. you guys would get along. whats the cheat code for infinite pods by the way?
right now i'm not high! but i'm about to crack open some brandy and cook some pot brownies, so there's that.
verso
Bluelighter
For real... he's not our main guy, but no one else was around and we've gone through him before without there ever being a problem so I just assumed that it was straight. He told me that he wouldn't be doing that again, though, sending a "boy" to serve us. Regardless, I don't think that I will be seeing him anymore anyway. He made it right, and that's great, but I'll stick to my main guys from now on
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