awareness/consciousness/thought

[selfmedicinals]

i just took an extra 45mg on top of my usual 30mg adderall dose and im really baffled as to why i cant be this smart by default.....it feels like there is a bubble of awareness around my body and the amphetamines expand this bubble allowing me to see farther,deeper and even inside of the bubbles belonging to other humans.......so imagine a sober person's regular size bubble of awareness....and than picture another person's bubble of awareness that is expanded greatly......smaller bubbles can fit inside of larger bubbles. im convinced that this allows the larger bubble to gain access to information contained within the bubble or bubbles who pass through it. this makes sense because when i consume a high enough dose of adderall and im around other people i start having random thoughts that seem foreign to me...i than start communicating these thoughts through verbal language, body language and facial expression in ways that are understood by the mind(s) the thought originated from. if the people around me were bored or unhappy they inevitably become intrigued as long as their bubbles of awareness are fully surrounded by my awareness. i tap into their thoughts to help solve problems and provide reassurance to certain conclusions they may have came to but were unsure of. while they listen to me channel their minds, i observe their body language, facial expression and anomalies in their verbal language which reassure me that im indeed aware of what they are aware of thus reducing the entropy that exists within their bubble of awareness. weed does the same thing except its way harder to explain.



do you think this is psychosis? do you not understand what the hell im talking about? am i talking to the internet?

 

[selfmedicinals]

by the way.....usually i dont realize im even doing this....by the time i do realize im usually in complete control of the mind(s) im merged with. at that point i can choose to implant ideas or beliefs.


now i know for a fact this society is in mass hypnosis

 

[Foreigner]

Moving this to ODD.

 

[Mysterie]

some parts of your theory are a bit far fetched e.g.

i tap into their thoughts to help solve problems and provide reassurance to certain conclusions they may have came to but were unsure of. while they listen to me channel their minds, i observe their body language, facial expression and anomalies in their verbal language which reassure me that im indeed aware of what they are aware of thus reducing the entropy that exists within their bubble of awareness.

from the emotion standpoint I can totally see where you are coming from, if someone is resonating strong positive vibrations then it will make others around them feel secure and happy, the same goes for someone deep in depression, it brings down others

theres something about stimulants which lead to much clearer and focused and concentrated thought on certain aspects of life, but I think you have gone a bit past reality when you say you are 'usually in complete control of the mind(s) im merged with. at that point i can choose to implant ideas or beliefs. '

 

[littlepenguin]

depending upon how many days you've been awake (two or more, I'd call this stimulant psychosis) or if you sleep every night, it's just a typical side effect of speed known as delusions of grandeur.

A delusion of grandeur is the false belief that one possesses superior qualities such as genius, fame, omnipotence, or wealth.
People with a delusion of grandeur often have the idea that they have some great but unrecognized talent or insight. They may also believe they have made some important discovery that others don’t understand or appreciate.

Sometimes drug use or abuse can intensify or bring on episodes of delusion of grandeur. People who take PCP or amphetamines are especially at risk.

source: psychcentral.com

 

[selfmedicinals]

some parts of your theory are a bit far fetched e.g.

from the emotion standpoint I can totally see where you are coming from, if someone is resonating strong positive vibrations then it will make others around them feel secure and happy, the same goes for someone deep in depression, it brings down others

theres something about stimulants which lead to much clearer and focused and concentrated thought on certain aspects of life, but I think you have gone a bit past reality when you say you are 'usually in complete control of the mind(s) im merged with. at that point i can choose to implant ideas or beliefs. '

not literally in control of their mind....i just have their complete attention and since they are in a state of suggestibility i can basically alter certain perceptions they have on things. as i describe the features of something to the person, they start to generate an image in their minds. the image/idea being generated is influenced by my body language,facial expression and emotion i express while describing whatever it is im implanting into there head.....the shit gets more and more complicated as you practice but its impossible to explain


im way better at it when im on lsd rather than speed

 

[Ziiirp]

not literally in control of their mind....i just have their complete attention and since they are in a state of suggestibility i can basically alter certain perceptions they have on things. as i describe the features of something to the person, they start to generate an image in their minds. the image/idea being generated is influenced by my body language,facial expression and emotion i express while describing whatever it is im implanting into there head.....the shit gets more and more complicated as you practice but its impossible to explain


im way better at it when im on lsd rather than speed

Nothing out of the ordinary to me, except that you seem to pay a lot of attention to meta-thoughts and dialogue strategy instead of listening and understanding your conversational partner. Ever got tested positive for Aspergers ?

 

[selfmedicinals]

depending upon how many days you've been awake (two or more, I'd call this stimulant psychosis) or if you sleep every night, it's just a typical side effect of speed known as delusions of grandeur.

A delusion of grandeur is the false belief that one possesses superior qualities such as genius, fame, omnipotence, or wealth.
People with a delusion of grandeur often have the idea that they have some great but unrecognized talent or insight. They may also believe they have made some important discovery that others don’t understand or appreciate.

Sometimes drug use or abuse can intensify or bring on episodes of delusion of grandeur. People who take PCP or amphetamines are especially at risk.

source: psychcentral.com

what if this is an idea implanted into a massive number of people? and its purpose is to limit what we believe is possible and to limit the power of our minds. dont you remember how they treated Leary when he realized that many of the widely accepted beliefs and ideas contained within the "official" field of psychology were actually bullshit?

 

[selfmedicinals]

Nothing out of the ordinary to me, except that you seem to pay a lot of attention to meta-thoughts and dialogue strategy instead of listening and understanding your conversational partner. Ever got tested positive for Aspergers ?

ive thought about that possibility for a very long time and ive seen multiple psychiatrists who all have said i have no signs of autism or aspergers.....i think they misdiagnose alot of kids these days with aspergers because the schools complain about certain children alot......they either say its adhd or aspergers.....both labels that limit the mind of the victim. hardcore autism is something else tho.....i think thats more of a brain defect. i know what you mean by meta-thoughts and dialogue strategy but you have to remember we are on the internet right now and im speeding on adderall. this isnt a casual social situation. this is me experiencing my experience

 

[Mysterie]

having read littlepenguin's post, i agree with him/her wholeheartedly

 

[Ziiirp]

what if this is an idea implanted into a massive number of people? and its purpose is to limit what we believe is possible and to limit the power of our minds. dont you remember how they treated Leary when he realized that many of the widely accepted beliefs and ideas contained within the "official" field of psychology were actually bullshit?

Tits or it did not happen Even if you would be capable of that power (aka telekinesis?), how could anyone but yourself benefit from it in every day life ?
If I had the ability and the intention to manipulate people, I would keep quite about it and try to improve our togetherness behind the curtain via the moderation of the most greedy and dangerous part of our population (politicians, entrepeneurs).

ive thought about that possibility for a very long time and ive seen multiple psychiatrists who all have said i have no signs of autism or aspergers.....i think they misdiagnose alot of kids these days with aspergers because the schools complain about certain children alot......they either say its adhd or aspergers.....both labels that limit the mind of the victim. hardcore autism is something else tho.....i think thats more of a brain defect. i know what you mean by meta-thoughts and dialogue strategy but you have to remember we are on the internet right now and im speeding on adderall. this isnt a casual social situation. this is me experiencing my experience

Yeah I'm totally against labeling of teenagers/children, but since you wanted us laymen to evaluate your health state I did my best in finding a quick explanation for your mannerisms. If you can reveal that skill in sobriety, too, then it is time to be worried/astouned. I've heard from another person that they could implant their own thoughts into other (drugged up, high dose amph, shrooms) minds, who could confirm that. But that person landed in the psych ward pretty quickly. So I guess unless you cannot achieve it without chemical help, it is likely counter productive.

 

[littlepenguin]

what if this is an idea implanted into a massive number of people? and its purpose is to limit what we believe is possible and to limit the power of our minds. dont you remember how they treated Leary when he realized that many of the widely accepted beliefs and ideas contained within the "official" field of psychology were actually bullshit?

"delusions of grandeur" is not an idea that has been implanted into a massive number of people, it is a definition of a symptom one experiences, whether it be from having schizophrenia, dementia, Alzheimer's, or drug use.
There is no limiting purpose behind creating a definition to a term (yes, this is arguable, I know - but I'm just trying to explain my point.)

I don't know who "leary" is or why he is known for being captain obvious...the idea that some theories in the realm of psychology are bullshit is completely true, as is for traditional medicine, and other various sciences.
I don't know why people don't seem to grasp this - but doctor's don't know everything. That is why a doctor will open a clinic called a "practice," because that's exactly what they're doing - practicing medicine.

Lots of things over the years get proven wrong, or called "bullshit", because there's new technology, new ways to learn and discover things, which makes it easier to challenge the theory of something that everyone may have believed was true at one point. Christopher Columbus told everyone the world was flat - and it was widely accepted, for a long period of time. Until people had the means to prove him wrong, who's to say he was wrong?

Or, like in quantum physics - there's a theory in play that goes by the name of "Higgs Boson" theory...now, to make a helluva long story short, if this Higgs theory proves to be correct and true, that means that Einstein's Theory of Relativity would be mostly wrong - which is something that is and has been taught in schools for years and years, and is accepted worldwide by scientists and laymen alike. There's no way that Einstein could have seen this coming, simply because the technology that's recently been developed to potentially prove this theory wrong wasn't even thought of in his time.

 

[ComfortablyNumb95]

dunno if you have a psychosis, maybe you are just high

 

[selfmedicinals]

"delusions of grandeur" is not an idea that has been implanted into a massive number of people, it is a definition of a symptom one experiences, whether it be from having schizophrenia, dementia, Alzheimer's, or drug use.
There is no limiting purpose behind creating a definition to a term (yes, this is arguable, I know - but I'm just trying to explain my point.)

I don't know who "leary" is or why he is known for being captain obvious...the idea that some theories in the realm of psychology are bullshit is completely true, as is for traditional medicine, and other various sciences.
I don't know why people don't seem to grasp this - but doctor's don't know everything. That is why a doctor will open a clinic called a "practice," because that's exactly what they're doing - practicing medicine.

Lots of things over the years get proven wrong, or called "bullshit", because there's new technology, new ways to learn and discover things, which makes it easier to challenge the theory of something that everyone may have believed was true at one point. Christopher Columbus told everyone the world was flat - and it was widely accepted, for a long period of time. Until people had the means to prove him wrong, who's to say he was wrong?

Or, like in quantum physics - there's a theory in play that goes by the name of "Higgs Boson" theory...now, to make a helluva long story short, if this Higgs theory proves to be correct and true, that means that Einstein's Theory of Relativity would be mostly wrong - which is something that is and has been taught in schools for years and years, and is accepted worldwide by scientists and laymen alike. There's no way that Einstein could have seen this coming, simply because the technology that's recently been developed to potentially prove this theory wrong wasn't even thought of in his time.

he is not known for being captain obvious.....

 

[littlepenguin]

k, so - since I won't be watching those videos, what's yer point?

 

[Diet Pills]

You have psychosis, your mind is racing and you are having delusions, the natural state of humans is to be calm. I have been in your shoes by accident. Stop the drugs ...
And by the way YOU ARE NOT smarter on the drugs you just think you are , trust me I know how it feels ...

 

[Corazon]

i just took an extra 45mg on top of my usual 30mg adderall dose and im really baffled as to why i cant be this smart by default.....it feels like there is a bubble of awareness around my body and the amphetamines expand this bubble allowing me to see farther,deeper and even inside of the bubbles belonging to other humans.......so imagine a sober person's regular size bubble of awareness....and than picture another person's bubble of awareness that is expanded greatly......smaller bubbles can fit inside of larger bubbles. im convinced that this allows the larger bubble to gain access to information contained within the bubble or bubbles who pass through it. this makes sense because when i consume a high enough dose of adderall and im around other people i start having random thoughts that seem foreign to me...i than start communicating these thoughts through verbal language, body language and facial expression in ways that are understood by the mind(s) the thought originated from. if the people around me were bored or unhappy they inevitably become intrigued as long as their bubbles of awareness are fully surrounded by my awareness. i tap into their thoughts to help solve problems and provide reassurance to certain conclusions they may have came to but were unsure of. while they listen to me channel their minds, i observe their body language, facial expression and anomalies in their verbal language which reassure me that im indeed aware of what they are aware of thus reducing the entropy that exists within their bubble of awareness. weed does the same thing except its way harder to explain.



do you think this is psychosis? do you not understand what the hell im talking about? am i talking to the internet?

If you take a large dose, you feel great, your confidence goes up, you can form delusions. Now these 3 things are IMO healthy, even the so called delusions can be positive, especially if they help to break through a passive role or a static thought process.
Unfortunately you get harsh side effects.
Your brain screams for more.
Sober feels inadequate and you are unable to make an accurate estimation of what sober really is while dealing with the after-effects of high dose use and cravings. Your brain is also justifying use, and you would like to re-live the experience (literally and psychologically).
this generally leads to a harsh damaging cycle.

 

[Corazon]

A delusion of grandeur is the false belief that one possesses superior qualities such as genius, fame, omnipotence, or wealth.
People with a delusion of grandeur often have the idea that they have some great but unrecognized talent or insight. They may also believe they have made some important discovery that others don’t understand or appreciate.

side note:
often times the difference between a delusional person and a "genius" is their ability to capitalize on their ideas.

OK, back to your scheduled HR:

 

[selfmedicinals]

im not trying to mind control people im just convinced its possible....and the other night i wrote a long thing explaining it but i took a kpin while i was typing to see if it really was psychosis....i kept falling asleep while i was typing.....ill copy paste it now but remember i was going in and out of sleep during the writing process....i kept falling asleep like a narcoleptic does....it would come out of no where and than id wake up and realize i was typing still.....sometimes typing during the sleep periods

Tits or it did not happen Even if you would be capable of that power (aka telekinesis?), how could anyone but yourself benefit from it in every day life ?
If I had the ability and the intention to manipulate people, I would keep quite about it and try to improve our togetherness behind the curtain via the moderation of the most greedy and dangerous part of our population (politicians, entrepeneurs).



Yeah I'm totally against labeling of teenagers/children, but since you wanted us laymen to evaluate your health state I did my best in finding a quick explanation for your mannerisms. If you can reveal that skill in sobriety, too, then it is time to be worried/astouned. I've heard from another person that they could implant their own thoughts into other (drugged up, high dose amph, shrooms) minds, who could confirm that. But that person landed in the psych ward pretty quickly. So I guess unless you cannot achieve it without chemical help, it is likely counter productive.

i dont have the intention to manipulate people. i also think you are misunderstanding me in a couple ways. i dont go out and try to control peoples minds for fun on some sociopathic/psychopathic manson/bundy shit. i simply am aware of patterns and the consistency of. there is a relationship between the entertainment/music industries and the human thought process . when the social constructs are placed into all of the entertainment movies/tvshows...these social constructs are put there to push a certain ideas/agendas into the eyes and ears of the public so much that it eventually conditions them to think a certain way or believe its experiment and use mental techniques to entertain the possibility. when i find that they actually work i can start to imagine all of the potential possibilities......but after a mind is manipulated, the progress made must be maintained....if not the implanted constructs leave the mind because they arent real.

you can see how they maintain control in the minds of the public by hiding these constructs inside of television sitcoms, hollywood movies and the mainstream music industry.......it doesnt take much effort for me to notice the subliminal constructs they hide in plain site especially on tv....every single part of the entertainment industry changes constructs together on cue. as one trend phases out, another trend is brought in to reinforce the implanted mental construct that was already present in the minds of the public....if they dont maintain each construct than they end up with people like me.....who end up in the loony bin because they cleared their mind of all foreign belief constructs.


EDIT: i pasted that before i read it. i was definitely coherent in the beginning but it slowly started to make no sense as the kpin took effect. i think i was partially asleep while typing that whole thing wtf no one is gunna understand that. kpins and adderall crazy trip

 

[selfmedicinals]