Clocktower
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Some people can use MDMA monthly without side effects, others can't.
200mg of mdma once a month for 2 years is not responsible. MDMA is it's own drug, and a powerful one. Responsible use of MDMA would be 3-4 times a year no more.
You also have to think most people who use MDMA also do other drugs, which ads onto the side effects of MDMA. MDMA always puts a hefty toll on your brain, the less you use the better.
If you read around you will see some people feel fucked in the head from it after only 5-6 times.
After 20-odd years of at times insanely OTT use and abuse (was IVing 3.5g a week at one stage) and doing absolutely nothing to try to combat any possible side-effects or damage (aside from taking a shitload of other kewl drugs alongside it, of course) I can honestly say I don't have any longterm effects other than being kinda chilled and with impeccable taste in music.
Not saying this is big or clever or owt (cos it clearly isn't) but is the truth.
And my tolerance has reset. 250mg gets me rollin hard.
ime the thing is .... you can abuse mdma for years, but then there comes a night you are doing it again and bam your serotonic system collapses.
honestly, the night i took my last quarter of a pill (yes, that little) compared to the morning after where my long term comedown started was horrible, couldn't walk straight for days.
luckily i recovered over the course of about 12 months, but if you had asked me of the risks of mdma before that episode, i'd say - meh, maybe two or three days of not feeling so well then i am back on track.
how wrong i was ....
take care guys
Once a month is on the frequent side. Once every two months would be safer IMHO.
200 mg is also a high dose. Could you drop it to 180 mg max including one booster dose after about an hour?
ime the thing is .... you can abuse mdma for years, but then there comes a night you are doing it again and bam your serotonic system collapses.
honestly, the night i took my last quarter of a pill (yes, that little) compared to the morning after where my long term comedown started was horrible, couldn't walk straight for days.
luckily i recovered over the course of about 12 months, but if you had asked me of the risks of mdma before that episode, i'd say - meh, maybe two or three days of not feeling so well then i am back on track.
how wrong i was ....
take care guys
we will get through this. we just have to. I cant go on life feeling miserable. the odd thing is; with depression, i would expect to be terribly sad all the time. Like wanting to cry all the time. I dont really get all that sad. I just dont feel happy and things do not stimulate me in any positive way anymore. does this sound right? I know my head and sleep is all out of wack, but I was expecting more sadness from this depression. My emotions are so fucked up, I never felt this way before.