Hi I am Kyle, I am dually diagnosed

[kyle97205]

Hi everyone. I am a 21 year old male trying to recover from homelessness and addiction. I became homeless at age 19 my family disowning me due to substance use and undiagnosed mental health(Bi-Polar Disorder). Currently I am doing much better as of may 2013, I have a studio apartment in downtown Portland Oregon. My substance use is now more managable as I no longer have to commit crime to support my habit. My drugs of choice is smoked methamphetamine wich is of high potency 3-5 days a week. I also take only 3 mg of Suboxone a day as part of my 6 month taper plan from opiate dependence.

What I am looking for on blue light is support and advice about harmreduction and With my goal being to form a recovery plan that really works for dual diagnosis.

Anyways please say hi I am looking forward to meeting some people who understand my lifes carda I have been dealt

- kyle

 

[Leggz]

Hi everyone. I am a 21 year old male trying to recover from homelessness and addiction. I became homeless at age 19 my family disowning me due to substance use and undiagnosed mental health(Bi-Polar Disorder). Currently I am doing much better as of may 2013, I have a studio apartment in downtown Portland Oregon. My substance use is now more managable as I no longer have to commit crime to support my habit. My drugs of choice is smoked methamphetamine wich is of high potency 3-5 days a week. I also take only 3 mg of Suboxone a day as part of my 6 month taper plan from opiate dependence.

What I am looking for on blue light is support and advice about harmreduction and With my goal being to form a recovery plan that really works for dual diagnosis.

Anyways please say hi I am looking forward to meeting some people who understand my lifes carda I have been dealt
- kyle

Hey there, i just wanted to let u know, i feel you. We got alot in common darlin.

 

[xstayfadedx]

Welcome to bluelight Kyle. Glad to hear you're doing better!! I was homeless at 17 and later again at 18. I now have my own apartment as well and am getting over a heroin addiction. Anyways I know how hard it is and can be... so really I want to say congrats. I hope everything continues to only get better for you

 

[Alaska457]

Hey, welcome to Blulight. I'm pretty new here too but I have some mental issues with OCD, anxiety , etc. If you believe you have it, it will just make it worse. You just have to remember that most of it is just in your head. If you truly think you don't have Bi-Polar disorder, most of it will go away. Or even just think you're just convincing yourself to make it worse, that's what I did with my OCD (It basically made me convince myself that I changed personalities, so I didn't have anything but convinced myself I had Bi-Polar or had changed from the OCD). It'll take awhile but eventually it gets easier and easier. Hope you recover soon, try to find a job on the internet, I make at least $120 a day doing nothing.

 

[Cadamec]

Studies have show that a diagnosis of BP for an addict/alcoholic or a newly sober addict is not reliable. They will almost always test as BP.

Get rechecked after a year of sobriety if you get sober.

@alasak457, what do you do to make $120 a day doin nothin? I want in.

 

[Ninae]

This is interesting, as I've just recently started to think I might be bibolar. I was very manic as a child (ecxcept from the first year when I cried the whole time and didn' want to be fed. Then I've switched between manic and depressive periods, more manic, but the depressive periods are really bad.

I'm also used to being in a heighened state (I think also taught me from borth of my parents) so even if I'm in a high mood, it can still not feel so high for me. Of course this is made worse my drug-use but is still something by itself. It seems to be recognized by other people as I'm able to get people's spitits' up, and sometimes they give me this "Here comes the fun" look. As when you're in a manic state you kind of have the role of cheering everyone up.

I've seen some pictures of my grand mother who I think I've enhuired the nervous system type of when she was young (with my grandfather in a field) looking stupidly happy, then she became very depressed living with my grandfather, but after his demise has got her old spirit back. This has never really interested me, but I do fit very well the stereotype of manic depressive. Defaulting more as manic (like my dad and aunt who are also very manic). I've also noticed when manic people meet we seem to instantly recognise and attract each other. It's kind of like being on low-dose E.