TDS Adios Bluelight ! Harm Reduction worked, but I can't hang out.

[herbavore]

Cohesion, from the time you changed your user name I have felt this gradual sense of calm determination and growing self awareness through all of your posts. I am so happy for you. I have always admired your courageous honesty--especially about motherhood. Your daughter has a wonderful role model. I am really choked up reading this because I am just so happy for you and so proud of what you are doing for yourself. Keep spreading those wings.

I am going to PM you my contact information. Should you ever want to drop me a note, share a story or......just do it!

 

[footscrazy]

Good for you, Cohesion. You're a toughy

 

[DrunkardsDream]

Good luck.

 

[Tiesto]

I wish you the best of luck in your journey through life. I hope one day I can do what you are/have doing/done. I'm sure I'll be able to, but not right now - only when the time is right.

Be free and be happy.

 

[Cohesion]

The mighty hath fallen.

I'm not really here but I'm dropping in to give an update..

After a SOLID run clean (over 1 year no cannibinoids) I was having no cravings nor any authority to mandate sobriety. Alas on a whim I smoked some weed. It became immediately 3x/day, constantly eating, no meditation/spiritual practice, association with better-forgotten contacts, memory issues, and passing out at the computer. The benefits of my use were experienced in the first few hours the first time I tried it again. Crystallizing outlook on a few critical points in my life. This drug is something that would be useful 1-2 times/year, but not necessary if it's skipped. No need for psychedelics if your boat is this empty.

After 3 days of this smoke-eat-sleep cycle, 2 days off, then 2 more days of antisocial and cereal laden moments I am again free. Now I'm a day or 2 clean. That stuff is addictive.

Tiesto, Herbavore, everyone

 

[Stevenski]

Alas on a whim I smoked some weed. It became immediately 3x/day, constantly eating, no meditation/spiritual practice, association with better-forgotten contacts, memory issues, and passing out at the computer. The benefits of my use were experienced in the first few hours the first time I tried it again. Crystallizing outlook on a few critical points in my life. This drug is something that would be useful 1-2 times/year, but not necessary if it's skipped. No need for psychedelics if your boat is this empty.

So very true indeed. From the smoking on a whim one day to buying an oz the next & thinking nothing better of it. Diet goes to shit & weekends in particular become a smoky haze of semi conscious automation. Good luck stopping again.