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Mental Health OCD:A Living Hell

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Around this time last year my OCD really came out and for those of you who suffer from this illness you probably know the daily struggle caused by ocd.

The winter came in hard last year aswell as my ocd. The rituals of hard hand washing and showering 3 times a day to get rid of contamination. The rituals coninued and eventually got worse. I eventually decided to get help by going to a behavorial specialist. He prescribed me luvox cr with I abused heavily in hope of relief. I was taking more than 500mg a day and nothing different happend. The rituals got worse and i disconnected from family and friends. I felt live was a struggle. After a while i stopped the medicine and started to focus on school and friends again. Eventually i started taking it again and I regularly smoked marijuana while on this medicine. I stopped the luvox because i felt it did not work. Ive been off the luvox for a while now and continue to smoke weed on a pretty much daily basis.

For those of you suffering from this i hope you can overcome it and go into remission. Although im doing better my ocd is still not completely gone however it is more bearable
 
Did your doctor ever prescribe any kind of therapy? Severe OCD is hell but there are therapies out there that work quite well. If this doctor didn't suggest therapy and only prescribed a drug, I would look for another doctor or psychiatrist. Do you think that weed has a medicinal effect on your symptoms?
 
My doctor Never recommended any therapy and i notice some strains do help reduce anxiety however some strains make me anxious. I live in az so we have a med program do you think it is worth a shot? Also i heard xanax can be benefical for those with ocd.
 
Exposure therapy is your best bet. OCD is caused by a structure in the brain called the 'caudate nucleus.' The sensation of OCD is in a sense that portion of your brain skipping gears for a few minutes.

This creates a feeling like something is wrong that you can't quite put your finger on. The human mind naturally assigns meanings to it. For you, you've convinced yourself, something feels wrong, but nothing is actually wrong, so it must be that I am dirty. So cleaning artificially gives you something to think you fixed to make the wrong feeling go away.

People's brains who work like this will never change. Even if you stop your current rituals, the OCD will attach to something else. The best thing to do is not to avoid rituals, but instead build new ones. Things that won't interfere with your life in any way. For example, everytime you feel anxious, do a certain sort of body language, or take a sip of water, etc. Eventually you can build rituals to fit any possible scenario you would be in. Which in turn, will make the feelings go away.

That or mushrooms/LSD every 3 weeks.

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Try therapy.
I have social anxiety, general anxiety, and OCD (the OCD is not severe though) and therapy really helped me with anxiety. Weed also helps with anxiety. But yeah, I'd definitely recommend therapy :)
 
Definitely try therapy. In a way it's a matter of reversing the behavioral patterns and seeing someone will definitely help with that. I would only see medication as a last resort (as with any mental illness really).
 
By the way, I just wanted to add to my previous post that I wouldn't recommend getting started on Xanax - if you abused your previous med it's extremely unlikely that would end well. Xanax addiction is the last thing you'd want so unless you trust yourself to only stick to the prescribed dose it would probably be more beneficial for you to stay off it.
Have you thought about therapy more since your last post/started therapy?
 
I have OCD too, with most of my compulsions surrounding cleanliness. I strongly recommend CBT using Exposure as Parappa described. My OCD was too severe unmedicated for me to do any sort of therapy successfully. SSRIs are the best & first line of treatment for OCD and if you find the right one, medicated therapy can change your life. You can minimise your harmful/time-wasting compulsions and learn to refocus your energy more productively. Five years of Prozac and CBT improved my life and mental well being dramatically.

How long did you take Luvox for? SSRIs take time to work, and taking a higher dose won't make the drug work faster. If you don't take it consistently it also won't work as it's meant to. I think you should consider giving Luvox another try, following your doctor's instructions and staying on the medication for AT LEAST 2 months before you dismiss it altogether. Take it every day and don't skip doses. Be patient.

It is also possible you had an unusual reaction to the Luvox, likely due to your abuse of it. Zoloft made me strangely manic & zombie-like, and I couldn't tolerate it for more than a week. Maybe you just need a different SSRI; Prozac is considered the most effective for OCD after Luvox. It also has milder side effects than many other similar drugs, at least in part due to how long-acting it is. I can't stress how important medication is for even moderate cases of OCD; something really is abnormal in OCD brains. Just experiencing how it feels to think normally, to NOT be constantly obsessing, was a revelation for me.
 
I had some sort of anxiety induced OCD when I was very young and it was weird as fuck. To be honest I think I had more mental problems when I was little than I do now. I used to repeatedly put my hand to my chest and check my heartbeat because I thought I was dying and I'd piss myself a little every hour or so because I, for some ungodly reason believed my dick was not working lol.
I'm surprised my parents never took me to a psychiatrist, or maybe they did, i dont know. Thankfully I grew out of that shit and now all I have is depression and a little bit of anxiety, of course easily fixed with the right chemicals.


lol
 
Pagey said:
By the way, I just wanted to add to my previous post that I wouldn't recommend getting started on Xanax - if you abused your previous med it's extremely unlikely that would end well. Xanax addiction is the last thing you'd want so unless you trust yourself to only stick to the prescribed dose it would probably be more beneficial for you to stay off it.
Have you thought about therapy more since your last post/started therapy?
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truesay stay off that bloody xanax- its very addictive indeed. whenever i have had it i just keep eating them and end up making bad decisions and forgetting everything.

what you need is some sort of cognitive therapy to help deal with intrusive thoughts.

have you always smoked weed? dopaminergics like methylphenidate and methamphetamine are known for exacerbating/triggering ocd

have you spent time without cannabis?
 
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