Chicago Heroin v Hugs not Drugs

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^ I've been in the same situation tommy way too many times with my family.

At first no one talked about it, then people started joking around and I would joke back, but now no one says a word because it honestly makes me mad and they know it.
 
Glad my family is the "don't talk about it" kind of family.. unless we're in a yelling match, then they bring everything out on the table that every happened, repeatedly, over and over. Its their way of venting all the repressed shit that has gone on probably since we don't acknowledge shit head on, just kind of get through an obstacle/event.. but then when it comes to a breaking point everything that has happened and was kind of skipped over is repeated over and over and thrown back in my face and its a 3-hour ordeal of just BEAT DOWN on opiateguy over anything and everything.

Its fine though, I'm used to it this way.

Anyways, luckily came up on enough cash for a half jab today.. been nodding from like 4-7 and then I woke up, thinking I had finished the entire half jab, and decided to fix dinner.... turns out I've got 3 more blows (I had only done a lil over half what I bought).. Nice surprise. Gonna do these 3 and get back on cloud 9.. hell yeah.

Reporting in once again for team nod.. somebody from chicago better join me tonight, you east and west coast mofuckas aren't welcome.
 
OpiateGuy said:
Gwen that dude sounds like a user to me.. Ive had dealers ask if i shoot or snort, but that was it.. nobody gives a fuck how you use it as long as youre copping from them.
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yeah yeah OG. I see where you're coming from. this guy is RELENTLESS. two texts a day, but they're not SMS - they show EVERY SINGLE PERSON's PHONE NUMBER he sends it to.... And if you're not spending 50 bucks, he won't serve. Also I heard from another friend who knows this guy that he'll give you two free blows if you send him a friend, but ONLY if the friend spends at least 100/day. Just crazy. I'd rather hit the corner than deal with him....

But it IS safer. His dope IS good. I dunno. I'm between jobs right now. Not using alot. Only when I have to be in a great mood - like today I scored for a job interview. Sometimes I don't want to nod. I just want to feel good...
xox
gwen

ps Opiate Guy, if I change my user name to Opiate Gwennie can I be your BLGF?
 
PantyRaid said:
Heh heh, dawdling around waiting til i have to go to an 'appointment' (first ever professional dominatrix gig, ohhhh yeahh) after finally fucking copping, and i just discovered an unlocked wifi connection

The name of it is

Wait for it

Chinky :)
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AWESOME! Love it. So are you going to someone's house or do you work for a "dungeon". Fascinating. I'm such a bitch I'd be a great dominatrix. "You are a worm. Worms don't talk."
 
Sorry OG, no nodding here, more like "put the kids to bed, now a little internet time."

Interesting listening to you guys talk about "coming out" to your family, and please don't find this condescending. I think I'm a little older, so my family means my wife knows when i'm high, and doesn't really approve when she knows. My kids are too young to know, at least that's what I hope, and since i don't have a habit now, I hope I don't when they are older.

Parents are mostly out of the picture, like mom's passed, dad has his own deal, see him sometimes, he drinks a good bit. He knows what I've been through, visited me in treatment, but has no desire to discuss it.

Anyway, it's all your decision in the end. I'm sure I'm not telling you anything you don't already know. And yes, eventually it's not your decision at all, I've been there too. Like every good junkie, I like to think that some clean time and having the trappings of a life means I can use a little bit here and there....but many others have proven me wrong.

Hope you're all well and happy with where you're at....

Now about that party in indiana....
 
Hey OG Chicago area friend is assembled for team nod. Been assembled on the nod for about 6 hours Good times!!
 
Personally I don't think I'd ever be able to come out to my family. They have absolutely zero understanding and I would immidiately be cast out. I would actually prefer if they would joke about it if they knew...
All this nodding talk is making really want to nod right now. -_- Chicago FTW!
 
^^ i dunno your family life so forgive me if im outta line

but....

im my experience, family love never fades

i come from a super conservative family in which my mom has never used drugs and my dad claims to have only smoked pot a few times but never liked it cuz it made him paranoid n anxious, they're very religous n very old school.

when i told em i was addicted to heroin, they opened there arms to hug me n to tell me they would do whatever they could to help n that they appreciatted me coming to them. even grandma was there n even she just cried n said she was glad i came to them, she hugged me and told me if there is anything she can do to let her now


that was almost 2 years ago

tom will be 2 years without heroin, April 4 2011 was the last day i used the stuff, had some slip ups with Rxs over the last few months but thats behind me now, i mean im not past addiction or anything like by any means but im pretty excited bout tom
 
my mom did tell me whyt i didnt come to her and tell her and i told her how? i hate to admit it to myself let alone coming forward without being prompted

but guess what no more phone posting, i finally got the internet hooked up and can now be back in full post mode
 
chefman said:
how long were you n
without a job and how did you get money to buy dope all that time?
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its been a couple years and im not theif or nothing, my father has passed and so has my grandfather and so i got something from them and when your living at home not paYING RENT OR FOOD OR CABLE, its pretty easy to live comforable...plus i sold weed for many years before i got caught up on that bullshit and was somewhar succewssful i guess..i say somewhat cause i still got caught eventually even if it wasnt for selling..honeslyt i was just a spoiled upper middle class kid and it caught up with me. i feel like if i never would have moved from the city and my mom never got the job she got, things would be different. if she would of said no when i asked for 20bucks to go out with my friends 2-3x a week and bring home nothing to show for it. and when i did bring shit home it was from hustling and so she didnt know the differance

OpiateGuy said:
If I was your parents I probably woulda kicked you out too because if you've taken $100, odds are its not your first time doing that. Plus, why'd you go for the whole $100? Why not just $50 to get by with not being sick? Just wanted to get high? Understandable, but that makes it even more of a compelling case that this wasn't the first time some shit like this has been pulled off.

Again, not judging, you can do whatever you want. Just keepin' it real and calling it like I've seen it in people I've known.

Shit, I completely nodded out after making that post above.. Just woke up and ate some dinner. Turns out I woke up and still have 5 caps let so that's good news. Gonna blow 2 more, drive to mcdonalds, grab a vanilla milkshake (favorite food while nodding), then go to my night class.. I may go and attend, otherwise I might just chill in my car listening to music, blowing the remaining blows I have and sippin on that ice cold vanilla milkshake.. Damn that sounds like a good plan, but I might just go to class anyways, we'll see.

Reporting in for the team tonight.
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im not a theif, i had money my mom was just mad at me for wasting my inheritancew and not getting a job..that money i took was only gonna be missing a day or 2, yeah ivwe done it before and replaced it so maybe i got over confident that i could do it over the entire weekend. and when she said something about it and blamed it on spmepone else i didnt bother to replace it cause it would of made no sense then.

my problem is i cant lie to my mom..like i can, but serious shit like this..when she asks, i almost always tell the truth cause i dunno thats mom. my dad was there a litle bit but they were divorced when i was 5 and i seen him but mom was everything and i can lie about little things but serious things like that, i had a feeling she knew somehting was up and it wasnt just me being lazy
 
I think for a lot of people, myself included....We just eventually get fucking caught! And after your family knows the signs to look for.....It's all over....

Shit, my mom can actually tell what I'm high on within 5 seconds of looking at me! even if I do just enough to not feel fucked up, she still knows! The shit I put that poor woman through! Of course if you get in the middle of me and my dope whne I have a habit goin, I don't care who you are, step aside! I'm on a mission whether you like it or not!
 
lol

its funny when i was younger everytime my mom tried callin me out about being drunk or high, 9/10 i would be sober..but the days i was shit faced and pukin, i didnt get so much as a look let alone a question
 
chinky said:
lol

its funny when i was younger everytime my mom tried callin me out about being drunk or high, 9/10 i would be sober..but the days i was shit faced and pukin, i didnt get so much as a look let alone a question
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Lmao this is absolutely 100% true. My mom is the exact same.
 
My mom had no clue for a long time, but once she started going to support groups for parents of addicts, it was all over....no more nodding out in the mash potatoes on Thanksgiving without "comments", at least!
 
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