^After hearing so many experiences that contradict mainstream belief, and considering my inability to appreciate such things due to my upbringing, I'm confident that no one else will chime in to tell me about the potential benefits, should I decide to go. Pagey and yanker see it differently, but I'm grateful to hear their opinions nonetheless. Their optimism is inspiring, but unfortunately I lack the means to realize it at this time in my life. However, I'm hopeful that I may someday better conform to what society deems to be appropriate. Doing so goes against my belief that I should be sincere, and genuinely express my honest beliefs, but the results of doing so have been far less than favorable. It seems that for my own good, I should modify my attitude so that I conform. I'm certainly trying, by doing things like going to therapy, but I will never be "cured" if my behavior requires that I stay honest. That is something I will never change, so learning to genuinely agree with the majority is my only hope.