Don't worry you're still considered a cunt by me man.
Thank fuck for that. Now all is (nearly) normal in EADD-land. Though have I unwittingly invited less abuse due to making my desire for it known to every man and his farmaz? Or am I overthinking this entirely? Surely that makes me more of a cunt? Ah, fuck it.
kate said:
Violence and verbal abuse always need calling out. There's no justification, excuse, reason, explanation, accident, slip up etc .... for it.
You know I stand behind you on that, save for the fact that nobody knows about the violence part of the whole sorry business apart from pontifex. So I can kind of understand the first paragraph or so of his response to Dan. Not that the rest of it (insults and such) are acceptable at all, but I can identify with Pontifex's misreading of Dan's post.
Nor do I think Dan intended to be judgmental (or at least come across as such) but the fact remains that Pontifex was obviously in a bit of a mess at the time. So something maybe needed to be said, but PMs would have been a better route for all. Sorry I was falling asleep at the time you made your (very bold, if not exactly laudible in principle) admission; not that I'm saying I could have done you any good - maybe the opposite even. But it's all over now, isn't it? The brief spat, I mean. Not your own troubles; wish they could be so easily dealt with, but then we'd be far too happy to be drunks / junkies / fuckups, eh?
Everybody loves Dan, and lots of people love Pontifex. He's just a more 'difficult' character to get a handle on, which a lot of us have experience of being on a daily basis. Especially if you get frustrated at self-destruction (which I know you do, Kate).
So with that, I shall don my degrading tea-boy attire and attend to duties. And that PM had better come eventually - yours shocked me into silence for a bit, for obvious reasons (nothing bizarre or sinister, folks). Just, y'know? And it came at a very loveless time, which made me screwed up about answering it. If you know what I mean. I don't need to get assessed for adult AD(H)D (or whatever I apparently had as a kid), do I?
Miss ya too. More than I'd let on willingly.
I just made it to the shops, 'forgot' to get food and am now regretting it slightly. Only slightly though, as I'll reap the rewards come next week. Oh, but I'll put it all back on, and probably more. As I think (fingers crossed) I'm clean, though I'll have one hell of a comedown to deal with. Let's face that tomorrow though, eh?
quick, someone get myshkin some mdma.
Somebody already did. I'm thinking it'd be a waste to take it alone, but I'm going to need to be alert and fairly sober-looking in public from now on, at least in certain places. I could always double up the dose, but I'd rather get rid of this nasty Peevee first.
