Charles Ferdinand
Bluelighter
Hi! I've always suffered from Genaralized & social anxiety disorders, with the ocassional obsessions and panic attacks. That's why I started to use alcohol, which to led to me being prescribed klonopin by some stupid psychiatrist.
I was addicted to benzos for 5 years and suffered through the classical dangerous symptoms: depersonalization, seizures, insomnia, etc. for at least 2 months, but am clean now.
My anxiety disorder was originally quite severe: had to get drunk to go to high school and then had to drop out of two different universities (before any drugs or psychiatrists). Was secluded in my home for the last couple of years doing things as turning the lights off after sunset for fear of someone coming by and seeing me.
Anyway, I'm much better, finished school, got a job but I'm still not ok from the benzo wd, so my question is, now that I'm clearly off the brutal GABAergic wd's, you think I could us some flumazenil IV to, maybe "reset", my receptors? Could it even work somewhat for anxiety?
Perhaps some ketamine (NMDA) and topiramate (AMPA/Kainate) would be in order, too?
Any other meds, wouldn't work: back in the day I tried olanzapine, risperidone, paroxetine, escitalopram, levomepromazine, venlafaxine, bupropion, fluoxetine, moclobemide, amitryptiline, alprazolam, bromazepam, clonazepam, propranolol, phenobarbital, ziprasidone, amisulpride & sulpiride (both low dose for social anxiety), memantine, amantadine, pregabalin, gabapentin, kava, and many others I don't remember from 5 psychiatrist, plus 7 different therapists, and amphetamines or opiates are out of question and have never tried them. (To be fair, pregabalin, barbs and benzos worked incredibly well, until they just didn't...) Pregabalin works amazingly again when combined with an nmda antagonist and gabapentin, but I also need benzos for this to work, and they just don't nothing to me anymore.
And btw, I (AMAZINGLY, I must say) got better by forcing myself to get an easy job and then socializing (though the first couple weeks I did had to use a low dose of tramadol).
I also have a friend of mine who's a doctor and is able to get the flumazenil, topiramate and ketamine, could administer those to me, if I tell him to, but he admits he doesn't know shit about psychopharmacology.
Thanks in advance.
Charles.
I was addicted to benzos for 5 years and suffered through the classical dangerous symptoms: depersonalization, seizures, insomnia, etc. for at least 2 months, but am clean now.
My anxiety disorder was originally quite severe: had to get drunk to go to high school and then had to drop out of two different universities (before any drugs or psychiatrists). Was secluded in my home for the last couple of years doing things as turning the lights off after sunset for fear of someone coming by and seeing me.
Anyway, I'm much better, finished school, got a job but I'm still not ok from the benzo wd, so my question is, now that I'm clearly off the brutal GABAergic wd's, you think I could us some flumazenil IV to, maybe "reset", my receptors? Could it even work somewhat for anxiety?
Perhaps some ketamine (NMDA) and topiramate (AMPA/Kainate) would be in order, too?
Any other meds, wouldn't work: back in the day I tried olanzapine, risperidone, paroxetine, escitalopram, levomepromazine, venlafaxine, bupropion, fluoxetine, moclobemide, amitryptiline, alprazolam, bromazepam, clonazepam, propranolol, phenobarbital, ziprasidone, amisulpride & sulpiride (both low dose for social anxiety), memantine, amantadine, pregabalin, gabapentin, kava, and many others I don't remember from 5 psychiatrist, plus 7 different therapists, and amphetamines or opiates are out of question and have never tried them. (To be fair, pregabalin, barbs and benzos worked incredibly well, until they just didn't...) Pregabalin works amazingly again when combined with an nmda antagonist and gabapentin, but I also need benzos for this to work, and they just don't nothing to me anymore.
And btw, I (AMAZINGLY, I must say) got better by forcing myself to get an easy job and then socializing (though the first couple weeks I did had to use a low dose of tramadol).
I also have a friend of mine who's a doctor and is able to get the flumazenil, topiramate and ketamine, could administer those to me, if I tell him to, but he admits he doesn't know shit about psychopharmacology.
Thanks in advance.
Charles.
