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How Are You In One Word ver. Smile Because It Happened

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Spork <3 My condolences to you and all who shared affinity with your friend. Blessings.

My words: overwhelmed/procrastinating. I have not finished laundry or packing, not even close. I just made some coffee so I should perk up a bit, but today was a very emotionally trying day and I have a lot to do before my flight tomorrow. I'm ordinarily so used to being busy, this time I'm just so over it. :|
 
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I just had to transcribe a whole counselling session I did for a class, it was stressful but I just finished. 6 hours later.
 
<3 to you, Spork. My condolences.


Extremely bummed. After seeing photos posted online of the runway show I was supposed to headline this evening (I was replaced unexpectedly and without explanation), I saw that I was replaced by a good friend of mine. It's not her fault, she doesn't get to pick the models. But I've always been envious of her and wondered if I would have had the same notoriety if I hadn't made stupid fucking decisions in the past.

Now I know why she didn't respond when I told her I was dropped from the show for no reason...
 
Straight up sad.

Often times there is a sad tone to my mood mixed with a bunch of other shit, but I feel like I am on the verge of crying.
The past few days have been particularly shit, and drained me of whatever energy I had.
It seems there's nothing I can do to escape these emotions, and I am so tired.
It's not like I usually have an escape, but I have something.
I can't even explain this, I lack the awareness let alone will.
This is hopeless, though.
I just wish this would end. I should make it end.
 
Abject said:
Straight up sad.

Often times there is a sad tone to my mood mixed with a bunch of other shit, but I feel like I am on the verge of crying.
The past few days have been particularly shit, and drained me of whatever energy I had.
It seems there's nothing I can do to escape these emotions, and I am so tired.
It's not like I usually have an escape, but I have something.
I can't even explain this, I lack the awareness let alone will.
This is hopeless, though.
I just wish this would end. I should make it end.
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Have you been eating well, and getting exercise? Sometimes these things are easily neglected in our society... and these things go along way with alleviating depression symptoms.

You can always PM me if there's something you want to talk about one on one.
 
spork said:
I've been going through something very similar lately, B. Have you tried talking to her about how you've been feeling or is it possible to visit her soon? I know when I do feel this way and after I see my best friend I realize that I was worrying over nothing and that our friendship is still strong. It is still a crappy feeling though. I hope you're feeling better soon. <3

I'm not wanting to work today. I do have the entire weekend off though which is rare so I'm hoping the day at work will go by fast today so I can enjoy that. I also have a phone date set up with my best friend after work, which I think I desperately need.
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It was more the fact that we didn't have a good day together. After 2 months she barely talked to me and was depressed most of the time, and she's just been really weird about me lately :/ Like she doesn't want to talk to me.
 
fleea said:
Raining here again, fucking England I need a new passport, going to go get the form today I need some Sunshine.
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Couldn't agree more, so sick of this weather.

spork said:
Sad. Just found out that a very long time friend has passed away. :(
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I'm so sorry spork. I wish I knew what to say...I know this is going to be a difficult time for you but remember that wherever he/she may be right now, s/he's in a better place. I don't believe in an afterlife but I just know that all the people I've lost along the way are happier now, wherever they may be. <3

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<3 to you, Spork. My condolences.


Extremely bummed. After seeing photos posted online of the runway show I was supposed to headline this evening (I was replaced unexpectedly and without explanation), I saw that I was replaced by a good friend of mine. It's not her fault, she doesn't get to pick the models. But I've always been envious of her and wondered if I would have had the same notoriety if I hadn't made stupid fucking decisions in the past.

Now I know why she didn't respond when I told her I was dropped from the show for no reason...
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Aaah model that sucks. Can't you ask them why they dropped you? :\

I'm overwhelmed. Been spending my week with the flu stuck in my room writing job applications, boring essays on medieval literature and studying for exams instead of recovering. Feels like my head's gonna explode.
 
Pagey said:
Been spending my week with the flu stuck in my room writing job applications, boring essays on medieval literature and studying for exams instead of recovering. Feels like my head's gonna explode.
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What medieval lit are you look at? Have you done anything on the humanist contribution of Renaissance French Humanist writers impacting Shakesperean era writings, I find this quite interesting.

I am mortal - with the strength to do what it takes to get through anything, the ability to accept setbacks, and deal with them as required.
 
Pagey said:
Sadly no, that'd be cool but we're mostly just doing the obvious classics, Beowulf, Chaucer and the like. Really not my thing :|
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Hey, Beowulf's a pretty cool story that flows through the poem, don't tell me you have to translate it from that awful language it was originally written in? How about the "Romantic Period"? Have you read any Wordsworth Poetry? Tintern Abbey is a classic - i remember its subject matter was mainly concerned with being in nature and going back to childhood roots, i like this concept...theres a bit about spirituality that flows through it also.
 
Oh we don't have to translate it, we're just reading it directly in Old English hahah. Nope not doing any romanticism this year (I think I might be next year though?) but I have read a fair amount of Wordsworth on my own. I agree, Tintern Abbey is gorgeous :) in the same vein I really like Byron and Keats as well, dunno if you've read much of their stuff but worth looking into. Actually I think Keats went to the same uni as me which is kinda cool.
 
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Because I am heading toward my 7th month sober and have reduced my daily methadone dose.
Life is looking up for me.
 
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