Amnesia Seizure I'm sorry, I meant $200.00/ can't find pounds function on my keyboard. And both you and Shambles, thanks for clearing things up. I wouldn't find it strange that coke HCl is a drug of the affluent- thats the case in most of the world. In the 90s I was getting really really good coke for 50-$60 a gram US. Paid $40 once for decent coke,. This is in contrast to the 80s when the going rate was $100- got an 8 ball once of very good quality for $350.00- no brake. 3.5 grams where going for $100 by 94'.
But anyway I had a feeling that episode was dodgy. Again cannabis being a drug of the working class and not cut across socioeconomic groups seemed ludicrous.
But yea, not mentioning gear or MDxx at he very least, or mephedrone seems to be a great ommision. The LA episode I think is fairly acurate. The Hawaii one is accurate, esp so far as methamphetamine (called Bhatu there, not as much called Ice) had a girl I work with from the Islands that confirmed this and I know the gear cost many times what it does on the mainland. Alaska- I know there is alot of coke and methamphetamine, but 3% of Anchorages population being addicted to smack- not sure how accurate. Wonder about New orleans and detroit- they seem to be an addicts paradise and hell. According to the detroit episode you can get good china white from Burma- and the drugs are cheap. Puerto Rico wouldn't be a huge suprise from people I know from there.
Congrats Pink!
I'm fucking up. Trying to be good. Got a hold of some methadone 10 mg pills. Hooked up dope the other day from my scandolous middleman. It was powder but paid $100 for a gram probaly more like .25- used to get 3g for $100 when I had a proper habit but have avoiding getting a proper connect to not get strung out- on my way though. Anyway, today I was jonesing, tempted but wanted to hold out. Then I get a txt from this dude- my middle man asking if I knew someone who wanted to buy a watch, I pad, or "I'm illing, can you help me out."
That just fired up my brain- I can get more, maybe negotiate a $50 piece this time. I txted the fuck- no, sorry, I can't hook you up.
My friend from work- the one from Hawaii is like a sister. Shes 4 months pregnant. We usually cool, but we were supposed to study last week. Drunk I told her I would have to stop by dickheads to hook up and then would take her to lunch. My wife has her phone number and was suspicious so when my wife called her, my friend B told my wife what I was up to- she used to smoke Bhatu but was legitimately concerned for me. My wife was pissed off, but then wanted a little piece of black- she is on only 1 mg sub, which is part of the reason she was pissed- no longer gets her high nor a blocking dose- but simmered down after I kicked her a little piece. But B added to my missery because my wife has been out of town so she has been comming over to check on me. She is actually a good friend but I would have to wait more than 6 hours on days I had dope to smoke until she left.
But anyway, thinking i had gone over a week without dope and had put it resolutely behind me she had a PCA syringe of dilaudid- 7.5 mgs left. She had to waste it- requires co-signiture in this country. In the med room she kept saying j- you want this, i'll let you have it. I was like - you ready to start a #20 IV in my AC- like 53 ml of volume. She's like yea grab me a kit. We were joking at first, but then it occured to me that she was testing my sicerity. Before disposing of it she was all "are you sure". I was like hell no, and B this aint cool your making me jones. She dumps it but was like "its been over a week (actually 1 day unbecknowest to her)- your so strong, I knew your done with this." Then she came and appologized to me latter. Being human this stoked the fire.
Anyway, I didn't score dope. I'm under my wife scrutiny who returns tommorow, B- who is a hot Hawaiian chick, but our relationship over the last year and a half has grown into a big brother-little sister- she knows alot about my history... but does not understand the life of an opiate enhusiasts though i have tried to explain it to her which she doesn't get.. now assuming a role of co-dependence... she does that kinda shit with her fiancee-tests his sincerity- I know because he has told me that and she has told me that so I hear both sides.
But bottom line- gotta stay clean. Just alittle
And I'll say ad nauseum- if i really want to get good cheap dope I'd make the hour drive to TJ. But I don't want to get strung out again. No way in hell I'd get away with crossing the border- would have a panick attack waiting an 1/2- 1 hour to cross over by foot, and would totally blow it waiting 1.5-2 hours to cross by car -get sent to secondary.
Shambles Council Estates/ UK social services are a great idea b/c the house that I score at it ready to cave in, my hommie lives in the attick, he cant leave safely because he has warrants for his arrest and when we did go to meet his connect we got tailed and when I turned the corner he jumped outta tha car as I turned the corner and jumped out of the car at the corner and ran down the alley or hid in the bushes- anyway- by some act of God I didn't get pulled over that night (at 1:00 am). The place is hot, full of tweakers and dope fiends- lost my car in the confusion when i parked to go to his house- found out where the outdoor crack market is inadvertantly. My point is out side there are litteraly hundreds of homeless people- some with children in downtown San Diego, on the fringes of gentrification. Funny thing is as much as he has taken advantage of me and punked me he still tries to act like i owe him a favor. Maybe thats why all the people that used to come and buy from him (someone fronted him some tweak and I think he used more than he could pay back), all his "friends" seem to have disapeared. I think he has been jackin others so less and less people have been going through him so his issue has been dwindling. But The night before last was an all time low in the quantity I'd gotten from him. But he's a destitute middleman and user so thats what I expect.
Right now i gotta say this life aint worth it as enticing as the sweet fruits of the poppy are.
Sorry I know I'm all over the place with this post. You all ignore me- just need to vent and share my confusion- mixed feelings.