Best of luck to you

It can be done.
I'm just coming clean now, I've managed a little over 6 weeks sober, this is the longest amount of time I've had without any mind altering substances in 20 years.
Pete man - congratulations. I can't express how proud and joyful I am for you. Seriously brother well done and I congratulate you wholeheartedly. That's absolutely amazing man - if you can do 6 weeks you can do 60 years. Lets get your life back on track my man.
How's everyone else going? Man I've been so caught up in all my shit. I'm completely out of cash and opiates, so I'm going a little loopy. Plugged 15mg of dex to boost me but I took 150mg of 5-htp earlier along with 60mg of Valium. Doubt it will do much, feeling a little bit more speedy but its not what I normally get from plugging my dex. Fuck it's annoying and I shouldn't have taken all that vallium and 5-htp but I get my script for dexies refilled tomorrow, hurrah!
I'm thinking I might get some H to curb these w/d's for the time being. It's cheap and affordable. Oxy is ruining my bank account at the moment and I'm knee deep in debt from my dealer. He's not a happy camper and I hate to let him down, but I just have nothing to pay him with.
Also with the whole plugging thing, I'm quite new to it. I've administered micro enemas so I know how to do it, but sometimes the liquid leaks out of me (as what happened this afternoon when I tried to plug 100mg of morphine) and I ended up wasting most if not all of it. I used 5ml of warmish water. Whenever I use around 2-3ml everything goes perfectly, as I do with my dex (well a little leaked out) but then I changed my lying position and voila it was much better. It's a pain in the arse (literally) but once you work it out its good. I hate that I just wasted so much damn morphine this afternoon too. The worst part is that I use this lubricant too, so I don't know how much is lost and how much isnt. With the dex I just went ah fuck it - and shoved it up there. It's definitely kicked in and is working though as you can tell by this huge post lol. Anyway, the morphine was my last remenants left. Tomorrow I'm going to go codeine linctus shopping, the joys, and hopefully my dealer will sort me out a plan. This whole addiction is so out of control at the moment, I wish I just had an unlimited supply to oxy as my psyc does give it to me, but I ate through his prescription in a bloody 2 week period.
I've also noticed another bizzare thing - my triazolam is no where near as effective as it used to be. I'm swallowing them like candies and they don't put my lights out, instead euphoria baby, so I'm happy with that. Eh. Not looking forward to this next week at all. Hope my oxy comes through. Just hope everything gets better as its been a rough two-three weeks so far.