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Gibberings : CXXIII : Get out of Bed you fuckers!

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Pretty good thanks max, you still on the path of the righteous?
 
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Haywire, Bananas, Wired to the Moon, Madouvit (in a Dublin accent), Loonified, Baloobas - the Baloobas were a tribe in the Congo who went, well, Baloobas and killed a load of Irish UN Peacekeepers in the 70s
 
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Pretty good thanks max, you still on the path of the righteous?
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Glad to hear it mate, yeah I'm still off the gear,will be 6 months by the end of February.
Just need to reduce my methadone and get off that as well.But going well so far.
 
That is proper 'ardcore Max...big your sen up :)

As you know I've little experience of opiates beyond my current regime of pain killers (MST at the mo) but I do know that what you have achieved takes some real grit and determination. You might be on the Methadone but I assume you have made real progress breaking the underlying habit or life style etc.

One step at a time though innit, I'm sure you'll kick the green stuff into touch soon enough
 
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That is proper 'ardcore Max...big your sen up :)

As you know I've little experience of opiates beyond my current regime of pain killers (MST at the mo) but I do know that what you have achieved takes some real grit and determination. You might be on the Methadone but I assume you have made real progress breaking the underlying habit or life style etc.

One step at a time though innit, I'm sure you'll kick the green stuff into touch soon enough
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Yes mate, I think I have gone past the habit of wanting to score now but every now and then I will get a brief urge to score but a couple of minutes later the urge has gone.
Anyway mate, glad to hear you are doing well. Off to bed now as early start job hunting tmrw morning. Cya later mate.
 
Not at all knock. Massive thank you for all that info, cant say how much i appreciate everyones help. I'll take a closer look tomorrow but its hard when its all a different language. I feel literally like you've all just spoken to me in Russian and I'm gonna have to sit down with a Russian-English dictionary and plow through it, it really is that big a task to me.
 
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Harsh but fair become a bit of a slogan amongst my friends back in the day, it came form the first night we took the infamous MDA snowballs, most people could barely stand talk or walk for a good while....Harsh but fair :D

I personal point amusement for me when of my face on MDXX was people asked 'are you all right mate ?' ....all right? all right ///I'm fuvking ecstatic mate 'all right' doesn't even come close;)
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I had a couple of pills, on Saturday night, and was asked if I was alright, by the organiser. I'd just done a few hours' work for her, putting on wristbands. I was in the foyer of the club, near the front door, bouncers everywhere, not many other people about. I was leaning against a wall, rubbing my back on the wall, chewing the ceiling and inspecting the inside of my eyelids. She was cool, though. She totally understood my state, as she's a psy-trance night organiser. I did see a girl unconscious, when I was hanging about, and she was stretchered out, after a bit. Was a bit weird watching that, when she had presumably taken what she thought was ecstasy, also. Couldn't help but look, but only in that non-scared way, which MDMA makes you feel. Pretty certain she's still alive. Was the first time in seven years that they've had someone carted out, by the ambulance crew. Had a pretty amazing weekend, actually. I'm getting a couple of tattoos done for nothing, as my mate (who went to the same event, and I ended up back at his) is a tattoo artist. Even met a girl, but she's suddenly now seeing someone (so, she doesn't like me, or my baggage). Fuck it, my baggage makes me way happier than anyone else could.

Hope you all had a good weekend. I don't understand how people keep up with all the threads. This one takes all my time to read.
 
Evenin', all :)

Managed to doze off watching a truly terrible film wth Christian Bale and some dragons on iPlayer earlier. Another night waking up at 12:30 convinced it's nearly tomorrow when it clearly nearly isn't. Sleeping pattern is totally screwed of late :!

Did have the most vivid, detailed and intense nightmare I've had since being a nipper though. Woke up at the point I'd just legged it (only to find meself trapped of course) from a roomful of folk I've known over the years (was some EADDers involved too 8o) who'd just tied up and drowned one of me lil brothers inna bucket and were about to mince me in stages in a converted toilet cum mincing machine. All because I appear to have far too lavish a lifestyle for somebody on the sick. Anxiety dream anyone? Blimey. Considering suing the social for exacerbating me anxiety with all their recent shenanigans now :D

Also, on the "fucked terms" question, I like a variety but often end up sticking with the simple, elegant and classic "wasted". Was also rather taken by "baffled" specifically in relation to ket - as picked up from a fine EADD bod whilst taking ketamine with a few other fine EADD bods, oddly enough. "Klarted" was a fave for many years but has fallen out of use recently cos nobody else uses it.
 
I've been having a lot of nasty anxiety dreams lately too, Sham. Most of them involve either surprise A-Level exams ('you mean, I haven't finished school yet, and my exam's this afternoon?' (and I'm naked!?)), or putting in my retainers for the first time in 7 years and feeling them rip through my teeth.

The worst recent one was braces-related...I dreamt that my mouth was fully rigged up with metal, and my dad was holding an industrial magnet on the other side of the room. The metal in my braces bent backwards under the strength of the magnetism into my gums, into my teeth, and out the back of em, while I clung on to the doorframe to stop myself flying backwards into the magnet. It all came to a head, I lost my grip, my braces ripped out the back of my throat and I went flying across the room into the magnet...And woke up.

Fucking horrible incarnation of anxiety.

Dreams of home, including that one, always take place in my old home in Bedford, which I lived in from the ages of 7-14...Man I miss that place :(
 
Horrible things indeed, Albi. Not had owt like that since childhood really, Maybe one or two at times of extreme stress. Didn't really think I was that stressed about the financials and related hoop-jumping but probably am. If it's got to "Intervention WIv Mincer" stage it's likely to be anixiety methinks 8)

Braces/magnet dream is so much like a scene from a cartoon it's almost funny. Bet it bloody wasn't at the time though. Horrid screams of anguish from a tormented suibconscious :\
 
It's a really cliche concept: Braces -> Magnet -> Tragedy :D

But it fucking hurt like the real thing...Plus all that metal on teeth makes me cringe. I get anxiety dreams pretty much every night these days...I don't feel especially anxious when I'm awake but obviously there's something that's unsettling me. Exams and/or braces probs mean some coming-of-age metaphor if you were to ask a fortune teller.

In other news...Meeting up with our beloved Jancrow later today <3 Stealing his old synth :sus: Can't wait!
 
Sounds about right to me that lil analysis, Albi. Although dream analysis has gone outta fashion now it seems. Psychogists/psychiatrists seem to mostly be of the opinion that there is no real symbollism in dream imagery - it's just gibberish stuff 'n' nonsense. I tend to disagree - the metaphors and images are pretty damn obvious much of the time. Braces (youth) magnets (inexorable pull to childhood's end) ("intervention") "everybody thinks..." (toilet mincer) subhuman piece of shit (blah) blah (etc) etc.

Also, pain in dreams is odd. Really does hurt. Same as emotions - you really do feel them intensely. More intensely than when awake much of the time I find. Bleedin' brain showing off it can still make reality for ya even when it's half-asleep 8)
 
Nah, dreams definitely have meaning. I just don't think the meanings are quite as metaphysical as ye olde dreamreading journals make them out to be, since when you're dreaming of being sat in a London Underground train carriage, looking out the window and you're watching the builders lay the track one sleeper at a time in front of you, it doesn't take a genius to see what's going through your mind :sus:

(Twas dream I had last night.)


I completely agree with you about the pain in dreams too...Kinda why I love the whole notion of dreaming. It's such an awesome, mysterious and outright psychedelic satirical play on everything we understand about our lives and the universe we inhabit. I really love how the laws of nature have dictated dreaming to be necessary...How did that one pop out of evolution?
 
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I had my first ever baby dream last night 8o never thought that would happen, its freaked me right out.

My friend had just announced (in real life) that she was going to get pregnant this summer by her gay friend and a turkey baster. I asked if she was going to be one of those deliberately single mums deliberately on benefits and she got all defensive. Then we discussed the moral angle and I got all serious and told her she & the bloke need to discuss everything like what if one of them wants to emigrate or move to the other end of the country. She doesn't think its necessary as she's known him a year and trusts him :|

I did the right thing in the end, after busting her balls for a while I told her the most important thing was the baby was loved and wanted, knew who its dad was, and I'd support her all the way. Bonkers & selfish imo, but I didn't say that and never will.
 
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