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How Are You in One Word Vs Happiness; Only Real When Shared =D

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Good.

I'm usually in bed w/ding and never really leave the house, but today I actually went out and was productive. Such a relief to not feel depressed, even if it's temporary.
 
Ashamed. I was too anxious to go to the Active Minds meeting because I was scared that even though they try to fight the stigma of mental illness they would judge me. :\
 
excited!
I'm driving my ex.home from school (about an hour long drive). she's a wonderful woman and never broke my heart. possible friendship hopefully. maybe more i hope :)
 
crying.... my charlie looks at me with his eyes and i know he is thinking daddy please help me. i say i wish i could help and he lets out his little meow and it just cuts me .. it just cuts me... and i start crying.. i dont know if i can do this anymore.....
 
Loved
First of all my hormonal girlfriend has been working on treating me better... today she is so pleasant i feel like i have my best friend back.

Second, we've met a nice married couple who have been helping us with our relationship. They are unbiased on both sides and just genuine people.

I'm expecting a child, they have 2 boys age 4 and 5.
The younger one whom never speaks to anyone and is normally shy is very outgoing towards me... Him and his older brother told me they loved me today. This is maybe the 10th time I've seen them. I almost cried lol.
Kids gravitate towards me, they feel safe with me, and for good reason.
But above all besides how adoreable it was and how honored I am it gives me validation that I will be a decent father.

Man what a day :D
 
Tired and sober, let's give this a shot again. Would be angry if not so tired, I don't have the energy anymore.

Dad has been here sobering up, which I would hate normally but I am so tired I don't care, just hope he tries not to break anymore stuff I do not want to scoop upp another package of eggs from the floor then I will get mad. I find it amusing him yelling at me for doing drugs yet he is no better. Well fuck it, I dont care about all the problems now I just want some rest and to be left alone by the world.
 
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Deflated.

I've been stupid- messed up my taper last night badly, and feeling it now.
 
Happy.

There are only 9 days left until I start my semester abroad and AFAIK I have organised everything necessary PLUS I had a mad shopping run yesterday with some respectable bargains. Weather is fine today, sun & snow, and I didn't do any drugs for a week without even thinking about them. 2 cans of beer don't count ;)
 
snowboarder7791 said:
crying.... my charlie looks at me with his eyes and i know he is thinking daddy please help me. i say i wish i could help and he lets out his little meow and it just cuts me .. it just cuts me... and i start crying.. i dont know if i can do this anymore.....
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This breaks my heart. :( ((((huuuuuuuge hugs)))) <3 <3 <3
 
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