how many mg's of etizolam should I take if my usual daily benzo intake is ~15mg xanax/300mg diazepam (the conversions are taken from according to Ashton manual)?
if i take 45mg of midazolam (3x flormidal) and go to bed, i can go to sleep. however sometimes it doesnt work and i get up and then i find myself 2-3hrs later in the most painful position possible with my armchair's arm buried into my ribs. its getting really fucking old and painful. the pain stays for a few days so if i even manage to go to sleep in a bed, i still feel a bit of pain when i turn sides.
at least when i used 3-methylfentanyl and benzos, i would ALWAYS wake up with my head buried into my computer table. sometimes i would "score" and get sleep on all the 3-mf i had put on out on the mirror to smoke but i fell asleep during that activity, go figure..
there were times when i hadnt slept in my bed for 3 weeks or something. only my shitty chair with wheels (typical cheap office type chair, y'know..). i dont know why the fuck i didnt just take a nice handful of 3-mf on a foil TO MY BED with me. that way i could fall asleep whenever i wanted to because the first hit would burn all that white powder nicely into the foil so if i did fall out 1-2min after that first hit, i could just wake up 3 hours later and continue smoking because there was tons of it there on foil there still but now it was nice and "locked" to it so i wouldnt have to worry that my cat would come and lick it or i would sleep on the powder or whatever. i took 37.5mg of lorazepam and that didnt do shit for me but i think when you have a tolerance you lose all feeling for the "light" benzos like lorazepam or bromazepam, well they are "light" for ME. not saying its for everyone but i think you other benzo guyse somewhat tend to agree. i took 6mg x 20 of bromazepam (Lexotan, Roche) within about 90-100 minutes period, 15 at once and then 5 about 25-35 mins later and i must say it did not put me to sleep nor did it make me do "dudes-on-way-too-many-benzos" things since i had a few sober friends with me the whole time, one of whom practically lives with me.
what a stupid druggie i was. but, on the other hand, i did want to find out if there is any hope for me regarding lora/broma-zepam and i found out the answer to be negative. these "tests" happened within 21+ days from each other so i didnt do 120mg of brom on tues 11:00 and 37.5mg lorazepa wednesday 11:00. there was about a month or a little less in between these tests. about the fentanyl - i dont use 3-methylfentanyl anymore, i'm on methadone. the ironic thing is i used it for 2.5 years daily with 0 days going without (im from Europe and 3-mf is the only opiate we have and we have it always and its always the same soo...its nice if you look it like THAT but othewise it SUCKS because i would so like to try the euphoria and goodness/godness of heroin, i would smoke some at first and then let someone IV me if there is someone around who is knowledgeable and is able to find veins on me. in hospitals or just at the doctors, it usually takes 2-4 tries depending on the nurse to find veins on my arms and thats NOT from shooting up. im just veinless. too little sport when growing up is what ive been suggested by the doctors. others say its utter bullshit and people who have been in wheelchairs since age 3 have hand veins the size of a fucking bull on them so it just goes from person to person, i guess.
now that the offtopic is over and done with (thank you ethylphenidate, its a great rc buut, yeah, an amp is an amp is an amp
how much etizolam 2mg tablets/pills would You take to for sleep if You had this tolerance (~15mg xanax/day)?
thank You in advance and if a mod feels this post should be deleted due to the massive OT then i understand, apologize, and will make a new one without any offtopic and just the question how many etizolam would be fine for a good few hours sleep (i dont even hope for any more..) and one sentence about my tolerance.
thank You in advance for all Your advice and information
