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2 months without logging onto bluelight starting monday for charity

5 minutes left and he will have missed a day, doubt he's given up so soon yet so or technical problems or option B.
 
Why is this still on page 1?

I know I'm not helping by posting, but doesn't everyone else find his constant attention seeking boring?

The last 10 times I spoke to him, he's tried to sell me meph, then moaned about being mentally ill and whinged about the entities for a while. "The drug use is just a symptom of my mental illness". I stood beside this guy for a long time, but that was when he was a well meaning fuck up. I was in love with that well meaning fuck up - but there's no one there that I care about anymore. You guys have all tried so hard to give him good advice, and he's just thrown it in your faces. Yes it has a gross fascination, but even that gets dull when he refuses to take responsibility for himself and his actions.

Good riddance. I hope he doesn't come back until he has learned to behave like a person instead of an irresponsible little shite who pisses his chaos all over everyone he meets.
 
fully agreed with everything you said. he pissed me right off to be honest. wouldnt take any advise. very self centered and split personality sounding, and child like
 
Why is this still on page 1?

I know I'm not helping by posting, but doesn't everyone else find his constant attention seeking boring?

The last 10 times I spoke to him, he's tried to sell me meph, then moaned about being mentally ill and whinged about the entities for a while. "The drug use is just a symptom of my mental illness". I stood beside this guy for a long time, but that was when he was a well meaning fuck up. I was in love with that well meaning fuck up - but there's no one there that I care about anymore. You guys have all tried so hard to give him good advice, and he's just thrown it in your faces. Yes it has a gross fascination, but even that gets dull when he refuses to take responsibility for himself and his actions.

Good riddance. I hope he doesn't come back until he has learned to behave like a person instead of an irresponsible little shite who pisses his chaos all over everyone he meets.

^I've been where i think he is atm, though w/o the whining etc. You even sound like a bit like me ex, who i split up with because i kinda subconsciously knew i was gonna od in the near future and wanted to save her the pain. It tore her apart.. This was a while back though, as is thrown around alot maybe he'l reach his rock bottom, and climb himself out like i'm doing/trying my best, and i'm doing pretty sound now. Just hope his rock bottom doesnt involve death, even my first dead for 8 minutes shit didnt teach me a lesson, wasnt until complete psychosis, liver & kidney faliure that finally convinced me that i wasnt doing great. I'd be another dead durggie if it wasnt for really lucky circumstances. <3 to you mugz i hope you're doing okay, but i know where you're coming from angel, exactly where you're coming from about it being too much and not anyones responsibility but his own. Blah semi drunken ramble but yeah

i also agree though let this thread die mebbe he'l be back in 2 months and sorted himself out :)
 
Alreight yer on, but if hes already fighting imaginary monsters i want a better cut
 
I think you guys are a bit harsh. I was in the same situation as him, needed a good kick up my arse to get my shit together, hell will probably end up in similar situations again, some people get enough support or motivation in the real world, others have to turn to the internet. Also about not listening to advice, it's not that easy really, I too have self-destructive tendencies, I always seem to be doing the worst possible things for my life, it's not straightforward to change and improve.
 
and climb himself out like i'm doing/trying my best, and i'm doing pretty sound now.

That's it really though, isn't it? We're all trying our best, and a lot of us have been through some pretty dark shit to get to "pretty sound". The best is all you can ask - and I think Mugz doesn't try, he just wallows and waits for _something_ to happen to make him try. I don't know what that something might be. I do think that under it all, he has a great heart and is a lovely guy -- but "it all" has overwhelmed the good stuff.

I'm in favour of "raid n close"!!! I'm trying to be sober now, so I guess I don't get a cut of the loot. Maybe a little cut for future days? :)
 
@ kenny Very true, thing is advice rarely works from peers, esp when reaching out online. What form and how deep dya reckon the kick up the arse needs to be though? Sounds like hes got a good family which will definiteely help, but shit hes gotta want to stop this crazyness or no amount of words or support will make a jot of difference, and ime and a alot of other exp, its usually a really bad event that makes people think about real change
 
MK - good for you for still seeing it that way. I just ran out of patience.

Marmz -- Knock's cock is neither here nor there!
 
That's it really though, isn't it? We're all trying our best, and a lot of us have been through some pretty dark shit to get to "pretty sound". The best is all you can ask - and I think Mugz doesn't try, he just wallows and waits for _something_ to happen to make him try. I don't know what that something might be. I do think that under it all, he has a great heart and is a lovely guy -- but "it all" has overwhelmed the good stuff.

I'm in favour of "raid n close"!!! I'm trying to be sober now, so I guess I don't get a cut of the loot. Maybe a little cut for future days? :)

Yeah but thats what i did kinda, wallow binge and jab myself with owt that dissolves without even knowing how to shoot properly and the _something_ that happened was liver & kidney faliure after being technically dead for the 2nd time, i'm damn lucky to still be here. He said in a PM that he was considering speaking to the crisis team and going in as a voluntry patient to a psych ward, i hope to god he meant that because that could do him the world of good, but you obviously know him better than me. Still, the drugs and binges cover up the nice person inside if he is one, like i say i dont know him well, but if he sorts his shit out he'l still be that decent guy.

Anyways you're right, this thread should be closed im sure he doesnt want us all talking about him when hes trying to take a break from bl (and 99% likely lurking), but if we do a little raid you can have 5% of mine if you convice him the monster arnt real :)
 
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