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Did you make it through opiate withdrawals? or did you cave?

baerr

baerr

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I am currently deciding to get clean from Heroin. its been day one, and so far of course i feel like im dying. I guess id like to know how many of you have made it though opiate withdrawal, without having to run to another drug. This is my time actually trying to get clean. I used to use other drugs while i was coming off heroin. Mainly i would substitute with meth. However now im just trying to find a clean road for the time being.
 
I've made it completely through heroin withdrawls with short to long term success a good 5 or 6 times.
The time being is a good way to put it; but damn its nice not to wake up sick. Be able to look in the mirror and have some fucking pride. The utter stupidity of it makes me sad I wasted so many years.
Substitution is playing with fire. I have cocaine connects within a stones throw but I'm content right now. I don't need a new habit, and coke and uppers lead to depression which leads me to miss the false warmth I thought heroin would give me.

But getting clean is the easy part homie. Straight up. Staying clean is the hard part. You need people in your life who don't get high. People to talk to when that urge and temptation of dope comes knocking. Think about the program if you never have. It works for some.
 
I got clean off various opiates CT without other drugs but you might want to consider things like subuxone or methadone maintenance. I heard they can really make a massive difference and if you feel like you're about to give in otherwise, definitely worth a shot.
Good luck! I'm sure you can do it. Just focus on how proud of yourself you'll be once you get through this.
 
yeah it is tough, if it wasnt everyone would use and stop if and when they felt like it.

i made it through W/D's multiple times. Every time makes you a better person and more insightful of what you dont want. After the third or fourth time you go...shit..how many more of those can i take before i cant take it anymore?

respect on your choice though, finally coming to clean up is a hard choice. And sine's right..getting clean is a breeze compared to managing the rest of your life sober, but it can be done.

good luck
 
how long have you been using, and at what kind of dose?
Like other people said, you can force yourself through the withdrawal and get clean,
but the real problem starts with staying clean. You need a plan.
 
Don't give up. You can beat it without using any other drugs. Five years ago I kicked a nine year habit and I did it without turning to any other drug. It sucks but trust me it will get better.
 
I had a massive habit and made it through ok. Almost four months now, with the help of suboxone. I was 400-500mg oxy a day for over 18 months. Peaked at about 700-800mg a day in July 2012 mixing oxycodone and oxymorphone. Basically popping pills all day every day.

Listen, if I can do it anyone can. My dealer hasn't recovered yet. My getting cleaning was his own personal 2008 financial crisis.
 
Thanks for all of the encouragement guys, I'm just tired of being sick everytime i cant find some. Or just completely flat broke. I couldnt sleep for shit lastnight, i honestly dont remember if i fell asleep or not. Ive tried suboxone before when i decided to kick H and let me tell you what suboxone w/d isnt fun either.
And i was using probably about half gram a day.
 
get some loperamide for now and taper that afterwards; don't know if it'll even touch a half gram habit but it's better than nothing. Don't go on sub or methadone, may well stay on herion if that's the case. Good luck man
 
Cold turkey. My parents took my car away for a month because they've found out about my heroin usage and I haven't paid for my car in 2 months once my usage gotten real bad. If I couldn't get my fix, I would inject Roxicodones or Demerols. If it's dry everywhere, I would only have lortabs. I would eat 50mg just to relieve some withdrawals, but that was all I can afford, and it's quite expensive. I had to work with horrible pain and anxiety with no sleep for a week and a half once my parents found out. Then my psychological dependency came, so I started drinking heavily. Then after 3 months of heavy drinking, I felt that I needed to stop drinking, then I eventually got better though strength and will power, several months later, I've started doing meth. Now it's another demon I'm trying to battle, but I know I have the strength to stop and I'm never going to regret or be let down from my drug abuse.

Heroin addiction and alcoholism was my last battle.
Meth is my current battle.

My advice is, not to replace addiction with another one. That was my mistake.

Everyday is a battle, but strength will win the war. I know it's cliche, but the human body is vulnerable and you can easily be killed, yet the human body can do extraordinary and very powerful things.
 
I feel that we have very similar stories and overcomes. When i couldn't get heroin or didn't have enough money for a single point i would go for meth or alcohol. Defiantly not something you want to resort to because really you are trading a habit or another. And of course soon enough i developed habits for the other drugs and became one fucked up mess. I really should have died while i would use all at once. But i believe something makes us lucky and we make it see another day. Hearing all of your stories makes me want to see another day while making it through H recovery once again. At least i know im not alone and i wont be fighting nighttime demonds by myself.
 
I caved.

I tried, but I don't think I'm ready to get off of it yet. I believe everything happening for a reason, and I believe that one day ill find the reason as to why I went through/am going through this.
 
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