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Mugz
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Sorted out a local counsellor for free, could hopefully be moving out and into a house down in portsmouth proper near my friends in a house with people that accept drug use so recreational use wouldn't have to be hidden, things are looking up, he'll take DSS for the room too if I go on housing beneifit. so I reckon things are looking up. Still feel like total shit though. Could do with some meph but have none, just alcohol and benzos at hand tonight.
No, I am not into extreme sports, I like to push myself but not too far. I don't have a death wish.
pushing the buttons on those remote controls can be bad enough mind!
I was under the impression Mugz that you left Cambridge to try and stop doing all these drugs and sessions that last for days.
Doesn't sound like the house you are planning on moving into will help you stay away from the drugs at all, just give you some friends to do them with.
Surely you may as well have just stayed in Cambridge?
parttime crackhead
Bluelighter
Better off doing drugs with friends than doing them on your own in a wee room, no?
Freedom
Oh well mate, there is nothing better than being a free man. Come and go when u like, answer to no one.
It doesn't get any better than that, make the most of it mate and enjoy yourself to the maximum.
split up with the mrs this week so free and single again and tbh i'm fucking lovin it! back to the old me again and i'm gonna go even more wild this time around! been sooo long since i had a good sesh or even benn raving
Oh well mate, there is nothing better than being a free man. Come and go when u like, answer to no one.
It doesn't get any better than that, make the most of it mate and enjoy yourself to the maximum.
In some ways yes but it can also lead to taking even more drugs than he was before by himself.
That amount of drugs fucked him up so more certainly won't help him and having company won't stop the damage that is done.
Dread calm
Bluelighter
Quick question... Does grapefruit have the same effect on etizolam as it does Diaz and various opiates??
Don't know about whether it's better to do drugs alone or in company - I guess it depends on the drug and the people involved. But I would say that, given my repugnant peronality and consequent lack of friends.
What I can say is that little beats the thrill of going to the toilet cubicle at work, lubing yourself up and squirting a cocktail of amphetamine and buprenorphine up your bottom. Then emerging from said cubicle leaving it smelling of cocoa butter Vaseline Lip Therapy (I have several, but only use the brown one for covert plugging. Huh-huh...) and a small victory against The Man.
But I went straight back to my desk, because without that desk I wouldn't have the money to do such stupid stuff. Nor would I have the money to sit in a creepy, dusty room typing out this shit. That desk is symbolic of one of the few things that ties me to mainstream society.
In a way that sounds like a terribly conformist thing to say. My old self would call me a sell-out, or some other such insult that nonconformist youths like to mutter. Yet beside the money, it means I interact on a daily basis with people whose values, perception and worldview are completely different from mine.
Some of the stuff they go on about is fucking boring, don't get me wrong. And of course, many of them don't touch drugs yet seemingly have very little grip on consensus reality. Yet being around them has helped me understand different perspectives and possibly view the way I use drugs (not my drug use as such, because most of them are clueless) from an angle I wouldn't have conceived of had I been surrounded with druggies or by myself all the time.
Not that being exclusively with druggies or being alone are necessarily bad, just that it's good to mix it up a bit.
Mugz, you're an intelligent bloke (though you're also a silly one) and you ave a chance to turn your life around. Please find some inner strength somehow, because playing the role you're playing gets you nowhere.
Want to spend your thirties in a dusty, creepy room talking on an internet forum about drugs, obscure music, esoteric religion and people who sucked your cock seven years ago? Thought not. It's pretty shite, let me tell you.
Now take charge of yourself.
What I can say is that little beats the thrill of going to the toilet cubicle at work, lubing yourself up and squirting a cocktail of amphetamine and buprenorphine up your bottom. Then emerging from said cubicle leaving it smelling of cocoa butter Vaseline Lip Therapy (I have several, but only use the brown one for covert plugging. Huh-huh...) and a small victory against The Man.
But I went straight back to my desk, because without that desk I wouldn't have the money to do such stupid stuff. Nor would I have the money to sit in a creepy, dusty room typing out this shit. That desk is symbolic of one of the few things that ties me to mainstream society.
In a way that sounds like a terribly conformist thing to say. My old self would call me a sell-out, or some other such insult that nonconformist youths like to mutter. Yet beside the money, it means I interact on a daily basis with people whose values, perception and worldview are completely different from mine.
Some of the stuff they go on about is fucking boring, don't get me wrong. And of course, many of them don't touch drugs yet seemingly have very little grip on consensus reality. Yet being around them has helped me understand different perspectives and possibly view the way I use drugs (not my drug use as such, because most of them are clueless) from an angle I wouldn't have conceived of had I been surrounded with druggies or by myself all the time.
Not that being exclusively with druggies or being alone are necessarily bad, just that it's good to mix it up a bit.
Mugz, you're an intelligent bloke (though you're also a silly one) and you ave a chance to turn your life around. Please find some inner strength somehow, because playing the role you're playing gets you nowhere.
Want to spend your thirties in a dusty, creepy room talking on an internet forum about drugs, obscure music, esoteric religion and people who sucked your cock seven years ago? Thought not. It's pretty shite, let me tell you.
Now take charge of yourself.
Mental Kenny
Bluelighter
I was feeling pretty hardcore for doing key bumps of pv at my desk now I see I'm just a noob, plugging work, class, I'm loving it
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Dread calm
Bluelighter
Off topic but I took 6 etiz last night and felt lovely, chilled and warm and fuzzy. Tonight I drop 12, and nothing!!!! All from the same batch, what's that all about? Fucking rubbish!!!! Pissed off. Got no other benzos to mong me either, so I'm going to fucking bed. May have a couple of wanks while I'm there.
Kronos
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meth and the benzos tonight, hada few spliffs of hash n thai which are lovely, feels like weds meant to in my book, just had a fair bit of glug and looking forward to a good gouch! bit hit n miss with meth tolerance though
And i notice day on day tolerance of benzos is pretty high aswel, better to take some and leave it a while to retain the relaxing euphoric effect felt
And i notice day on day tolerance of benzos is pretty high aswel, better to take some and leave it a while to retain the relaxing euphoric effect felt
Cornishman
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Just got in from a nice lil s ket sesh followed by a visit to an old friend.
Need to get head down early'ish tonight. Ready for another day with my new un-psychotic woman.
How the devil is everyone tonight?
(probably all out getting fucked).
EDIT: Just a quick post in remembrance to all of those lives lost during 9/11 all those years ago.
Need to get head down early'ish tonight. Ready for another day with my new un-psychotic woman.
How the devil is everyone tonight?
(probably all out getting fucked).
EDIT: Just a quick post in remembrance to all of those lives lost during 9/11 all those years ago.