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thediamondflush

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My ex broke up with me recently... and the images of her fucking this new guy drive me to want to feel numb. I got 90 5-500's 5 days ago.. ive already taken 45 of them. Sometimes CWE sometimes just popping. If I finish this bottle.. will I suffer withdrawls?
 
It is entirely possible that you may suffer some withdraw symptoms.
After using that much, you could also find yourself quickly developing a psychological addiction.
Don't beat yourself up about this girl.. There are easier ways to overcome this than by damaging yourself <3
 
If you fear withdrawal u already no it's a nono, ur gonna hurt for awhile, dont dive in to destruction, ride out the pain.surley their we're things u didn't like about her, dwell on those & no they somebody else problem now, it happens to all of us.
This to shall pass, -)
 
Also it sounds simplistic but drink plenty of fluids preferably water because you aint been CWEing some of them sort of clear your system out bruvva!!!!
 
man girls suck dude. sorry about that, im going thorugh something similar now haha.

still fighting the cravings to do what your doing..its tough, but its possible man. it is possible.

Keep your head up, drink a few beers with your buddys and celebrate. single and ready to mingle...go hit the bar a fuck a random bitch. Do everything you couldnt do when you were with her, use it to an advantage... damn shes gone now i can do this, or that. Just dont turn to drugs, once you use it to mask one problem, it seems like a way to mask all problems. dont let it turn into that.

Be tough, you can do it brother :)
 
Thanks guys that all actually meant alot. Im so fucked up from her doing this to me. I finished up the bottle I just CWE'd the last 8. So im done with them for a while... ill stick to pot. But the images... I cant explain them.. its like I start getting horny and I start thinking about her, and then I start thinking about him fuckking her and putting his fuckin dick in her mouth ... UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH and i obsess over it. Ive tried fucking a random bitch and I ended up kicking her out cause I felt disgusting.. like I was doing something wrong.. I wanted it to be her so bad. But it wasnt. Im pathetic.... ugh. 27 years old.. you would think I wouldn't get hurt like this anymore. fucking girls...
 
hey man; i really hope you're doing ok. you're not pathetic, that kinda shit could easily traumatize anyone, regardless of age. stay with us awhile :)
 
It is absolutely traumatizing when you trust someone and they fuck you over like it's nothing. Slow down on the pills because you're avoiding the inevitable grieving process and just masking the pain. It's happened to me as well and tried getting with other people. It numbed the emotions for a short while but the thoughts don't go away so easily. Images of her with him made me sick literally and drinking myself into oblivion didn't help either.

It's been since April and every now and again he will call when he needs something or lonely. I broke down and called him yesterday to wish him a happy birthday. He was in hospital again having gotten another toe amputated from his out of control diabetic infective illness. I wanted to feel sorry for him but didn't and sort of glad we're not together anymore. But sometimes still miss him. :(
 
motherofearth said:
You are at the least setting yourself up for a psychological addiction and depriving yourself an opportunity to mature through a challenging life crisis.
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this. if you cannot handle a crisis like this in your life, imagine when something comes down the line that is MUCH MUCH MUCH more severe than this.

Im not trying to be mean or rude, just telling you the honest truth . Be strong, get through this, do things productive, clean your house, do your homework, get a good job, work out and push through the weights to relieve your stress.

And i know, much EASIER SAID, than DONE. But like nike man, JUST DO IT!
 
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