ok well first of all i messed up by stealing from her to support my habit, BUT she said she waas lettin it go and wanted to help me , even went with me to the hood when i copped and with my best friend, she acted like she was cool with it all , then snitched on my boy by calling his landlord and tellin him that my friend is using with me . So now i lost my best friend, then my mom starts taking my xanax every day while she is drinking, (she is a alcoholic who just relapsed after 5 years) we both live with my 90 y.o Grandmom , her mom, who is going senile and my mom treats her like crap and even hits her , a weak old lady ! . So ............................if anything i may have pushed my mom away to protect her from scratching the shit out of me , and throwing coffe mugs at my head. but cops shoulda locked her up , she was just do drunk she flipped it on me b/c she was mad that she gave in earlier that day and came with me to buy me crack and dope the day after i tried suboxone but said f it , i was still sic.....................anyway some of you guys are really harsh here. i know i got a bad drug problem ,and i was wrong for stealing but i think its pretty f'd up that she loves me so much (dropped restraining order next day after i got picked up) she even just put down 1500 to get me a lawyer for my posession charges. so its nuts . anyway . i gotta go get sleep. hoping to get into detox asap ,