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Well as ive been up all night on pentedrone im not going to be doing too much. Certainly wont be doing much cooking as still not hungry. I think i last ate around 5pm on Friday. Yep i live on my own. I like it that way. Though it has obvious positives and negatives....

The worst thing about my washing up is that there's so much of it that ive had to move a load of it out of the kitchen and dump it in a spare room. I've literally not done any for at least 4 weeks. Been too busy bingeing, or grinding down bleedin poppy pods lol. Been buying a lot of paper plates and plastic forks recently lol.

I'd better not reveal too many more details just yet as you might start pitying me or something even worse lol.

The weirdest thing of all is that i actually get some kind of enjoyment and satisfaction out of washing up. Once i get started on it that is......
 
MDB you should talk to your GP about that etiz situation, it's practically a benzo so the Dr will know about it and can help with the need for it and stuff, it's not uncommon to get them prescribed ;)
 
I quite like washing up. Not washing up for four weeks doesn'tseem like someone who gets enjoyment and satisfaction from the job?

Not sure what we doing today, gonna wake the missis up in half hour or so, got a roast beef dinner to cook today, with all the chard, beans and beetroot we picked yesterday....lots of good colours to get us healthy...

Son got taekwondo this evening, but wife takes him to his weekend classes, so she's gonna have to forgo an afternoon drinky, I think I'm gonna be getting on the cider.....is a sunny day, might take them both down the pub by the river.....
 
Mugz said:
MDB you should talk to your GP about that etiz situation, it's practically a benzo so the Dr will know about it and can help with the need for it and stuff, it's not uncommon to get them prescribed ;)
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LOL. sorry mate, but i have to laugh. I was referered to one of the doctors at a big inner city practice who had a special interest in patients with 'substance misuse' problems. She had not heard of Etizolam or any of the other things I take either . "How do you spell Etizolam? " She didnt have a clue about poppy pods either, not the faintest idea what they were (though to be fair i spose unless i regularly read drug forums i wouldnt know about them either). I think she was trying to work out what they contained and what equivalent i could have been given. How i kicked myself afterwards for being too slow witted to inform her that they typically contain up to 20 % of morphine + several other opiates. She may have given me a big morphine script, who knows ? Probably would have been given bupe or methadone though most likely. They sound like the worst of all opis to come off so i wouldnt want to go near them anyway.

Anyway, because she didnt know anything about these substances, Etizolam wasnt even in her reference book FFS, she asked me to leave it with her for a few days whilst she consulted colleagues. She did ring me back to tell me she'd refered me to another dr who would be contacting me by letter. That was over a month ago, havent heard a thing. I know I should chase it up. But part of me wants to 'do it on my own'. I like to be independant in ways like that.
 
Mailmonkey said:
I quite like washing up. Not washing up for four weeks doesn'tseem like someone who gets enjoyment and satisfaction from the job?.
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Yeah. Once i get started, and get close to completion, thats when i start to enjoy it a bit more lol.....

Right i must get off the fuckin net now, and go do something useful. Must have been sat here for a solid 30 hours now....8(
 
just had my brekkie, did a BLT with fried egg. think im going to do a leg of lamb for the dinner. need to do some shopping and get the young lad a hair cut.

weather not as nice hear today, cloudy and a bit colder than yesterday.
 
Sounds like a perfick plan for a sunny Sunday MM. I'm doing beef too. I've never thought of including beetroot in my roast.

mydrugbuddy said:
Well as ive been up all night on pentedrone im not going to be doing too much. Certainly wont be doing much cooking as still not hungry. I think i last ate around 5pm on Friday. Yep i live on my own. I like it that way. Though it has obvious positives and negatives....

The worst thing about my washing up is that there's so much of it that ive had to move a load of it out of the kitchen and dump it in a spare room. I've literally not done any for at least 4 weeks. Been too busy bingeing, or grinding down bleedin poppy pods lol. Been buying a lot of paper plates and plastic forks recently lol.

I'd better not reveal too many more details just yet as you might start pitying me or something even worse lol.

The weirdest thing of all is that i actually get some kind of enjoyment and satisfaction out of washing up. Once i get started on it that is......
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I got my own place when I was 19 too MDB. I had the time of my life.

I wouldn't be pitying you mate.. you've got your battles to fight and win. You'll get the uppers/downers habit in order.. it might hurt a bit for a while though. Fortunately, there are plenty of supplements you can take to ease the withdrawal. ATM seems to be the authority on them here.
Perhaps it might be a good idea to take some holiday time while you're getting off them MDB.
 
YellowPolkaDotHalo said:
Sounds like a perfick plan for a sunny Sunday MM. I'm doing beef too. I've never thought of including beetroot in my roast.
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Goes really well with roast beef particularly, we had to pick a whole row yesterday, only got a couple more rows to harvest before winter....so i'll boil a few to go with dinner today,and make a borscz with the rest.....
 
matt<3ketamine said:
i want to curl up and die
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Why? ........

matt<3ketamine said:
on other news ive found someone new i like, another prospect that is looking up, ive finally someone i can properly talk to without feeling judged

hi, im matty, ive a small time addiction to oxycodone and cannabis, im an open bi-sexual, i work a shitty saturday cafe job and im at the end of my tether, im 19, fuckin hate this
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Sounds good you've met someone who takes you as you are, you don't need pretenders as friends.....Okay, so a few people now might "know" you have some degree of a problem with oxy....play it down, if anyone asks, tell people the "friend" who outed you was just being malicious, and yes, you do use drugs, but not on the scale they've been led to believe.


You're openly bi-sexual, a lot of 19 year olds are a confused mess sexually, you seem to have yourself sussed, for the time being ;) (I was openly bisexual for a few years in me 20's, but turned out I just had a rampant libido and would fuck anything I could) , but there's plenty of 19 year olds and older who spurn these feelings cos they feel they are "wrong".....

shitty saturday job, not good, but its a fucking job....

Curling up and dying seems like a bit of an overreaction....

I know none of this will help, but, you have enough support here and in your own intelligent head to taper the oxy out, I'm afraid i'm not going to offer any advice re: the cannabis, cos I think thats a normal part of daily life, from waking to sleep =D
 
Right I'm going to get dressed then aking the boy and the dog up on the moor to clear cobwebs and hopefully find some porcinis, our favourite spot starts producing some massive ones about this time of year....

Too early for libs, but we'll have a look once we out on the open ground...
 
my friends (one being a member of this site, i bet you can guess) are less friendly supportive and more aggressive 'supportive' they insulted my partner as he is the one who is making me feel comfortable being who i am, i felt i got verbally attacked the other night at a night we were all meant to go out and enjoy (although they would called talking it out with me) i had 3 friends speak to me, one actually was only saying we are saying this because we love you, i get that and am happy that person said that, i feel that person does understand i need to help, but the other 2, basically just attacked my usage and my partner who uses aswell heavily and ive been trying to help stop, he is tapering, i felt very put down by it and i think they done the opposite of what they thought they would achieve, letting me solve things for myself is the way i prefer to do things, its not like i plan on staying on oxy, ive missed it after a 9 month relationship went down the drain all of a sudden and i felt completely dead inside, yet again i didnt talk to anyone properly about it until it was too late, the oxy well it helped, now ive found someone who i can talk to and understands what im going through, he is going through worse and my two 'friends' are not doing him any favours, he has already attempted one stupid thing and i dont want it happening again because of someones views being cast as law, i just want us all to get along again, although i can never see that happening, curling up and dyin is an overreaction aye but i just feel like utter crap, i cant hack this anymore, why cant people just accept other and be so judgemental, like when a polydrug user turns round and selectively puts down a drug when they use much worse themselves!

/rant
 
Cracking fucking party last night. Really really good to see my best mate after so long, nothing kicked off, good times all round. Was worried cos we often fight when we're together and drinking, but time apart's made it nice. Feel alright today, got breakfast bought for me, grabbed all the leftover booze and then hitched a lift back to my parents house, where I am going to lay around in bed drinking beer and reading/watching films/whatevvvvver. Nice to be back in a massive fkin airy house, though I feel weird cos my house has high ceilings, so I feel really tall in here, it's bizarre.

Edit: Had a quality moment when I followed my best mate and our mutual friend into the bathroom cos I assumed they were doing speed or coke on the sly. Turns out they were literally just going for a piss, fuck knows why they go together. Don't wanna know.
 
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not hanging on a sunday for once. mildly groggy from the etiz and valium last night but feeling good compared to yesterday. weather is alright here, kinda wanna do something... but kinda cant be bothered. dont wanna remain sober today but work tomorrow... hmm
 
I can't actually believe what i'm reading in the Friday thread. Especially from mods. Mental.

(Written here because i'm not allowed to write anything off topic anywhere)
 
mydrugbuddy said:
The worst thing about my washing up is that there's so much of it that ive had to move a load of it out of the kitchen and dump it in a spare room. I've literally not done any for at least 4 weeks. Been too busy bingeing, or grinding down bleedin poppy pods lol. Been buying a lot of paper plates and plastic forks recently lol.

The weirdest thing of all is that i actually get some kind of enjoyment and satisfaction out of washing up. Once i get started on it that is......
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I enjoy washing up, and am lucky enough to share a flat with others who give the kitchen a quick clean every now and then, so it all ticks along nicely. If I hated washing up however, i'd probably sniff a fat line of speed, put the gloves on, some lovely techno in the background, and go nuts with the fairy liquid. I've seen that done once, by an ex of mine. She came over late to my friends house, and begged us for a wee line, as she'd been out all night. The next thing I knew, she was running around his flat with a mop.

It was like watching a cillit bang advert on fast forward.
 
Mr Smokes Blunts. said:
I can't actually believe what i'm reading in the Friday thread. Especially from mods. Mental.

(Written here because i'm not allowed to write anything off topic anywhere)
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Sup MSB...what are you alluding to...don't be shy now. you're amongst friends after all;)
 
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