ColtDan
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havent heard this for years http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yfgstJb5zSk
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missing old pills
Bluelighter
I never set out to walk the road I found myself on,
My young eyes stared to the heavens always drawn to a better place,
I've always felt the cards we're all dealt are one big con,
On the surface shiny and bright but underneath a completely different face.
Every step we take is full of wonder and hope,
But in my mind I struggle to cope,
I push further and further towards our clear goal,
But in my heart it feels heavy due to its hole.
Now come on Dave let's get it together they're counting on you,
This is your chance to make them all proud,
I advance with a swagger that shows I can do,
But secretly I just wish I could hide in the crowd.
Every step we take is full of wonder and hope,
But in my mind I struggle to cope,
I push further and further towards our clear goal,
But in my heart it feels heavy due to its hole.
No matter how clever I think I use my disguise,
The crowd sees through and initiates it's move,
I'm leftalone still staring at the skies,
While through my hard work people show they can prove.
Every step we take is full of wonder and hope,
But in my mind I struggle to cope,
I push further and further towards our clear goal,
But in my heart it feels heavy due to its hole.
Snakes and ladders is how I describe,
We feel we have choices but it's up to the dice,
No matter what number I throw I'm gonna slide,
While some lucky few climb up with their bigger slice.
Every step we take is full of wonder and hope,
But in my mind I struggle to cope,
I push further and further towards our clear goal,
But in my heart it feels heavy due to its hole.
The tipping point has finally showed its face,
The chess pieces in place for the final race,
The climax of the story we've worked hard to ascend,
Is all down to fate and the decisions we defend.
Every step I take is full of fear and dread,
But in my mind I feel I wish I was dead
I push further and further towards that place in the sky,
Because in my heart it feels easier to die.
Best of luck to the strategical game players who use other people's struggles as their strength.
Raise your hands to the heavens the rest who just want peace and a place not to fear.
I wrote this to my wife today. Hope you like it
My young eyes stared to the heavens always drawn to a better place,
I've always felt the cards we're all dealt are one big con,
On the surface shiny and bright but underneath a completely different face.
Every step we take is full of wonder and hope,
But in my mind I struggle to cope,
I push further and further towards our clear goal,
But in my heart it feels heavy due to its hole.
Now come on Dave let's get it together they're counting on you,
This is your chance to make them all proud,
I advance with a swagger that shows I can do,
But secretly I just wish I could hide in the crowd.
Every step we take is full of wonder and hope,
But in my mind I struggle to cope,
I push further and further towards our clear goal,
But in my heart it feels heavy due to its hole.
No matter how clever I think I use my disguise,
The crowd sees through and initiates it's move,
I'm leftalone still staring at the skies,
While through my hard work people show they can prove.
Every step we take is full of wonder and hope,
But in my mind I struggle to cope,
I push further and further towards our clear goal,
But in my heart it feels heavy due to its hole.
Snakes and ladders is how I describe,
We feel we have choices but it's up to the dice,
No matter what number I throw I'm gonna slide,
While some lucky few climb up with their bigger slice.
Every step we take is full of wonder and hope,
But in my mind I struggle to cope,
I push further and further towards our clear goal,
But in my heart it feels heavy due to its hole.
The tipping point has finally showed its face,
The chess pieces in place for the final race,
The climax of the story we've worked hard to ascend,
Is all down to fate and the decisions we defend.
Every step I take is full of fear and dread,
But in my mind I feel I wish I was dead
I push further and further towards that place in the sky,
Because in my heart it feels easier to die.
Best of luck to the strategical game players who use other people's struggles as their strength.
Raise your hands to the heavens the rest who just want peace and a place not to fear.
I wrote this to my wife today. Hope you like it
I owe you a PM Mops (and a few to some other peeps too .. ) ... haven't forgotten, just really busy atm. Will hopefully rectify the situation tonight 
Eh, so sorry to hear about this between you and your missus. Really hope that it's rectifiable in some way eventually. I know watson torment posted about his relationship/wife woes ages ago on here and was pretty convinced it was final, but many months later in TC he mentioned that they'd got back together ... so what seems final now wont necessarily be the same situation in a months time or whatever.
Hugs n stuff anyhow
Eh, so sorry to hear about this between you and your missus. Really hope that it's rectifiable in some way eventually. I know watson torment posted about his relationship/wife woes ages ago on here and was pretty convinced it was final, but many months later in TC he mentioned that they'd got back together ... so what seems final now wont necessarily be the same situation in a months time or whatever.
Hugs n stuff anyhow
missing old pills
Bluelighter
I owe you a PM Mops (and a few to some other peeps too .. ) ... haven't forgotten, just really busy atm. Will hopefully rectify the situation tonight
Eh, so sorry to hear about this between you and your missus. Really hope that it's rectifiable in some way eventually. I know watson torment posted about his relationship/wife woes ages ago on here and was pretty convinced it was final, but many months later in TC he mentioned that they'd got back together ... so what seems final now wont necessarily be the same situation in a months time or whatever.
Hugs n stuff anyhow
Ta marmz x
It's ended but even if there was a chance the fact I'm posting in here again will smack the final nail in.
I do hope no rozzers come in this layby coz I'm fucked out of my head!
Mailmonkey
Bluelighter
Really sorry to hear MOP 
You're obviously a good man and full of love, and pain. Hope things get better, however that comes about.
You're obviously a good man and full of love, and pain. Hope things get better, however that comes about.
Mailmonkey
Bluelighter
lol is that like the Schrodigers cat/quantum theory thing? Nice Spade, very nicely done
missing old pills
Bluelighter
Cheers mm.
Don't feel a good man mate. She demanded I made a choice.
I chose the right to make own mind up what I put in my body over her and the kids.
Feels fucking shit. Doesn't help that I'm twatted off my head but then that was my choice
Don't feel a good man mate. She demanded I made a choice.
I chose the right to make own mind up what I put in my body over her and the kids.
Feels fucking shit. Doesn't help that I'm twatted off my head but then that was my choice
Mailmonkey
Bluelighter
No, that doesn't sound like something a "good" man would choose, but it's not right to make someone choose like that.
You are a good bloke, or this wouldn't be tearing you up.
missing old pills
Bluelighter
I wouldn't let anything get in between my wife,kids and me but I have!
It's left me feeling I have a massive problem
Mr Smokes Blunts.
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After years of using drugs, why the ultimatum now?
Mailmonkey
Bluelighter
does your drug use interfere with your life? I remember you had a great week with your kids recently, you weren't using drugs while you were with them.
also wondering this, has your use become more problematic recently?
also wondering this, has your use become more problematic recently?
missing old pills
Bluelighter
It's all an almighty clusterfucking headwrecker that I can sum up in a single word.
Life
Life
eclipsedesign
Bluelighter
Really sorry to hear that MOP, maybe things will be viewed slightly differently when you're not completely wired, I hope the ultimatum from your wife doesn't interfere with you seeing your kids.
missing old pills
Bluelighter
She's told me to see them I'll have to have drug tests
Mailmonkey
Bluelighter
You don't use drugs when you're with your kids though do you MOP?
eclipsedesign
Bluelighter
I hope she can be adult enough about this and realise that you don't use drugs when you're with your kids (I presume you don't) and the issues that she has with you remain seperate from the children..
missing old pills
Bluelighter
If you do meth and have kids you can't escape a cross over
God I feel like shit
God I feel like shit
Albion
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If it's better to approach the issue from another angle, there's nothing to say you have a problem with drugs...It seems to be due to her uncompromising stance on your engaging in any drug related activities whatsoever (even posting great prose on bluelight with has no direct relation to drugs).
...I don't think you deserve to be in the situation you're in, you've been victimised...But it's happened nonetheless...
Hope you're able to land on your feet soon enough...Maybe time will heal the rift?
missing old pills
Bluelighter
This is the thing. I don't feel I have a problem with like minded people.
However the whole situation I'm in I feel is starting a problem to develop.
It's not good.