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I went on suboxone today since I have been so concerned with relapsing recently. I only plan to stay on it a a couple months tops until I can get my mind and body right.

I absolutely can't believe I'm back on sub. I don't have insurance either so it was quite the investment.

I got 30 8mg films and haven't decided how I am going to dose yet. Maybe 2mg per day.

I am so conflicted. Part of me wants to flush it
 
villian said:
I am so conflicted. Part of me wants to flush it
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Does the part of you that wants to flush it hold any less significance to you than the part of you that feels like keeping it?

Our moral instincts are surprisingly accurate, but are often marred by perseveration, self-doubt and bargaining.

...I've found, that is.

~ Vaya
 
Libby your cousin looks hot!!
When you wear a sleep mask, how can you Tell if you're awake or asleep? Hmm......

Morph wd's proper dragging me down today, really trying to just mow through it but its sooooo fucking hard. A good read through TDS always reassures me I'm not alone. Much love tds-ers.
 
I'm going to buy a vacuum today. This is the highlight of my day. I have a carpet vacuum and we moved to a house with tile flooring so now we need a hard floor vacuum.

Oh joys!

I love you all btw <3<3<3<3<3
 
^I've been gone for a while---what was your interview for? A job? Whatever it was for, glad it went well.<3

I am procrastinating. I love procrastinating from something I am supposed to be doing and doing other things instead. Is it rebelling against yourself or what? Whatever it is, I have been doing it all my life and I get a certain thrill out of pulling off whatever it is that is supposed to be getting done at the very last minute. =D
 
Haha I'm a last minute everything myself type of person.
Ya the interview was for a good job, been working two iffy jobs since I've been back from half way house in fl and livin in Boston. I'm goin car shoppin tomorrow which I'm real stoked for, been well over a year since I had a license. It's nice to have hard work pay off.
 
Hey everyone, I was quite busy the last weeks, which is the reason for not being around here in tds. Right now I'm sick and a bit down with it ;) but otherwise life's great! Passed the last finals a 2 weeks ago, now I'm to do a lot of internships... I also started dating again with an awesome girl, we connect so well and have a lot in common. I'm just happy right now!
 
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Ugh new batman was absolutely awful jmo , I kno most ppl say other wise but jus my two cents
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12 people dead and a shitload more injured at the Batman screening in my neck of the woods. The youngest harmed was 6 months old.

People are fucked in the head man :(

Been missing you guys but life keeps things moving at its chosen pace
 
my personal character and values, are mine to practice and portray.

another might provide a moment of experience, but only i provide a place for that moment to exist by continuing to identify with it.
 
OD, you better not run away just yet. I am only putting this picture in here for you (because it is a really bad picture of me--oh, vanity!) but I just received it from one of the people that came to the old hippie school reunion. This was my uniform back then, circa 1970, pre-Doc Martins--long dresses and my combat boots. These boots caused the biggest fight I ever had with my Dad when he tried to make me go to his boss's party and those were the only shoes I brought back to Africa with me on holiday break so my choice was barefoot (first choice) or the boots. He insisted I go but wouldn't let me go with the boots or barefoot. I can't remember what the resolution was, only that many tears were shed and many recriminations hurled.
The picture was taken at the school in Pennsylvania, however in a happier moment. I'm on my way to class (a rarity) and I'm pretty sure that I was defending my footwear, or maybe the white tights, who knows? Anyway, because I've always LOVED your boots and let you know, I thought you might get a kick out of this.



<3
 
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While we're on the topic of boots I'll show off mine!
 
havent had nausea the entire time i have been here, compared to daily and dry heaving or vomiting w/o marijuana.

my torso, or body cavity, has felt arid and spacious, the 'green gas' feeling that has been has not happened either.

the glands in my armpits arent painfully swollen, in the mornings i am not pumping out sweat that smells like copper or iodine, to the point that each time i wake there is no need to stuff paper towels under my arm pits.

the list goes on and....

i feel lucky and stubborn enough to be alive ~

and i love you too.

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all it takes is a glimmer of hope, that we carry for ourselves and one another.
 
I find a hot bath where I really scrub & massage my body esp face to be relaxing/ gets me in the zzzing mood. Also, writing in my journal helps me process things from the day. Such tactics don't always work, but since I'm relatively routine aka borin so my. Diary writing tends to lull me to sleep the most actually! Haha
 
herbavore said:
OD, you better not run away just yet. I am only putting this picture in here for you (because it is a really bad picture of me--oh, vanity!) but I just received it from one of the people that came to the old hippie school reunion. This was my uniform back then, circa 1970, pre-Doc Martins--long dresses and my combat boots. These boots caused the biggest fight I ever had with my Dad when he tried to make me go to his boss's party and those were the only shoes I brought back to Africa with me on holiday break so my choice was barefoot (first choice) or the boots. He insisted I go but wouldn't let me go with the boots or barefoot. I can't remember what the resolution was, only that many tears were shed and many recriminations hurled.
The picture was taken at the school in Pennsylvania, however in a happier moment. I'm on my way to class (a rarity) and I'm pretty sure that I was defending my footwear, or maybe the white tights, who knows? Anyway, because I've always LOVED your boots and let you know, I thought you might get a kick out of this.



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I love it!!!! (marry me! =D )

My man Howlie has got it down proper! Laced up tight and polished right %)

TAOW, I'm diggin' that you've found some peace. You've earned it and deserve it!
 
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