Sepher
Bluelight Crew
Immediate, life-threatening physical threats against loved ones go without saying. You'd laugh to look at me but I've gone all out murderous at times when my family's been threatened. No details cos not sure it's appropriate to the forum, and luckily didn't have to follow through, but would have without question and would have accepted being lifed off for it no problem as something that was necessary at the time to keep someone I love alive at someone else's expense. I'm less good at defending myself. Generally prefer to try and talk my way out of dangerous situations, sometimes taking a quick beating in preference to escalating a confrontation into something more genuinely dangerous. I don't generally find myself in situations like that anymore these days though, been a while.
On the whole I don't really do aggression at other people. All mine is turned inward, and can be sparked off by the littlest things. Frustration would be one, knowing I've been a twat would be another. I tend to bottle up my frustration with other people and swallow it down. Try for water off a duck's back mainly, which works for a while, but I can only keep a lid on the pent-up rage and frustration so long, and at some point it's gonna come roaring out of me. Alcohol's usually a big contributing factor and I have a tendency to break things when it does, but I only do it when other people aren't around so noone else getting broken, bonus. I need to get better at it, and find better ways to deal with my frustration. I am, and do generally, but it's still something to be worked on.
