Detoxing through a heroin habit and going right back to it

[jones-in_J]

Hey what's up guys!? I've been gone at a detox for heroin withdraw for the last 5 days and it's kind of sad how much i've missed posting on bluelight in that time haha... the second withdraw i went through simultaneously

Anyway I went out of state to do the detox and even got my dad to drrive me there so that I wouldn't be tempted to leave early... I don't think I would have no matter what but hell couldn't hurt to have him ride me as a precautkln

Anyway the detox wasn't nearly as bad as I was expecting.. we weren't given any suboxone or subutex which at first freaked me out and I thought it was going to be hell going through -- but as I think it was tommy boy told me, it was basically all over within 72 hours!!

They gave me a couple medications including clonodine - i think that's the main thing that helped me through the withdrawal

Anyway to the point--

After being home from detox for only a few hours I already used again... I even felt really motivated the last couple days of the detox since for the last 48-72 hour there I wasn't sick and boosted my energy and self esteem up by doing some pushups in the morning when I woke up

It's sick though, I just got done doing something really good for myself and getting the habiit out of my system only to fuck up pretty much as SOON as I get out

I know there has to be other people here who can relate... who have tried multiple times only to relapse. Myself I have been to two inpatient 30 day programs, 4 differnet halfway houses (they were all in the same program/group of houses/whatever you want to call it) and this detox.

Anyway it's nice to be back on the site catch y ou guys later!!

 

[DooMMooD]

See heres where the winners and the losers get separated.

Just because you fucked up once doesn't mean you need to fuck up again. And the sooner you grasp that, the longer and longer you will make it between each relapse.

We addicts LOVE throwing in the towel. "Oh well I used heroin today, might as well use it the next day, and the next, and the next!"

Bullshit logic. Stay strong. I"m confident you can make it FOREVER this time around. And if not that long, at least longer than 5 days.

We LOVE throwing in that towel, I cannot stress that enough. The trick is? DONT throw in the towel after 1 measly slip up.

Personal story? When i got outta detoxx back in Nov, I too literally fucked up the NEXT DAY. And you know what? I've got a probably like 5 months now.

 

[jones-in_J]

Oh dont get me wrong man im not throwing in the towel.. i go back to work today and am confident that i will not let heroin run my life any more.. and the approach that im takijg is that if i do slip up i need to seperate doses far enough as to not have to go thru withdrawal again

After re readijy my initial post i see how i definately came across as throwijg the towel in which is how i felt at the time not anymore though

Thanks for that post though it did make me feel better about things honestly

 

[Missykins]

Oh dont get me wrong man im not throwing in the towel.. i go back to work today and am confident that i will not let heroin run my life any more.. and the approach that im takijg is that if i do slip up i need to seperate doses far enough as to not have to go thru withdrawal again

After re readijy my initial post i see how i definately came across as throwijg the towel in which is how i felt at the time not anymore though

Thanks for that post though it did make me feel better about things honestly

So what are you willing to do to stay clean? Saying that you will stay off heroin is not the same thing as actually doing it.

Funny how you have a plan to avoid withdrawal but no plan to stay clean.

 

[jones-in_J]

So what are you willing to do to stay clean? Saying that you will stay off heroin is not the same thing as actually doing it.

Funny how you have a plan to avoid withdrawal but no plan to stay clean.

What am i willing to doo? Well i mean ive tried going to meetings but that never worked for me. Just not doing it worked for a year before though.

I know that didnt make sense about doing it just enough to avoid w/d's i wrote that when high.

I have bupes and kratom, im gonna try to stick to them just when urges become unbearable to where its like it's either that or dope


-edit- i re read my older posts here amd did write some dumb ass shit lol

 

[RedLeader]

Keep doing the pushups. Join a gym and let fitness become your new addiction. Feed your body healthy foods and vitamins, and after a while something very strange will happen. Your body will start craving the healthy stuff, and you won't want to do the bad stuff anymore because it will have a negative impact on your progress.