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Random MSN Gibberings 100th Edition : Salsa Dancing With My Confusion.

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Morning EADD, I only bloody overslept for work today, so emailed in and said I have had really bad anxiety this morning but it's clearing up so asked if I could come in and do a 3-7 shift today instead and they replied saying that would be fine, so work starts at 3 for me today.
 
Fuck, I think the bank just took away my overdraft. I had £80 left of my JSA that really needed to go on bills. Checked back yesterday after i'd spent £30 on shopping, and there's nothing left. Can they do this without informing me first? I bank with the Bank of Scotland.

This is really going to fuck me up if they have. :X
 
Urbain said:
Fuck, I think the bank just took away my overdraft. I had £80 left of my JSA that really needed to go on bills. Checked back yesterday after i'd spent £30 on shopping, and there's nothing left. Can they do this without informing me first? I bank with the Bank of Scotland.

This is really going to fuck me up if they have. :X
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Bad times man.

Exact opposite for me. I just upped my overdraft by £300 this morning. Only clicked through it on the off-chance, expecting to get rejected but it got accepted. I can buy weed %)
 
Urbain said:
Fuck, I think the bank just took away my overdraft. I had £80 left of my JSA that really needed to go on bills. Checked back yesterday after i'd spent £30 on shopping, and there's nothing left. Can they do this without informing me first? I bank with the Bank of Scotland.

This is really going to fuck me up if they have. :X
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MikeOekiM said:
do any Africa people post here?
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lots of Africa people post here, knockando for one is a Nigerian prince
 
Ohhh! After calling the bank, and much digging, it turns out Amazon took $49 for Amazon Prime, which I had for 2 days of the free trial before I cancelled. A genuinely nice Irish fella on the blower apologized and has refunded me. I wonder how many other people get unsuspectingly bent over and done by Amazon Prime?

Panic over. Now I can buy Whisky on Friday. And pay bills. Booze first.
 
Haha, nice work Watson :)


I'm meant to start work at 3pm today but I'm starting to get really bad work anxiety, like I can't get myself to move from the bed, it's horrible, I might have to reply again and say that I'm not coming in, but I've been pushing my luck lately and I don't want to end up jobless, I've had so much time off this financial year that I'm walking a thin rope. I'm considering checking out my options for incase I did get sacked so I know what to do to get accommodation and some moneys if it did happen. I hate work, but I really do need to keep going or it is not going to be my job for much longer.
 
I'm not going in, everyone is going to be looking at me because I am meant to start at 9am but came in at 3pm, I'll go back tomorrow even if it kills me, it will be better to go back in the morning. I;m getting panic attacks even considering going in now, so it can't be a good thing. I wish I had some benzos to help me with these panic attacks.
 
Can't be fun, Mugz.

What I would say is that if you don't go in you'll still be anxious tomorrow in all likelihood. Have you thought about going for a short walk before you start? It sometimes works wonders for my own anxiety.

It's terrible to feel the way you're feelin now, but your employer seems to be more understanding than most. I've had to turn up here soaked in sweat and with borderline hypertension before and I'd have been laughed at if I'd dared to ask if I could go home.

It's up to you of course, but you don't want to end up without a job just now.
 
it's mainly anxiety, I get horrible anxiety attacks where I literally cannot move from the position that I'm in and then my head starts going into a panic too, imagining all of the worst things that can happen, I've not actually been in since last saturday, not the one we just had but the one before that, due to anxiety, panic and drugs, not drugs today though or yesterday, just pure anxiety. My boss is pretty understanding, it's almost impossible to sack me unless I do something that constitutes gross misconduct because I'm in the NHS and they have crazy stupid (but good for me) employment laws where people can be absolute piss takers with attendance and not even get as far as an official warning.

I don't want to push it though, I'm turning up tomorrow, arriving in the morning is better than coming in midway through the day, some people who are not lab gossips will just think I had some time booked off on leave so wont say a thing but they may do if I turned up halfway through the day. Any day that I have off now I only get half pay because I've used up all of my full pay sick allowance this financial year, which is crazy as I got 2 months paid sick and it's all been used up already, not sure what's going on this year, it's been worse than others, I just need to sort myself out and get into a routine of going, is going to start tomorrow. /ramble
 
When was the last time you made a proper concerted effort to not use drugs for a long time mugz? It seems to take months to get out of your system before you're feeling how you used to, and I don't think despite not knowing you too well that you have tried abstinence for a long long time yet? I hardly knew what anxiety or depression was before I started using drugs. What do you feel you get from them, because you don't seem to enjoy most of the trips I see you writing about?
 
Mr Smokes Blunts. said:
I hardly knew what anxiety or depression was before I started using drugs. What do you feel you get from them, because you don't seem to enjoy most of the trips I see you writing about?
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I say the same, but then you have to remember that if you were like me that's from 14 years old onwards (At 16 every drug had basically been chased and ate/sniffed). I have the same problem as Mugz although not to the extent were I would get a day off work. I think drugs at that age can expose you to more emotions than you may have already felt, but I can't confirm that as that's only upon reflection and nothing I noticed at the time.

Breaks didn't really help my anxiety but I never took one longer than a month and they were poorly done, head was a mess and an attempt at my own valium script (some of you may remember me asking) did not help, one of the main triggers for it for me is boredom or being alone. So keeping yourself occupied (exercise - the big one, and a few of my hobbies) along with being out with friends is what can get my anxiety to the point were I can forget about it for a day or two. But to be honest the problem (according to the doctor, I've no complaints) is that when I'm with friends some form of drug is going to come out so I can't find out if it's the case but off the top of my head now I'm a lot more happy in a pattern of drug use than with none but you never know in the long run.. My 'panic' attacks are a lot more mental though, I used to get the physical side of them, being caught in fear sort of thing but exercise has helped that because it's made me more confident. I abbreviated panic because I'm not sure if they are panic attacks, anxiety attacks yes but I can still function quite well. I just have that feeling of complete dread, something is wrong, weird feeling in your chest and just feeling low.

My only worry is that drug use will add to it, but it doesn't seem to. I've had a complete fuckup on stimulants before (butylone/mephedrone/few others) and ended up having a proper panic attack while in what I could only describe as stimulant psychosis (was literally on the floor, in fear unable to move, hearing people speak that weren't etc for hours). I think that made my anxiety heighten temporarily along with one particular time on LSD, but nothing permanent. I do tend to feel a lot worse on Tuesdays though (even if I wasn't bashing pills at the weekend) and it's my one day designated as 'sober' day.

Mugz you seem to be in a lot worse boat than me and what I have is shit enough as it is. Much love <3 and hope it sorts itself out. One thing I always say to people and I swear by it from experience is that routine (to an extent doesn't mean go get up, get a job, go home, sleep, etc) just even a bit of a sleep schedule can really work wonders to those who are feeling off and need to so you've the right idea. Stay away from random RC stims!
 
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